Life as an autist is LITERALLY SUBHUMAN 😢🔫

[Alienmaxxer]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

 

[Alienmaxxer]

0

 

[NVM_Ignacio]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

Im so sorry bro, things get better

 

[WonkyChin186]

water

what you described is way worse than regular aspie tho

and being 5'0 would be about on par with that

 

[Alienmaxxer]

Im so sorry bro, things get better

Do they, though? I mean it's not like I'm getting healed. Thanks for the words of encouragement all the same.

what you described is way worse than regular aspie tho

and being 5'0 would be about on par with that

It's par for the course for an autist I think, what makes me different in your opinion? Autists are usually treated as subhumans socially. Even chads like @Orc couldn't get a girlfriend.
See my thread (maybe you already saw it): https://looksmax.org/threads/nuclea...-sub-burnvictim-according-to-science.2088118/

 

[Prøphet]

Same

 

[Prøphet]

water

what you described is way worse than regular aspie tho

and being 5'0 would be about on par with that

This is what being genuinely aspie is like not those kids who see one TikTok edit and start claiming ND

 

[WonkyChin186]

This is what being genuinely aspie is like not those kids who see one TikTok edit and start claiming ND

you don't even seem aspie nigga i didn't read most of it but it sounds like severe social anxiety or smth

you aren't giving the uncanny different species vibe every actual aspie has

 

[WonkyChin186]

This is what being genuinely aspie is like not those kids who see one TikTok edit and start claiming ND

like some guy you never speak to complains about a problem, a low eq NT response would be "damn", an ND response would be "Okay?"

 

[Prøphet]

you don't even seem aspie nigga i didn't read most of it but it sounds like severe social anxiety or smth

you aren't giving the uncanny different species vibe every actual aspie has

That uncanny vibe is from nonverbal cues and physical presentation, it cant be inferred from just words

 

[Prøphet]

like some guy you never speak to complains about a problem, a low eq NT response would be "damn", an ND response would be "Okay?"

It’s a spectrum

 

[WonkyChin186]

That uncanny vibe is from nonverbal cues and physical presentation, it cant be inferred from just words

Nah it definitely can, I'm an expert in spotting it atp

 

[Iblamelarper]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

over for us ndcels

 

[WonkyChin186]

It’s a spectrum

nvm i read ur thread properly, these 2 sentences are ND

I'd guess average aspie from that

 

[Prøphet]

nvm i read ur thread properly, these 2 sentences are ND

I'd guess average aspie from that

That’s not me btw

 

[WonkyChin186]

That’s not me btw

oh JFL

i was talking to the other nigga then mb

 

[WonkyChin186]

These are also clearly aspie

 

[WonkyChin186]

These are also clearly aspie

hateable

 

[isis_Bleach]

yep and if u were a girl ur autism would be wrote off as cute and shy but as a dude its seen as worse than being a killer

 

[WonkyChin186]

Do they, though? I mean it's not like I'm getting healed. Thanks for the words of encouragement all the same.

It's par for the course for an autist I think, what makes me different in your opinion? Autists are usually treated as subhumans socially. Even chads like @Orc couldn't get a girlfriend.
See my thread (maybe you already saw it): https://looksmax.org/threads/nuclea...-sub-burnvictim-according-to-science.2088118/

all of this message is aspie af too

It even looks aspie at a skim

even blurred not being able to read the words the structure is aspie

 

[WonkyChin186]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

you can instantly seem way more nt over text if you stop using capital letters fullstops and commas, it's extremely autistic, i realised just now I'm using them but it's in an NT way that I can't explain because my brain isnt aspie, so for you just try to severely limit them wherever possible

if you reply with just one sentence NEVER use a full stop

 

[Alienmaxxer]

all of this message is aspie af too

It even looks aspie at a skim

even blurred not being able to read the words the structure is aspie

nvm i read ur thread properly, these 2 sentences are ND

I'd guess average aspie from that

These are also clearly aspie

ts frying me

But I'd say it's harder to tell autism from text. Thin slice judgment studies show text / the actual content of what you say isn't that differently perceived from a neurotypical, what is more differently perceived is bodily presentation, voice, movement, etc.

you can instantly seem way more nt over text if you stop using capital letters fullstops and commas, it's extremely autistic, i realised just now I'm using them but it's in an NT way that I can't explain because my brain isnt aspie, so for you just try to severely limit them wherever possible

if you reply with just one sentence NEVER use a full stop

Yeah some autists do this because they suck at register shifts (e.g. the way you'd talk to a friend is different than the way you'd talk to a parent, autists talk to each in more similar a way than normal).

