I’ve been obsessed with a girl I met online for almost 2 years now

[AnActualidoit]

Ok I know this sounds dumb and stupid but I’m posting this here because nowhere else feels right and maybe people here can actually relate. Back then I was an actual subhuman manlet. I was 15, 5’6, depressed, no friends, parents still babied me, and I hated myself. I met this girl online through a game. Never met her irl, but she still changed everything. She made the bad thoughts stop for once. She made me want to change. I started losing weight and trying to look better because of her, and that’s when I became obsessed with my looks.Because of how messed up I was mentally, I didn’t tell her the truth. I lied about my age and my name. I basically manipulated her because I was scared she’d leave if she knew who I really was. I know that’s on me. I’m not proud of it. She promised she’d stay and be there forever and I believed her because I needed that. Before I even told her how bad my mental state was, she said she was getting tired of me. I thought opening up would fix things. I thought being honest would make us closer. It didn’t. When she found out I lied, all the trust was gone instantly. She freaked out and blocked me. That was it. Now I’m 6’2 and somehow still growing, but I still feel like that same 5’6 manlet who needed her. I’m told I’m capped at MTN but I keep hoping my genetics wake up again like they did before. I keep thinking maybe if I ascend enough I’ll finally forget her. I can’t though. I check her TikToks every day. I’ve cried myself to sleep for almost two years. I still wish she loved me the way she used to. I wish she could see how I look now. I wish she hadn’t doubted me because I feel like she’d change her mind if she did. It hurts knowing that if I looked like the guy of her dreams back then, the lies probably wouldn’t have mattered. I hate that looks feel like everything now. I hate that she’s the reason I care this much. I still want her. I’d go back to being a subhuman if it meant having a happy relationship with her. Instead I’m a 6’2 MTN trying to be a chad and it still hurts just as bad. I want honest opinions. That’s why I’m posting this here.

 

[zygosmasher12]

No amount of stacies/ascending will ever fill the void. The important thing to realise is that when you’re heartbroken your mind hyper-idealises the other person, if you were to get back with her after a while you would realise how much you were over reacting

 

[banku don]

faggot

ascend and she'll be another bitch for you

 

[AnActualidoit]

No amount of stacies/ascending will ever fill the void. The important thing to realise is that when you’re heartbroken your mind hyper-idealises the other person, if you were to get back with her after a while you would realise how much you were over reacting

She messaged me again just to block me right after and posted a tiktok @ my real name i’ll never forgot her but you’re right i’ll try my best to realize she just another girl

 

[unknownincel]

dnr

 

[AnActualidoit]

faggot

ascend and she'll be another bitch for you

only way she’d be another bitch if i’m at least chadlite and my genetics aren’t seeming to take me there for now

 

[swaggers]

Ok I know this sounds dumb and stupid but I’m posting this here because nowhere else feels right and maybe people here can actually relate. Back then I was an actual subhuman manlet. I was 15, 5’6, depressed, no friends, parents still babied me, and I hated myself. I met this girl online through a game. Never met her irl, but she still changed everything. She made the bad thoughts stop for once. She made me want to change. I started losing weight and trying to look better because of her, and that’s when I became obsessed with my looks.Because of how messed up I was mentally, I didn’t tell her the truth. I lied about my age and my name. I basically manipulated her because I was scared she’d leave if she knew who I really was. I know that’s on me. I’m not proud of it. She promised she’d stay and be there forever and I believed her because I needed that. Before I even told her how bad my mental state was, she said she was getting tired of me. I thought opening up would fix things. I thought being honest would make us closer. It didn’t. When she found out I lied, all the trust was gone instantly. She freaked out and blocked me. That was it. Now I’m 6’2 and somehow still growing, but I still feel like that same 5’6 manlet who needed her. I’m told I’m capped at MTN but I keep hoping my genetics wake up again like they did before. I keep thinking maybe if I ascend enough I’ll finally forget her. I can’t though. I check her TikToks every day. I’ve cried myself to sleep for almost two years. I still wish she loved me the way she used to. I wish she could see how I look now. I wish she hadn’t doubted me because I feel like she’d change her mind if she did. It hurts knowing that if I looked like the guy of her dreams back then, the lies probably wouldn’t have mattered. I hate that looks feel like everything now. I hate that she’s the reason I care this much. I still want her. I’d go back to being a subhuman if it meant having a happy relationship with her. Instead I’m a 6’2 MTN trying to be a chad and it still hurts just as bad. I want honest opinions. That’s why I’m posting this here.

Love is the rawest human emotion, that is why you feel like this. You need to let time heal the wound. Look back on your relationship with her, was it really as good as you thought? The answer is probably no.

