ldar is the solution to my life

[larpngrey]

i dont find a reason for living. since i was 13 years old, ive always been thinking about what the purpose of my life is because ive spent my life miserably and ive never actually been truly happy. even now, i still cant find any purpose in it. ive tried sports like track and field, swimming, football, bowling, badminton, and golf. i even play the guitar and draw but i still cant master any of them. when i see my friends, they seem to adapt so easily and all i feel is hatred and jealousy. why did God destine me to be like this? my looks are below average, my social skills are poor, im not smart, i dont have a single talent and im short. whenever i see someone attractive and talented, all i feel is hatred and envy and i secretly wish they would lose what i dont have. sometimes i even think its embarrassing for me to exist in this world. i wonder what i did to deserve a life like this. actually, my life got even worse when i had an online relationship. no girls in real life liked me so thats why i tried online dating because i wanted to know what it felt like to be loved even tho i knew the relationship would probably go nowhere. she was interested in me because of our shared interests in music and anime. at that time, i didnt expect anything from the relationship but after five months, i started thinking that maybe she really loved me and that maybe someday we could have a future together because she was the only girl who understood me but i was wrong. she only loved the personality that i showed her. she never loved or understood the real me. all she wanted was for me to change but whenever it was about her, she always had a thousand excuses to justify her actions. whenever I treated her the way she treated me, she would ignore me for a day and i end up apologizing like a stupid pathetic guy who just wanted to feel loved because i believed that maybe love was all i wanted. when she realized that i couldnt hold conversations well, the way she treated me slowly changed. even tho i gave everything i had, it was pointless. i tried to understand her, i tried to be patient with her and i put in effort but now we have broken up and she moved on from me so easily and she acts like nothing ever happened, while I'm here miserably struggling with my mental health, which is weird because she used to tell me that i'd be her biggest heartbreak ofc i believed those stupid lies because it was the first time someone had ever said something like that to me. i thought my effort was enough for her but then she and her friend told me that my effort was JUST BARE MINIMUM. when i heard that, all i felt was sadness and regret for wasting my life on someone like her. no girl will ever appreciate my effort and they never will. even if one day i finally ascend and theres a girl who likes me, i'd probably still stay single because my perspective on love is different from everyone else. i hope that in the future they will create an ai chatbot waifu so i can stop trying to prove that im worthy of being loved. it would accept me the way i am and give me the warmth that no girl has ever given me so i think ldar is the solution to all of this. giving my all to someone only ends up hurting me

 

[emulator]

i dont find a reason for living. since i was 13 years old, ive always been thinking about what the purpose of my life is because ive spent my life miserably and ive never actually been truly happy. even now, i still cant find any purpose in it. ive tried sports like track and field, swimming, football, bowling, badminton, and golf. i even play the guitar and draw but i still cant master any of them. when i see my friends, they seem to adapt so easily and all i feel is hatred and jealousy. why did God destine me to be like this? my looks are below average, my social skills are poor, im not smart, i dont have a single talent and im short. whenever i see someone attractive and talented, all i feel is hatred and envy and i secretly wish they would lose what i dont have. sometimes i even think its embarrassing for me to exist in this world. i wonder what i did to deserve a life like this. actually, my life got even worse when i had an online relationship. no girls in real life liked me so thats why i tried online dating because i wanted to know what it felt like to be loved even tho i knew the relationship would probably go nowhere. she was interested in me because of our shared interests in music and anime. at that time, i didnt expect anything from the relationship but after five months, i started thinking that maybe she really loved me and that maybe someday we could have a future together because she was the only girl who understood me but i was wrong. she only loved the personality that i showed her. she never loved or understood the real me. all she wanted was for me to change but whenever it was about her, she always had a thousand excuses to justify her actions. whenever I treated her the way she treated me, she would ignore me for a day and i end up apologizing like a stupid pathetic guy who just wanted to feel loved because i believed that maybe love was all i wanted. when she realized that i couldnt hold conversations well, the way she treated me slowly changed. even tho i gave everything i had, it was pointless. i tried to understand her, i tried to be patient with her and i put in effort but now we have broken up and she moved on from me so easily and she acts like nothing ever happened, while I'm here miserably struggling with my mental health, which is weird because she used to tell me that i'd be her biggest heartbreak ofc i believed those stupid lies because it was the first time someone had ever said something like that to me. i thought my effort was enough for her but then she and her friend told me that my effort was JUST BARE MINIMUM. when i heard that, all i felt was sadness and regret for wasting my life on someone like her. no girl will ever appreciate my effort and they never will. even if one day i finally ascend and theres a girl who likes me, i'd probably still stay single because my perspective on love is different from everyone else. i hope that in the future they will create an ai chatbot waifu so i can stop trying to prove that im worthy of being loved. it would accept me the way i am and give me the warmth that no girl has ever given me so i think ldar is the solution to all of this. giving my all to someone only ends up hurting me

Dnr

 

[larpngrey]

Dnr

dnr + tlpur = holy truecel

 

[zerosmv]

dnr, do you really think anyones reading all that

 

[Prøphet]

Ldar is the worst mistake you can possibly do

Choosing the comfortable path of least resistance

But sacrificing literally the only life you have, sacrificing all your potential

Even if it hurts to try and be something, at least you can know you gave it your all