 

[freeshavacadoo]

dnr but facts

 

[WonkyChin186]

ts frying me

But I'd say it's harder to tell autism from text. Thin slice judgment studies show text / the actual content of what you say isn't that differently perceived from a neurotypical, what is more differently perceived is bodily presentation, voice, movement, etc.


Yeah some autists do this because they suck at register shifts (e.g. the way you'd talk to a friend is different than the way you'd talk to a parent, autists talk to each in more similar a way than normal).

yeah and you're still foken doing it

stop with the fullstops

Being aspie can improved heavily if you have an nt guy constantly pointing out what sentences are ND and not and what to say etc

 

[Hihi21]

Dnr

Dramatic much?

 

[WonkyChin186]

ts frying me

But I'd say it's harder to tell autism from text. Thin slice judgment studies show text / the actual content of what you say isn't that differently perceived from a neurotypical, what is more differently perceived is bodily presentation, voice, movement, etc.


Yeah some autists do this because they suck at register shifts (e.g. the way you'd talk to a friend is different than the way you'd talk to a parent, autists talk to each in more similar a way than normal).

the ts frying me was aspie because the laughter emojis the wrong way around to the words, what i said also wasn't funny in the slightest so laughing at it is nd, it created the uncanny effect

 

[NVM_Ignacio]

Do they, though? I mean it's not like I'm getting healed. Thanks for the words of encouragement all the same.

Work hard and start learning about how the world works, u shape ur own reality, not saying its easy or u will live exactly as u dream of but things can get better. I dont doubt ur an intelligent guy, u got this.

 

[WonkyChin186]

ts frying me

But I'd say it's harder to tell autism from text. Thin slice judgment studies show text / the actual content of what you say isn't that differently perceived from a neurotypical, what is more differently perceived is bodily presentation, voice, movement, etc.


Yeah some autists do this because they suck at register shifts (e.g. the way you'd talk to a friend is different than the way you'd talk to a parent, autists talk to each in more similar a way than normal).

this is an example of extremely aspie tones

 

[Alienmaxxer]

yeah and you're still foken doing it

stop with the fullstops

Being aspie can improved heavily if you have an nt guy constantly pointing out what sentences are ND and not and what to say etc

the ts frying me was aspie because the laughter emojis the wrong way around to the words, what i said also wasn't funny in the slightest so laughing at it is nd, it created the uncanny effect

this is an example of extremely aspie tones

Nigga I'm not going to mask here. Yeah it's an aspie tone because I'm autistic. I'm not LARPing NT like a pathetic abused dog on an incel forum. Here I can talk the way I want.

 

[WonkyChin186]

Nigga I'm not going to mask here. Yeah it's an aspie tone because I'm autistic. I'm not LARPing NT like a pathetic abused dog on an incel forum. Here I can talk the way I want.

you should practise nt behaviors because it will help with texting regular people and irl

and i sent a video, the guy had aspie tones yet the content of what he said was normalish, just building off of what u said

 

[Alienmaxxer]

Work hard and start learning about how the world works, u shape ur own reality, not saying its easy or u will live exactly as u dream of but things can get better. I dont doubt ur an intelligent guy, u got this.

"Just learn how the world works bro"
"Just work hard bro"
"You can do anything!!!!"

... how exactly? The ability to learn socially is broken in my brain. That's why I don't know these things. Because normies are born with intuitively knowing the social passwords and just adapt to their time. Normies have a social intuition they can check agains twhether something is right to do or not, I don't. That means I have to learn these things the way someone would learn a school subject like physics.

But the information doesn't exist to learn because sociology isn't developed enough yet (since socializing is unconsciously done). There aren't books you can read with this information, I've checked. I've looked at autism social skills books for kids and they're useless and filled with water (or even socially harmful) information. I've also tried reading books on pragmatics in lingustics and studied politeness theory. For body language, I can only find pseudoscience books on detecting liars and shit which are scams. I've studied psychology books and read the works of different sociologists. They don't contain this info. And using it in an evolving convo is hard to say the least, since you are trying to do socially basic things that don't come naturally to you already.

