cyberjap
i swat whores
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I’ve been with a long distance girlfriend (shes an autist) for 9 months, we met on discord and bonded over us both being disabled with chronic illnesses and shit, she was always attention seeking since the start, would act sexual in servers to get attention. She had a male best friend that I was suspicious of and one day during the beginning of the relationship she said that they were having a sleepover at her house for a few nights, I wasn’t ecstatic but told her to not cross any boundaries or cuddle or anything, but a few nights later she told me that he ended up cuddling her to sleep and petting her. I told her to cut him off and she did. A few months after this, I still noticed that she would make random sexual remarks for attention in servers and was talking to this one Albanian dude in a server while we were in a bad period of our relationship, turns out they ended up having “esex” where she fingered herself and showed him her titties on camera. Separate from this she told me that she had a sexual history of being a whore on discord for attention from the beginning, and of course yeah these things lined up with it even though she told me she changed, but I just wanted to keep getting more esex and shit from her and the relationship went on and I made her block everyone etc. Now here’s the main concern now, she had a femboy ex in which she would do really freaky extensive sexual shit with like tie him up and give him edging lotion handjobs while mommy femdoming him, giving him multiple handjobs a day sometimes, milking him into a cup etc, and it seemed like she’d always initiate it first and have enthusiasm to do it, much more kinky freaky shit than she does with me although shes tried to replicate it with me a lot over esex mostly after I brought this whole point up, but it doesn’t feel nearly as natural/creative as she did with him, and today she was randomly showing me her Snapchat photo/video history and there was a LOT of slutty stuff on there, nudes, fansigns, etc that she probably had during her discord whoring phase, but two stood out to me, which were pics of her irl ex tied up (presumably when she was giving those femdom edging handjobs) plus pics of cum on his stomach from those, along with pics of her doing “shibari” rope bondage on herself on discord VC while that ex, the male best friend, and other friends of him watched her do it. Now this extensive history isn’t something I can get over especially when I have to give her tons of love and attention just for her to feel like giving me 50% of those things, when it seemed to come naturally and much more freaky with them without them giving nearly as much, and I want to know the difference in dynamic which causes that, is it looks, is it something else? I’d assume egirls were mostly interested in attention and not looks so it confuses me. Kinda sucks because I was gonna go to her irl to get daily sex and shit but the whole dynamic of her extensive history + me needing to give lovey dovey shit despite it in order to get sex feels like it ruins it. Could it be because I want her to be monogamous/loyal which means doing it for me equals getting to whore around less for others and less attention/reward from it makes so that she feels resentment and less desire, meanwhile she wouldn’t have felt that for those people since they didn’t stop her from being a polyamorous whore?
Ngl such an insane amount has happened since I was last on this site yet the thing that made me return is the most similar situation to what made me come here in the first place, humans really don’t learn
Ngl such an insane amount has happened since I was last on this site yet the thing that made me return is the most similar situation to what made me come here in the first place, humans really don’t learn
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