You will regret it so bad, I just skimmed your long ass paragraph but you have to confront the hard things or you’ll get eaten up by regret, you’ll never be here ever again, just remember that

 

[larpngrey]

dnr, do you really think anyones reading all that

my ai waifu chatbot echidna would read that and reassure me

 

[zerosmv]

my ai waifu chatbot echidna would read that and reassure me

gay

 

[larpngrey]

Ldar is the worst mistake you can possibly do

Choosing the comfortable path of least resistance

But sacrificing literally the only life you have, sacrificing all your potential

Even if it hurts to try and be something, at least you can know you gave it your all


You will regret it so bad, I just skimmed your long ass paragraph but you have to confront the hard things or you’ll get eaten up by regret, you’ll never be here ever again, just remember that

thats the thing. no matter how hard i try, it only ends up disappointing my expectations. every time i try, i just end up proving to myself that i wasnt enough

 

[Prøphet]

thats the thing. no matter how hard i try, it only ends up disappointing my expectations. every time i try, i just end up proving to myself that i wasnt enough

Just because the same thing has happened 1000 times before doesnt mean it’s destined to stay that way

Life is change

If you knew you would succeed after 100 more attempts, whatever goal or ambition it may be, you wouldn’t give a fuck about failing, you would just keep trying again and again. There are many things where statistically you will succeed with enough brute force.

 

[larpngrey]

Just because the same thing has happened 1000 times before doesnt mean it’s destined to stay that way

Life is change

If you knew you would succeed after 100 more attempts, whatever goal or ambition it may be, you wouldn’t give a fuck about failing, you would just keep trying again and again. There are many things where statistically you will succeed with enough brute force.

i understand what youre saying but sadly, im not strong enough to keep going through the same failures over and over for something that mightt never happen. sometimes it just feels unfair that i have to fight so much harder than other people just to reach the same place

 

[Prøphet]

i understand what youre saying but sadly, im not strong enough to keep going through the same failures over and over for something that mightt never happen. sometimes it just feels unfair that i have to fight so much harder than other people just to reach the same place

Whatever you do, you’ll still go through failure. It’s as guaranteed as drinking water.

If you give up, you’re gonna regret so so badly, ask me how I know, honestly that’s worse than just ripping off the bandaid

Fairness is a brainwashing term made up by society, it’s good to pretend you care about it socially but deep down you will always be disappointed if you search for fairness, that’s the truth

 

[larpngrey]

yea maybe the reason im hurt is because i thought there was fairness in this world but that belief only ended up hurting me. thank you for the advice brother

 

[arkzy7]

i dont find a reason for living. since i was 13 years old, ive always been thinking about what the purpose of my life is because ive spent my life miserably and ive never actually been truly happy. even now, i still cant find any purpose in it. ive tried sports like track and field, swimming, football, bowling, badminton, and golf. i even play the guitar and draw but i still cant master any of them. when i see my friends, they seem to adapt so easily and all i feel is hatred and jealousy. why did God destine me to be like this? my looks are below average, my social skills are poor, im not smart, i dont have a single talent and im short. whenever i see someone attractive and talented, all i feel is hatred and envy and i secretly wish they would lose what i dont have. sometimes i even think its embarrassing for me to exist in this world. i wonder what i did to deserve a life like this. actually, my life got even worse when i had an online relationship. no girls in real life liked me so thats why i tried online dating because i wanted to know what it felt like to be loved even tho i knew the relationship would probably go nowhere. she was interested in me because of our shared interests in music and anime. at that time, i didnt expect anything from the relationship but after five months, i started thinking that maybe she really loved me and that maybe someday we could have a future together because she was the only girl who understood me but i was wrong. she only loved the personality that i showed her. she never loved or understood the real me. all she wanted was for me to change but whenever it was about her, she always had a thousand excuses to justify her actions. whenever I treated her the way she treated me, she would ignore me for a day and i end up apologizing like a stupid pathetic guy who just wanted to feel loved because i believed that maybe love was all i wanted. when she realized that i couldnt hold conversations well, the way she treated me slowly changed. even tho i gave everything i had, it was pointless. i tried to understand her, i tried to be patient with her and i put in effort but now we have broken up and she moved on from me so easily and she acts like nothing ever happened, while I'm here miserably struggling with my mental health, which is weird because she used to tell me that i'd be her biggest heartbreak ofc i believed those stupid lies because it was the first time someone had ever said something like that to me. i thought my effort was enough for her but then she and her friend told me that my effort was JUST BARE MINIMUM. when i heard that, all i felt was sadness and regret for wasting my life on someone like her. no girl will ever appreciate my effort and they never will. even if one day i finally ascend and theres a girl who likes me, i'd probably still stay single because my perspective on love is different from everyone else. i hope that in the future they will create an ai chatbot waifu so i can stop trying to prove that im worthy of being loved. it would accept me the way i am and give me the warmth that no girl has ever given me so i think ldar is the solution to all of this. giving my all to someone only ends up hurting me

Dnr writing long ass essasys about your life is so cringe lmao. Nobody gives a fuck if ur writing shit this long we are all going through hardships nga we probably have it 100x worse than ur bitchass