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Ok, here's the deal: I'm a retarded autist nerd. The only thing I have had going for me was some brains and money. And determination. Somehow, with those and probably a lot of luck, I managed to have a few gfs and hookups. But I've always had this dream that I'll meet the perfect girl, someone who excites my soul, and spend the rest of my life with them.
Now, I'm not super picky. There are plenty of girls who would fit the criteria, and I've met many of them. Honestly I just want a 6 or 7 that has the features I like. But after meeting tons of girls, and hitting 30, I'm starting to realize this may never happen. I'm just not in their league. My hope and determination is fading. And I feel like I have two very different paths to choose from:
1. Date and marry this Japanese girl I met. For some reason she confused me for a chad and let me take her home the first date. She's the epitomy of "submissive asian gf" (I live in Japan and this is still unusal). Sounds great right? But she's actually so submissive it weirds me out. It's not exciting. And looks-wise she's a 4, maybe 5. She's not ugly, but she's very plain and doesn't particularly excite me. Her personality is also boring, though she may be hiding her true colors for now. Honestly, I could see myself falling in love and living a content, but mediocre life. But she's not the stunning girl of my dreams. I'll be tormented by hot girls for the rest of my life. There are girls for whom I would have eyes for no one else, but she is not it.
2. Surgerymaxx. I can't really improve my personality and social skills. I've tried, it takes too long, I simply don't have time before I become too old. Remember I'm an autist. So the only thing I can do is improve my looks. Now, I have a plan: bimax, implants, eye surgery. It's probably gonna take me 2 years. But even if the surgeries all go well, will it be enough? Will I actually ascend enough to compensate for my shit personality? I'll also be two years older.
So that's basically it. Do I settle and accept what I can get now, or risk it all for the future? I might not be able to find another girl like this even after surgery, and I'm definitely gonna rope if that happens. Someone tell me what the fuck to do because I feel like roping already.
Now, I'm not super picky. There are plenty of girls who would fit the criteria, and I've met many of them. Honestly I just want a 6 or 7 that has the features I like. But after meeting tons of girls, and hitting 30, I'm starting to realize this may never happen. I'm just not in their league. My hope and determination is fading. And I feel like I have two very different paths to choose from:
1. Date and marry this Japanese girl I met. For some reason she confused me for a chad and let me take her home the first date. She's the epitomy of "submissive asian gf" (I live in Japan and this is still unusal). Sounds great right? But she's actually so submissive it weirds me out. It's not exciting. And looks-wise she's a 4, maybe 5. She's not ugly, but she's very plain and doesn't particularly excite me. Her personality is also boring, though she may be hiding her true colors for now. Honestly, I could see myself falling in love and living a content, but mediocre life. But she's not the stunning girl of my dreams. I'll be tormented by hot girls for the rest of my life. There are girls for whom I would have eyes for no one else, but she is not it.
2. Surgerymaxx. I can't really improve my personality and social skills. I've tried, it takes too long, I simply don't have time before I become too old. Remember I'm an autist. So the only thing I can do is improve my looks. Now, I have a plan: bimax, implants, eye surgery. It's probably gonna take me 2 years. But even if the surgeries all go well, will it be enough? Will I actually ascend enough to compensate for my shit personality? I'll also be two years older.
So that's basically it. Do I settle and accept what I can get now, or risk it all for the future? I might not be able to find another girl like this even after surgery, and I'm definitely gonna rope if that happens. Someone tell me what the fuck to do because I feel like roping already.