Like that is not possible, my working memory isn't powerful enough to consciously maneuver my body language, eye contact, voice inflection, and recite scripts according to language rules. And I have to do it consciously, again, because I can't do it intuitively. I have to pretend.

Try patting your head while rubbing your belly. Sort of hard, right? But that is only two simple things. I'd have to do four things much more complex than that at the same time, while having a conversation. All according to rules not even professional sociologists know.

Just derive the hidden secrets of human communication that not even sociologists or normies themselves know since it's all intuitive and unconscious for them, then consciously puppeteer your whole social presentation in real time just to get treated normally theory.

 

[NVM_Ignacio]

"Just learn how the world works bro"
"Just work hard bro"
"You can do anything!!!!"

... how exactly? The ability to learn socially is broken in my brain. That's why I don't know these things. Because normies are born with intuitively knowing the social passwords and just adapt to their time. Normies have a social intuition they can check agains twhether something is right to do or not, I don't. That means I have to learn these things the way someone would learn a school subject like physics.

But the information doesn't exist to learn because sociology isn't developed enough yet (since socializing is unconsciously done). There aren't books you can read with this information, I've checked. I've looked at autism social skills books for kids and they're useless and filled with water (or even socially harmful) information. I've also tried reading books on pragmatics in lingustics and studied politeness theory. For body language, I can only find pseudoscience books on detecting liars and shit which are scams. I've studied psychology books and read the works of different sociologists. They don't contain this info. And using it in an evolving convo is hard to say the least, since you are trying to do socially basic things that don't come naturally to you already.

Like that is not possible, my working memory isn't powerful enough to consciously maneuver my body language, eye contact, voice inflection, and recite scripts according to language rules. And I have to do it consciously, again, because I can't do it intuitively. I have to pretend.

Try patting your head while rubbing your belly. Sort of hard, right? But that is only two simple things. I'd have to do four things much more complex than that at the same time, while having a conversation. All according to rules not even professional sociologists know.

Just derive the hidden secrets of human communication that not even sociologists or normies themselves know since it's all intuitive and unconscious for them, then consciously puppeteer your whole social presentation in real time just to get treated normally theory.

see? Ur intectual capacity is really good, I can tell just by the way u write and think.
Im just saying u got potential to be an outlier on anything u study, money comes, validation comes, bitches comes, friends comes.

Its all about maxxing everything u can

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

Youre stupid probably not autistic

I am an extreme weirdo and I embrace it, the people at work find it funny

You're high inhib, and not funny, and not clever , that is your problem.

Only extreme nonverbal autism is actually unbeatable

 

[Alienmaxxer]

you should practise nt behaviors because it will help with texting regular people and irl

and i sent a video, the guy had aspie tones yet the content of what he said was normalish, just building off of what u said

It isn't really that simple. NT people don't understand what it's like not knowing these things, so they just say stuff like "learn it bro" when there is no manual or clear rules and the NT people don't even know what they're doing right.

Like if I were to do something off, you would get a cringe feeling. I don't, so I don't know what isn't NT. I can't just take a video of myself and tell which parts are wrong about it.

Youre stupid probably not autistic

I am an extreme weirdo and I embrace it, the people at work find it funny

You're high inhib, and not funny, and not clever , that is your problem.

Only extreme nonverbal autism is actually unbeatable

You sound like a jester, no offense. I was also viewed as an extreme weirdo and played it off as me being a jester the same way. People found me very funny, but no one respected me or saw me as one of them, just a jester weirdo guy on the sidelines. I was abandoned just the same. It really didn't work. In fact, your whole message sounds like something a previous version of me would have said, thinking he found a way out lol.

As for "youre stupid," I was always viewed as smart by everyone I talked to. Not that it matters, you just brought it up.

 

[Alienmaxxer]

see? Ur intectual capacity is really good, I can tell just by the way u write and think.
Im just saying u got potential to be an outlier on anything u study, money comes, validation comes, bitches comes, friends comes.

Its all about maxxing everything u can

Well, I appreciate the nice words man. I'll keep on improving what I can.

