PseudoMaxxer
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Sound track to the shit post I just made, what a fucking failure, how did I even come up with the “sound track” thing to threads…
Life seems so shit, october again, almost my birthday and I feel so disgusted by myself.
I’m a poor dirty little boy, working my ass off 10h a day for a couple of bucks, in a company where like 5 people know my name and even the boss doesn’t care about me.
I skip days, no one tells me shit, if I were to die they’d replace me the day after not giving a single fuck about me.
My life is shit I feel like i’m breaking down, I feel like roping rn.
Nothing makes sense, I wanna be rich and make money but everyone does, i’m no different from the average joe.
I wake up, work, get home, eat, sleep and repeat all over again. I have no discipline or motivation to do anything else.
I feel so distant from the life I envisioned when I was still in high school, I was so motivated and knew in my heart I would be different and I would have never work a normal job and would have made money online.
Now i’ll be 20 in 2 weeks, and I achieved nothing with my life, completely and utterly 0.
Im a failure, my family always told me I wasn’t gonna be shit and I might as well find a job and be a good boy there for the rest of my life. They never believed in me one second, I grew up being told I was a failure and that’s all I will ever amount to be, a total failure.
Even when I was little I was so good at football I wanted to be like Ronaldo, my mom told me I was gonna be Shitnaldo, and to shut up and she never believe in me.
She always pushed me to be like the others “look you see your friend, he took 9/10 in the last test in school you should be like him, you are so lazy and don’t wanna do anything”
And look where I am now mom, just like you said, i’m nobody, I have no friends, nothing, I work all day in a company that I hate and i’ll never get out of, I genuinely despise my life and I wanna kms every single day.
Even risking it alla and quitting is not possible, the moment i’d do that the nagging would start again “YOU FUCKING FAILURE GET A JOB!! ONLINE MONEY?? WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT GET A JOB YOU SLEEP HOME ALL DAY” for fuck same i’m gonna kill my self why does nobody care? Is a job really more important than my mental health and my own life?
I’m scared of leaving my job, working in an office with a medium wage for my country, but fuck all day long, I don’t even see the sun, I wake up it’s dark outside, get home it’s dark again.
No light, nothing at all to keep me sane. I have no work buddies, the fags at my work only fucking look at me like a dirty shit skin kid with a lot of hair that looks 12 cuz im a manlet.
I don’t really know what to do, im completely lost, I have nothing but a dream but im lazy and everyone wants to be rich and im not good enough to work all day long for myself with no results and my family would hate me.
I also need money for my car and gas so what can I do? My family is poor and struggling everyday, they are happier with me having a job and helping out with groceries every now and then.
I can’t even go live alone cuz I don’t have the money to sustain myself if I stop working.
i’m so desperate, maybe I should accept that i’ll never be anything in life but everytime J say this (like now) a voice in my head screams “NO”, it’s like a fucking curse to know we live in a society that is programmed to make us slaves, if be happier being a normal fucking human being and not know anything about this stuff.
I’d be happy with my shit job, and i’d be so proud of it.
But look at me, more than a year spent on an incel forum posting bullshit, i’m a fucking failure.
Might as well just end it.
Life seems so shit, october again, almost my birthday and I feel so disgusted by myself.
I’m a poor dirty little boy, working my ass off 10h a day for a couple of bucks, in a company where like 5 people know my name and even the boss doesn’t care about me.
I skip days, no one tells me shit, if I were to die they’d replace me the day after not giving a single fuck about me.
My life is shit I feel like i’m breaking down, I feel like roping rn.
Nothing makes sense, I wanna be rich and make money but everyone does, i’m no different from the average joe.
I wake up, work, get home, eat, sleep and repeat all over again. I have no discipline or motivation to do anything else.
I feel so distant from the life I envisioned when I was still in high school, I was so motivated and knew in my heart I would be different and I would have never work a normal job and would have made money online.
Now i’ll be 20 in 2 weeks, and I achieved nothing with my life, completely and utterly 0.
Im a failure, my family always told me I wasn’t gonna be shit and I might as well find a job and be a good boy there for the rest of my life. They never believed in me one second, I grew up being told I was a failure and that’s all I will ever amount to be, a total failure.
Even when I was little I was so good at football I wanted to be like Ronaldo, my mom told me I was gonna be Shitnaldo, and to shut up and she never believe in me.
She always pushed me to be like the others “look you see your friend, he took 9/10 in the last test in school you should be like him, you are so lazy and don’t wanna do anything”
And look where I am now mom, just like you said, i’m nobody, I have no friends, nothing, I work all day in a company that I hate and i’ll never get out of, I genuinely despise my life and I wanna kms every single day.
Even risking it alla and quitting is not possible, the moment i’d do that the nagging would start again “YOU FUCKING FAILURE GET A JOB!! ONLINE MONEY?? WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT GET A JOB YOU SLEEP HOME ALL DAY” for fuck same i’m gonna kill my self why does nobody care? Is a job really more important than my mental health and my own life?
I’m scared of leaving my job, working in an office with a medium wage for my country, but fuck all day long, I don’t even see the sun, I wake up it’s dark outside, get home it’s dark again.
No light, nothing at all to keep me sane. I have no work buddies, the fags at my work only fucking look at me like a dirty shit skin kid with a lot of hair that looks 12 cuz im a manlet.
I don’t really know what to do, im completely lost, I have nothing but a dream but im lazy and everyone wants to be rich and im not good enough to work all day long for myself with no results and my family would hate me.
I also need money for my car and gas so what can I do? My family is poor and struggling everyday, they are happier with me having a job and helping out with groceries every now and then.
I can’t even go live alone cuz I don’t have the money to sustain myself if I stop working.
i’m so desperate, maybe I should accept that i’ll never be anything in life but everytime J say this (like now) a voice in my head screams “NO”, it’s like a fucking curse to know we live in a society that is programmed to make us slaves, if be happier being a normal fucking human being and not know anything about this stuff.
I’d be happy with my shit job, and i’d be so proud of it.
But look at me, more than a year spent on an incel forum posting bullshit, i’m a fucking failure.
Might as well just end it.
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