Lifemax

[d4z]

LIFE UPDATE #3
9/16/2026
w3

my life:
fucking shit
i'm sick skipped school sleep was horrible
Everything is overwelming
Social interaction is horrible
social battery on 0

my brother had a party during the weekend and i got sick and i feel like shit
i wrote sum emotional bullshit in my phone notes on sunday but i'm not gonna post it
i feel like shit and the brain fog is killing me





money:
mid asf i bought 5 accs one is up like 3.5-4% it's moving hella slow
my funded acc 5k is down doesn't look like ill be seeing payouts any time soon
i feel like shit idk wtf to even do
yesterday i couldn't trade cuz my head was spinning i am tired as shit and i had extra classses from 5pm (4.30pm is nyse open for me)
i don't even know wtf is going on like i'm js annoyed i can't just lock in can't js do sth
fuck





GYM:
going kinda shit ill start bulking next week
fuck the cut and being lean it's not working ill js cut enhanced once i can take stuff
i benched at 5am on sunday 120kg
while my drunk homies were sleeping in my basement
i feel weak af
i have not trained since than
and now it's wednesday
atp i'm training twice a week fucking shit
so ill js bulk wtv be fat and ugly idc
i js wanna make sum money and take roids rn

so like idk ts week js like stop being sick and make a plan for ts bulk and training and wtv
and than like next week js start wtv i can

today is going shit bruh fuck i hate being sick i'm js confused asf and don't know wtf to do
ill try get sum tasks done but i'm so fucked rn

money and roids

i might tbh js run a cutting stack once i get money
cuz like i can bench 3 plates or more within 2m natty i'd say
and than if i can get my hands on sum hq stuff i can prob be sub 10% bf within 2 months and keep strenght

idgaf abt my health atp

i js wanna have an income and take roids bruh
i'm too autistic to have a girlfriend anyway i'm fundamentally unlovable rn