 

[AnActualidoit]

Love is the rawest human emotion, that is why you feel like this. You need to let time heal the wound. Look back on your relationship with her, was it really as good as you thought? The answer is probably no.

it’s a no but i was a subhuman who wasn’t loved so it felt different I can get that love but it not being her hurts

 

[swaggers]

it’s a no but i was a subhuman who wasn’t loved so it felt different I can get that love but it not being her hurts

I felt like you once apon a time too, AnActualidoit. It passes. Dont try talking to a bunch of girls, just go through life and you will naturally find someone who you really like.

 

[StyIix]

Ok I know this sounds dumb and stupid but I’m posting this here because nowhere else feels right and maybe people here can actually relate. Back then I was an actual subhuman manlet. I was 15, 5’6, depressed, no friends, parents still babied me, and I hated myself. I met this girl online through a game. Never met her irl, but she still changed everything. She made the bad thoughts stop for once. She made me want to change. I started losing weight and trying to look better because of her, and that’s when I became obsessed with my looks.Because of how messed up I was mentally, I didn’t tell her the truth. I lied about my age and my name. I basically manipulated her because I was scared she’d leave if she knew who I really was. I know that’s on me. I’m not proud of it. She promised she’d stay and be there forever and I believed her because I needed that. Before I even told her how bad my mental state was, she said she was getting tired of me. I thought opening up would fix things. I thought being honest would make us closer. It didn’t. When she found out I lied, all the trust was gone instantly. She freaked out and blocked me. That was it. Now I’m 6’2 and somehow still growing, but I still feel like that same 5’6 manlet who needed her. I’m told I’m capped at MTN but I keep hoping my genetics wake up again like they did before. I keep thinking maybe if I ascend enough I’ll finally forget her. I can’t though. I check her TikToks every day. I’ve cried myself to sleep for almost two years. I still wish she loved me the way she used to. I wish she could see how I look now. I wish she hadn’t doubted me because I feel like she’d change her mind if she did. It hurts knowing that if I looked like the guy of her dreams back then, the lies probably wouldn’t have mattered. I hate that looks feel like everything now. I hate that she’s the reason I care this much. I still want her. I’d go back to being a subhuman if it meant having a happy relationship with her. Instead I’m a 6’2 MTN trying to be a chad and it still hurts just as bad. I want honest opinions. That’s why I’m posting this here.

Dnr forget that foid

 

[AnActualidoit]

I felt like you once apon a time too, AnActualidoit. It passes. Dont try talking to a bunch of girls, just go through life and you will naturally find someone who you really like.

it’s not a about that she awakened something in me i changed everything about myself i can’t do that for any other girl i wanna reach chadlite and then maybe i can love myself as much as another girl would love me

 

[swaggers]

it’s not a about that she awakened something in me i changed everything about myself i can’t do that for any other girl i wanna reach chadlite and then maybe i can love myself as much as another girl would love me

Its okay dude, you'll heal.

 

[shmool]

Ok I know this sounds dumb and stupid but I’m posting this here because nowhere else feels right and maybe people here can actually relate. Back then I was an actual subhuman manlet. I was 15, 5’6, depressed, no friends, parents still babied me, and I hated myself. I met this girl online through a game. Never met her irl, but she still changed everything. She made the bad thoughts stop for once. She made me want to change. I started losing weight and trying to look better because of her, and that’s when I became obsessed with my looks.Because of how messed up I was mentally, I didn’t tell her the truth. I lied about my age and my name. I basically manipulated her because I was scared she’d leave if she knew who I really was. I know that’s on me. I’m not proud of it. She promised she’d stay and be there forever and I believed her because I needed that. Before I even told her how bad my mental state was, she said she was getting tired of me. I thought opening up would fix things. I thought being honest would make us closer. It didn’t. When she found out I lied, all the trust was gone instantly. She freaked out and blocked me. That was it. Now I’m 6’2 and somehow still growing, but I still feel like that same 5’6 manlet who needed her. I’m told I’m capped at MTN but I keep hoping my genetics wake up again like they did before. I keep thinking maybe if I ascend enough I’ll finally forget her. I can’t though. I check her TikToks every day. I’ve cried myself to sleep for almost two years. I still wish she loved me the way she used to. I wish she could see how I look now. I wish she hadn’t doubted me because I feel like she’d change her mind if she did. It hurts knowing that if I looked like the guy of her dreams back then, the lies probably wouldn’t have mattered. I hate that looks feel like everything now. I hate that she’s the reason I care this much. I still want her. I’d go back to being a subhuman if it meant having a happy relationship with her. Instead I’m a 6’2 MTN trying to be a chad and it still hurts just as bad. I want honest opinions. That’s why I’m posting this here.

That's act sad bro. U will find another foid DW

 

[AnActualidoit]

That's act sad bro. U will find another foid DW

i could have 10 foids but they’d never love me when i was subhuman

 

[shmool]

i could have 10 foids but they’d never love me when i was subhuman

No shit, looks is 90%, foids are foids.

