alpoppei
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This is not directly a vent/ropefuel, but just a moment of realization I personally had.
I am brutally unappealing to looks at that I keep on having random crushes on random females just to try and see if they will accept me looks-wise. I am always seeking validation to be at peace; however, I always end up disgusted by myself. I always try to hide myself from society completely, but fail. I am included as a friend or just a random sub-human used for entertainment. I fold and get nervous at any female interaction as I’m not used to them. My brain always flags them as something significant and forces me to think about them nonstop. This drained me and I find no way to distract myself or do anything to shift this sadness. I sometimes go to the mountains to cope in nature and watch the view while feeling enraged because of my stupid genetics. Truly over.
I will be visiting a maxillofacial specialist to try and become a candidate for surgeries. Wish me success.
I am brutally unappealing to looks at that I keep on having random crushes on random females just to try and see if they will accept me looks-wise. I am always seeking validation to be at peace; however, I always end up disgusted by myself. I always try to hide myself from society completely, but fail. I am included as a friend or just a random sub-human used for entertainment. I fold and get nervous at any female interaction as I’m not used to them. My brain always flags them as something significant and forces me to think about them nonstop. This drained me and I find no way to distract myself or do anything to shift this sadness. I sometimes go to the mountains to cope in nature and watch the view while feeling enraged because of my stupid genetics. Truly over.
I will be visiting a maxillofacial specialist to try and become a candidate for surgeries. Wish me success.

