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I know it is fucking ridiculous and if you think I am an idiot I'd have to agree...but I had a 5 TB collection of porn. It contained roughly 20.000 videos. I had a lot of very specific fetish content. A lot of BDSM. I had a lot of paid content. Starting at 1998 I invested more than $10.000 in porn. I had thousands of bookmarks in my browser. I had lots of porn on my phone too.
So last week I deleted all of it. Every last bit including backups (I had multiple backups). I cleaned my phone. I deleted everything. The thing was porn would pop up as soon as I'd look on my phone or PC and it would distract me and invite me to fap all the time.
What is amazing is that it is already losing it's power over me. The need to watch porn or fap has drastically gone down as my phone and PC do not constantly invite me to fap anymore. I am not constantly being triggered and thus the need is going down. That's good.
I missed it just a little bit the first 2-3 days. But it felt very good. Seeing those files going away from my hard drives felt like a relief. And I do not regret it. Not at all. I feel like this shit was damaging my mind.
So last week I deleted all of it. Every last bit including backups (I had multiple backups). I cleaned my phone. I deleted everything. The thing was porn would pop up as soon as I'd look on my phone or PC and it would distract me and invite me to fap all the time.
What is amazing is that it is already losing it's power over me. The need to watch porn or fap has drastically gone down as my phone and PC do not constantly invite me to fap anymore. I am not constantly being triggered and thus the need is going down. That's good.
I missed it just a little bit the first 2-3 days. But it felt very good. Seeing those files going away from my hard drives felt like a relief. And I do not regret it. Not at all. I feel like this shit was damaging my mind.