 

[MouthBreathingElite]

Not one

 

[AnActualidoit]

No shit, looks is 90%, foids are foids.

i’ll move on when i ascend

 

[iblamekourtο]

Ok I know this sounds dumb and stupid but I’m posting this here because nowhere else feels right and maybe people here can actually relate. Back then I was an actual subhuman manlet. I was 15, 5’6, depressed, no friends, parents still babied me, and I hated myself. I met this girl online through a game. Never met her irl, but she still changed everything. She made the bad thoughts stop for once. She made me want to change. I started losing weight and trying to look better because of her, and that’s when I became obsessed with my looks.Because of how messed up I was mentally, I didn’t tell her the truth. I lied about my age and my name. I basically manipulated her because I was scared she’d leave if she knew who I really was. I know that’s on me. I’m not proud of it. She promised she’d stay and be there forever and I believed her because I needed that. Before I even told her how bad my mental state was, she said she was getting tired of me. I thought opening up would fix things. I thought being honest would make us closer. It didn’t. When she found out I lied, all the trust was gone instantly. She freaked out and blocked me. That was it. Now I’m 6’2 and somehow still growing, but I still feel like that same 5’6 manlet who needed her. I’m told I’m capped at MTN but I keep hoping my genetics wake up again like they did before. I keep thinking maybe if I ascend enough I’ll finally forget her. I can’t though. I check her TikToks every day. I’ve cried myself to sleep for almost two years. I still wish she loved me the way she used to. I wish she could see how I look now. I wish she hadn’t doubted me because I feel like she’d change her mind if she did. It hurts knowing that if I looked like the guy of her dreams back then, the lies probably wouldn’t have mattered. I hate that looks feel like everything now. I hate that she’s the reason I care this much. I still want her. I’d go back to being a subhuman if it meant having a happy relationship with her. Instead I’m a 6’2 MTN trying to be a chad and it still hurts just as bad. I want honest opinions. That’s why I’m posting this here.

I feel you so much bro, on July I met a girl online and turned out that she was on my city and we talked for 3 weeks and met once and made out and shit (first kiss for both of us because I too am a fucking manlet that can't talk to girls and hates socialising) And she genuinely seemed like she loved me, she was treating me like I was attractive and she told me multiple times that I am attractive and have a nice physique and was glazing it but after we went out after 4 days we broke up because she moved out to another city which we both know from the second day we were talking but she wanted to stop texting too, even now I'm still thinking about her and I don't know if I ever will, no other girl ever showed love to me like that because I'm so fucking short it's disgusting. Unless we start talking again I'm dying alone

 

[AnActualidoit]

I feel you so much bro, on July I met a girl online and turned out that she was on my city and we talked for 3 weeks and met once and made out and shit (first kiss for both of us because I too am a fucking manlet that can't talk to girls and hates socialising) And she genuinely seemed like she loved me, she was treating me like I was attractive and she told me multiple times that I am attractive and have a nice physique and was glazing it but after we went out after 4 days we broke up because she moved out to another city which we both know from the second day we were talking but she wanted to stop texting too, even now I'm still thinking about her and I don't know if I ever will, no other girl ever showed love to me like that because I'm so fucking short it's disgusting. Unless we start talking again I'm dying alone

you won’t die alone just ascend so much that you can forget her that’s what i’m trying no one gets being subhuman and having that one girl it won’t get better just try and make it better

 

[iblamekourtο]

you won’t die alone just ascend so much that you can forget her that’s what i’m trying no one gets being subhuman and having that one girl it won’t get better just try and make it better

I'm trying bro, normies are already telling me I'm above average in looks but it doesn't matter because I'm not even 5'7, since we broke up that was my goal but nothing changed and can't pull shit, I probably also reached my genetic potential and can't do more shit

 

[AnActualidoit]

I'm trying bro, normies are already telling me I'm above average in looks but it doesn't matter because I'm not even 5'7, since we broke up that was my goal but nothing changed and can't pull shit, I probably also reached my genetic potential and can't do more shit

I have been told i reached my max too just keep going if you were at the limit would girls really treat you this way that’s what helps me keep trying

 

[iblamekourtο]

I have been told i reached my max too just keep going if you were at the limit would girls really treat you this way that’s what helps me keep trying

They wouldn't if I was 6 foot and more social

 

[AnActualidoit]

They wouldn't if I was 6 foot and more social

just be social someone can be 6’5 but if they don’t know how to socialize it’s over

 

[iblamekourtο]

just be social someone can be 6’5 but if they don’t know how to socialize it’s over

I'm trying and it's getting better but idk if it's enough

 

[AnActualidoit]

I'm trying and it's getting better but idk if it's enough

just keep trying it’s never enough but it’s always better than before and that’s all that matters goodluck