mytochondria
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I honestly genuinely believe that i wont be able to find someone thats attracted to me in a way to overlook my quirkiness. It honestly sucks
. My dating life's been such a mess all my life, 90% of my interactions ever were rejections, ive been trying to fix the symptoms of my neurodivergence but ig its not rly plausible. I'm 5'10, facially htn so thats what always made me confused on why someone doesnt want to date me, or even just want to fuck me. My need lately to be able to hold a woman in my arms, on steroids has ten folded. This constant feel of not having a girl made me develop actual disgusting kinks, which i should be ashamed about but well thats what happens when a little Timmy doesnt get love and has to stay watching porn to stimulate his brain, i wish i could just have someone looking at me with a pair of pretty eyes, im genuinely not selective, the last girl i dated was a genuine ltb but she had winona ryder's hair from "Girl Interrupted" so that did make her so much more attractive in my eyes. I mogged her to death tho tbf. Anyways i also dont really understand girls. Theres this semi hot chick that followed me on ig. She liked my stories so i decided to slide up on one of her notes that made a reference to Resident Evil, so yeah she responded twice, but when i asked her what else she plays, i simply got ghosted. I dont get what goes on in their brain, i wish i could know. I keep telling myself not to make a move on anyone and wait for my turn. But does it ever come, will it ever be my turn. It honestly seems like not, but who knows, maybe college will hold something for me
Anyways just venting
. My dating life's been such a mess all my life, 90% of my interactions ever were rejections, ive been trying to fix the symptoms of my neurodivergence but ig its not rly plausible. I'm 5'10, facially htn so thats what always made me confused on why someone doesnt want to date me, or even just want to fuck me. My need lately to be able to hold a woman in my arms, on steroids has ten folded. This constant feel of not having a girl made me develop actual disgusting kinks, which i should be ashamed about but well thats what happens when a little Timmy doesnt get love and has to stay watching porn to stimulate his brain, i wish i could just have someone looking at me with a pair of pretty eyes, im genuinely not selective, the last girl i dated was a genuine ltb but she had winona ryder's hair from "Girl Interrupted" so that did make her so much more attractive in my eyes. I mogged her to death tho tbf. Anyways i also dont really understand girls. Theres this semi hot chick that followed me on ig. She liked my stories so i decided to slide up on one of her notes that made a reference to Resident Evil, so yeah she responded twice, but when i asked her what else she plays, i simply got ghosted. I dont get what goes on in their brain, i wish i could know. I keep telling myself not to make a move on anyone and wait for my turn. But does it ever come, will it ever be my turn. It honestly seems like not, but who knows, maybe college will hold something for meAnyways just venting
