Might kill myself someday

[tia0505]

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I feel you, man. I spend most of my time alone in my room. That’s because I’ve been NEETing for a long time. I’m going to college in two weeks or so, though, so that’s going to change. I’d rather stay at home though but I need an income to take care of myself haha. I also have memory problems, by the way. I only drink one cup of chai a day. I love chai. Just drank it in my backyard hours ago! Did some gardening work and damnit I started sweating. Most I’ve worked in a long time.

if you don’t do shit it’s normal that you feel empty or depressed just wake up and think about your future, are you gonna stay rotting in this forum forever ,or even killing your self? wake up and find a job and a find some girls you’ll feel alive again

 

[It'snotover]

I agree bhai. I think going through the day without my copes would be a lot more difficult.

True. And i think it's the same for everyone.

A prophet, yes but also that we worship the same God. They are called Abrahamic religions (Christianity, Islam and Judaism).

It's His choice.

I do not know why but we'll have to chance to talk about this in pm ig.

 

[Deleted member 69862]

Whatever you it doesn’t matter. You dont matter.

The simple thing is human life is pointless. As a biological being our main goal is eternal life. We can not do that so we have children as the second best option.

But as you have decided to not have kids, whether you die now or after fifty years it doesn’t really matter.

Billions had died before you and billions will die after. There is no difference between the death of a human and a the death of an insect. In the grand scale of time nothing really matters.

Now about the mental purgatory part. What you have achieved is called enlightment. You truly realized that what everyone is doing is pointless.

I bet you stare a long time at your fingers, the ceiling, whenever a train comes you see and think jump or no jump it doesn’t really matter. You see people go crazy just to catch the lift, take the subway, the good food. You see them as ants trying to feed themselves. Among them then you understand that you are not them. You are not better or worse than them, you are just different from them.


Now comes the action part. What to do?


I don’t know the answer to that. Nobody does.

However I can give some examples what others before you did.


A greek guy had the same dilemma as you. He left everything and broke free from society living in a small hole with dogs. He is now considered a great philosopher.

An indian guy had the same dilemma he left home. Started contemplating. The people beside him considered him a reincarnation of God. He is now the founder of a spiritual religion.

So at the end of the day whatever you do it doesn’t really matter. Nothing actually matters.


p.s. - heaven and hell are not real. High iq people invented it to stop low iq people from going mad thinking about the nothingness of death. The concept of death is too much too bear for a mind. Thinking about heaven and hell which is depicted in a human familiar imagination like hot bitches and fire is more comprehensible than the nothingness of death.

Man, this is gold.