 

[castizo_ascender]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

fr im a diagnosed sperg. The worst part imo is going outside and seeing people shorter and worse looking than you with girlfriends

like for context im 5'10 barefoot, 6' in lifts and high mtn. and i will see people who are ltns or manlet mtns with non overweight mtbs and lhtbs because the foids here care more about status and social proof than anything else

And AFAIK a lot of actual scientific studies show that having autism/aspergers/general nd vs being nt is an even stronger predictor of future singlehood/inceldom than looks and height. Not trying to cope and say it doesn't matter because face and height obviously matter a lot. But NT really is law.

And inb4 "cope". Doesn't matter if you don't believe it. As rehab says "the evidence sees it it that way"

 

[Deleted member 297070]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

Real
You just have to accept that you will inherently set off the uncanny valley to NTs
My solutions to this have been to find and keep around a couple close ND friends, learn how to mask appropriately to keep cordial relationships with NTs and become big and intimidating enough that nobody will ever fuck with me again

I plan to just blast when I hop on soon until I’m scary looking enough to shut people up tbh. I make an effort to make dudes insecure about their looks if they try that shit at sub MTN or are manlets or skinny or smth thats a decent weapon. You need to either give them something to gain from being nice to you or something to lose from fucking with you

 

[Deleted member 297070]

also just learn to lie really well
I was genuinely a KHHV loser before uni and I just larped my way to ascending until the lies i told matched my reality

 

[castizo_ascender]

Real
You just have to accept that you will inherently set off the uncanny valley to NTs
My solutions to this have been to find and keep around a couple close ND friends, learn how to mask appropriately to keep cordial relationships with NTs and become big and intimidating enough that nobody will ever fuck with me again

I plan to just blast when I hop on soon until I’m scary looking enough to shut people up tbh. I make an effort to make dudes insecure about their looks if they try that shit at sub MTN or are manlets or skinny or smth thats a decent weapon. You need to either give them something to gain from being nice to you or something to lose from fucking with you

Yes I generally do that

I just don't talk moee than I have to and i mask. But it is very tiring to talk with normies even when they are friendly

 

[castizo_ascender]

also just learn to lie really well
I was genuinely a KHHV loser before uni and I just larped my way to ascending until the lies i told matched my reality

Very high risk high reward tbh

 

[Deleted member 297070]

Very high risk high reward tbh

zero risk if you dont give a fuck
i’ve lived through enough humiliation rituals i dont give a fuck if someone wants to expose me

 

[MakinItHappen]

I hate this stupid unfair disability where you will be trashed and rejected and ignored no matter how smart or attractive or talented or nice etc etc you are, it literally doesn't matter one bit because you'll be treated like a diseased clumsy retarded subhuman child no matter what. It's so fucking unfair. Being born 5'0 IS NOTHING NOT EVEN CLOSE AS BAD to being autistic. Not even in the same neighbourhood. I literally have no friends where I live, not a single one. I have no one to talk to or go out with irl. Everyone I talk to excommunicates me like a stinky subhuman from their lives after a few weeks. I ROT IN MY ROOM AND DO MATH. I'm forced to be a lonely hermit rotting away in his room while getting brutally friend mogged and experience mogged by everyone around me when I go outside, with friend groups relaxing in the sun having fun while I have to walk by and suffer looking at their happiness LIKE A CUCK. Absolutely brutal.

The best I can do is come up with increasingly autistic and elaborate and detailed attempts at making people accept me like an episode of fucking Watamote. And they always fail and leave me even more hurt since my brain copes so when reality reveals itself that I am an abused disabled reject it hurts even more and brings all my negative memories back of getting treated like an abused dog. It copes and thinks "no bro people actually don't hate who you fundamentally are" and ignores all negative memories of me getting brutally abandoned by friends and rejected, then when the truth is revealed all the memories come rushing back like Deathnote when Light touches the notebook again. I hate it so much.

I remember when I was younger, I would be a jester since it was the only way people would accept me, and anytime I would reveal anything genuine about my tastes (say in music) or opinions they would immediately be shat on and called trash and treated as ridiculous. So I would have to pretend they were also jokes. I at least stood up for myself by joking back when people would try to shit talk me. Eventually even though I was a jester I was brutally abandoned all the same. The "person" I talked to the most was probably my little dog after that. I've since moved away, and she died a few weeks ago.

