jstmarlin
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Update on my looksmaxxing progress
This was me a few months ago
This is me now
WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING?
Obviously puberty would of had a role in this, with me being 15, but looksmaxxing definitely pushed it along.
I haven't got the money yet for roids, pharmaceuticals etc. So I've been coping with what I have.
Bonesmashing everyday (had to stop bc my parents saw the bruises and want me to go to a body dysmorphia specialist jflll)
Improving diet: no goyslop blah blah blah
Jutting 24/7 fuck this helped I think I may be dreaming tho
Supplements: vit d, k2, magnesium
Slowing down on the drug use: used to smoke all the time and do acid, molly and opiates very often, now I only do acid, molly and Shrooms very occasionally, I also haven't been going to any parties bc even though alcohol makes me NT, it's still bloatfuel
Vyvanse: keeps me lean and is the best for adhd retards
Skincare: found that I got prescribed tretinoin two years ago so been using that for my face, nose, and just below eyebrows, also I stole my sister's hydrocortisone if I ever want a small nose
Canthus and lip cutting: started this a few days ago, so far I'm loving how it looks, even though it's just wounds
It's so stupid how every popular neurotypical person thinks I'm harming myself, wtf would they know about never having a real relationship
FUTURE PLANS
Starting roids: hopping on test until December bc I'm going on holiday and I won't be able to pin. I won't be taking other roids with it as I need to see how my body responds, but nothing ever happens so idk
Under eye filler: it's pretty obvious I need it, I'm tired (funny pun) of people asking if I got no sleep
Lipovela: this fucking mogs aqualyx according to sayori so I'm gonna do this soon
Sertraline: just got prescribed it for my ocd, still in the getting used to it phase so it's pretty shit, hopefully my anxiety goes though
WHY DID I START THIS?
Had a fat crush on this wasian mtb (out of my league but I came close) we were talking and it was going good! Until we went to a huge party, I was so excited to see her and be drunk with her, so she arrives, it's going good, and then some ethnic hoodrat guy that's taller than me is there, they chat it up, and I'm skitzing bc I'm just feeling betrayed, towards the end of the party, she gave away her first kiss to that guy who isn't even better looking than me, he's just ethnic and tall, heightism IS worse than racism.
Then the day after she feels so bad, I make the mistake to forgive her, as I am the type of person who always stays hopeful.
A few weeks after that and like 3 times after asking what is happening between us, she finally speaks the truth - "you aren't physically attractive" - her.
Brutal heightpill, brutal everything, but after feeling sad and crying like a soyboy, I finally had a reason to improve.
I sound so inspirational
I'm over that female now, but my sadness isn't gone, it's not as if I'm depressed, but rather I get sudden panic attacks when I focus on my looks too much. That makes me sad.
DO I HAVE A DATING LIFE?
Well I definitely can get a gf if I wanted to, but the girls that like me are all sub 5 (maybe that's my looksmatch) either way It's a hard feat to beat hypergamy.
I was thinking about trying with this girl I have interest in, but she's so closed off, and my ND anxiety can't build up the courage to talk to her.
For a day this crackwhore was texting me, she's a fucking weirdo. She likes gore, murder, cp, and lives in my city's hood, or the mental hospital, depending on what she wants.
I was a horny bugger one night, and we had a "goon call" (not my proudest moment) but we all make mistakes ig
I believe she's trying to manipulate me into having sex with her by showering me in compliments and trying to make me feel good abt my insecurities. I don't want an STD though. That bitch will not get close to me.
(told her abt my cutting bc I was craving attention)
Fuck off slut
THANK YOU FOR READING IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR
I will post another update in a few months
This was me a few months ago
This is me now
WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING?
Obviously puberty would of had a role in this, with me being 15, but looksmaxxing definitely pushed it along.
I haven't got the money yet for roids, pharmaceuticals etc. So I've been coping with what I have.
Bonesmashing everyday (had to stop bc my parents saw the bruises and want me to go to a body dysmorphia specialist jflll)
Improving diet: no goyslop blah blah blah
Jutting 24/7 fuck this helped I think I may be dreaming tho
Supplements: vit d, k2, magnesium
Slowing down on the drug use: used to smoke all the time and do acid, molly and opiates very often, now I only do acid, molly and Shrooms very occasionally, I also haven't been going to any parties bc even though alcohol makes me NT, it's still bloatfuel
Vyvanse: keeps me lean and is the best for adhd retards
Skincare: found that I got prescribed tretinoin two years ago so been using that for my face, nose, and just below eyebrows, also I stole my sister's hydrocortisone if I ever want a small nose
Canthus and lip cutting: started this a few days ago, so far I'm loving how it looks, even though it's just wounds
It's so stupid how every popular neurotypical person thinks I'm harming myself, wtf would they know about never having a real relationship
FUTURE PLANS
Starting roids: hopping on test until December bc I'm going on holiday and I won't be able to pin. I won't be taking other roids with it as I need to see how my body responds, but nothing ever happens so idk
Under eye filler: it's pretty obvious I need it, I'm tired (funny pun) of people asking if I got no sleep
Lipovela: this fucking mogs aqualyx according to sayori so I'm gonna do this soon
Sertraline: just got prescribed it for my ocd, still in the getting used to it phase so it's pretty shit, hopefully my anxiety goes though
WHY DID I START THIS?
Had a fat crush on this wasian mtb (out of my league but I came close) we were talking and it was going good! Until we went to a huge party, I was so excited to see her and be drunk with her, so she arrives, it's going good, and then some ethnic hoodrat guy that's taller than me is there, they chat it up, and I'm skitzing bc I'm just feeling betrayed, towards the end of the party, she gave away her first kiss to that guy who isn't even better looking than me, he's just ethnic and tall, heightism IS worse than racism.
Then the day after she feels so bad, I make the mistake to forgive her, as I am the type of person who always stays hopeful.
A few weeks after that and like 3 times after asking what is happening between us, she finally speaks the truth - "you aren't physically attractive" - her.
Brutal heightpill, brutal everything, but after feeling sad and crying like a soyboy, I finally had a reason to improve.
I sound so inspirational
I'm over that female now, but my sadness isn't gone, it's not as if I'm depressed, but rather I get sudden panic attacks when I focus on my looks too much. That makes me sad.
DO I HAVE A DATING LIFE?
Well I definitely can get a gf if I wanted to, but the girls that like me are all sub 5 (maybe that's my looksmatch) either way It's a hard feat to beat hypergamy.
I was thinking about trying with this girl I have interest in, but she's so closed off, and my ND anxiety can't build up the courage to talk to her.
For a day this crackwhore was texting me, she's a fucking weirdo. She likes gore, murder, cp, and lives in my city's hood, or the mental hospital, depending on what she wants.
I was a horny bugger one night, and we had a "goon call" (not my proudest moment) but we all make mistakes ig
I believe she's trying to manipulate me into having sex with her by showering me in compliments and trying to make me feel good abt my insecurities. I don't want an STD though. That bitch will not get close to me.
(told her abt my cutting bc I was craving attention)
Fuck off slut
THANK YOU FOR READING IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR
I will post another update in a few months
