ExitReality
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I discovered Looksmaxxing when mewing was becoming popular. At first, I didn't care and just liked the music they played back then; I'm not sure what year it was. My TikTok fyp exploded with the mewing trend, and I decided to do it. I've always been insecure, but not so much about my appearance at that time. I watched Mr. Jaws videos and other glow-up videos, although I didn't take it very seriously, just occasionally. At that time, I was in sixth grade. That year, I took my graduation picture, and I looked terrible and horrible. I looked like a girl, even though I'm a boy. It disgusted me, and that day I overthought it and let it go. A year later, I started looking in the mirror to improve my appearance for school, and I did it every single day. My face looked like an egg, and I looked like a baby, even though I've always been skinny. Until then, I had no cheekbones or jawline. My eye area was horrible. I don't know how I didn't notice anything before. I think most of it was due to the glow-up edits I watched. I discovered many things to improve, but unfortunately, I didn't have money, and people said it was just puberty or something. I started looking at myself in the mirror more often, obsessed with whether my hair was styled properly, and even at school I would try to ask my best friend if his was okay. I started exercising and gained some muscle, which I've now lost. I did bonesmashing, which I think helped a little with the Zygos and Mewing exercises, which I don't do anymore, and Thumping, which helped a bit in my experience. Now I think I look a little better, but I'm still ugly, a fraud. Even though I don't go out, I look in the mirror and see every flaw, things that others wouldn't even notice. I started to hate myself, especially the area around my eyes (specifically my eyebrows). I've always tried to convince myself I'm fine when I'm really not. I've never had a girlfriend, and I don't know if I ever will because I have trouble talking to women. I'm a total failure in that area. I really don't know why it's so hard for me, and it's not that I don't approach them, it's just that I don't know what the hell to say. My body freezes, and I just look for an escape. Lately, something happens to me when I'm out on the street and I feel like everyone's staring at me or criticizing me in their heads. Whenever I can, I try to fix my hair because it blows around in the wind. Everyone stares at me on the street. I can't stop looking at myself in the mirror, criticizing myself for being ugly. I don't know how I'm going to do going back to school. I'm already 15 and I don't like how I look, but oh well, I'll keep hating myself and trying to improve my life, even though I feel like I'm mentally unwell and worthless. Insult me, criticize me, hate me, be brutal, say whatever you want, I don't give a damn. I'm just sharing my story and how Looksmaxxing and BP have messed me up a bit mentally. And look at me, being on org, am I that desperate?
during 2021-2024 same bs but focused on "confidence" I chose the BP as an extreme way to end the loop of redpill brainrot hamza iman ghadzi video slop bs. I was 15 when I picked the bp as the go-to pill and yeah brutality aside, over time you notice many people irl are below the looksmaxxing standard this over time will revert the self-destructive aspects of bp into the purer self-improvement phase we all started with back when we were younger, lingering on looks for too long won't help the best you can do is improve slightly to semi-perfect what your genes already had planned for you. Never over until you say it's over (if you didnt finish developing ofc 