I cry multiple times a day over my garbage unfair life. I've tried so many intricate autistic strategies and they all failed one after the other just because who I fundamentally am at my core is so unlikeable to others. And there is nothing I can do to change it because it's baked into my disabled brain.

Confusing high IQ with autism.

 

[Deleted member 297070]

Confusing high IQ with autism.

high iq nts have it incredibly easy wdym

 

[MakinItHappen]

high iq nts have it incredibly easy wdym

You're still confusing being intro-perspective and profound as a thinker, with being autistic.

 

[Deleted member 297070]

You're still confusing being intro-perspective and profound as a thinker, with being autistic.

i dnrd most of the original post but im diagnosed if that helps

 

[WonkyChin186]

It isn't really that simple. NT people don't understand what it's like not knowing these things, so they just say stuff like "learn it bro" when there is no manual or clear rules and the NT people don't even know what they're doing right.

Like if I were to do something off, you would get a cringe feeling. I don't, so I don't know what isn't NT. I can't just take a video of myself and tell which parts are wrong about it.


You sound like a jester, no offense. I was also viewed as an extreme weirdo and played it off as me being a jester the same way. People found me very funny, but no one respected me or saw me as one of them, just a jester weirdo guy on the sidelines. I was abandoned just the same. It really didn't work. In fact, your whole message sounds like something a previous version of me would have said, thinking he found a way out lol.

As for "youre stupid," I was always viewed as smart by everyone I talked to. Not that it matters, you just brought it up.

yeah i mean getting an nt person to constantly point out the uncanny parts and explain why and you trying not to repeat them will make you seem more nt over time

lots of high iq aspies will become high functioning by simply analysing this to death and constantly micromanaging all of their behaviors to seem nt

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

Like if I were to do something off, you would get a cringe feeling. I don't, so I don't know what isn't NT.

Perhaps I'm not nearly as ND as you because this is barely comprehensible to me,

I was mistaken, I apologize

But if you're smart, you should be smart enough to make clever jokes same as me, I am a bit of a jester, but I have an IQ of atleast 115 and I'm considered smart as well, I got promoted to general manager of a resturant from just being a server despite having no experience even as a server, much less managerial experience, this happened over just 60 days just due to competence and being quick to solve problems

I believe your issue is that you want to fit in, I stopped caring, you mentioned being abandoned

I think that's the part that made this worse for you than for me, I was isolated because my best friend died, and I just stopped talking to everyone else

Nobody abandonded me

I spend all of my time alone, I am a weirdo, being isolated and dealing with a very unfortunate upbringing made me stronger and less penetrable, i think thats a good thing

after spending all this time alone, for a socially neutral reason, if i actually was abandonded (by my girl, i dont have any friends, and she literally calls me weird all the time because of my weird high level vocabulary and strange jokes) it wouldnt do very much to me, id recover quickly

What is your IQ and actual diagnosis?

I know sociopaths who can get along fine with other people and they too lack these sensations, of cringe, of empathy, they're empty people

if you are smart, how is pattern recognition not enough for you to think of a clever joke?

Are you an annoying person besides the cringe ND behavior? are you unpleasant to be around for genuine reasons that would apply to normies as well?

be honest.

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

yeah i mean getting an nt person to constantly point out the uncanny parts and explain why and you trying not to repeat them will make you seem more nt over time

lots of high iq aspies will become high functioning by simply analysing this to death and constantly micromanaging all of their behaviors to seem nt

Charismatic people are just high iq and good at pattern recognition

A comedian that does crowd work, you think he's a 50th percentile NT schmuck?

No, he's quite clever, clever enough to blend in

I've always thought that charisma, is not at all NT. It's the opposite

It's a weirdo who embraces it unapologetically,

The people around him can see he doesn't care what they think, and then they subconsciously look up to him for this, or something like that

Being ND is not a curse, you want to be normal? Like the sheep around you being herded?

 

[YourLocalLMTN]

life is unfair but what can we do about it, god's dice roll fucked you up

 

[HairVolume]

It comes with practice; you need to force yourself to be more social gradually.

Literally force yourself initially, and things will come on their own.