My bitchmade mindset is out of control

[Prøphet]

It’s a serious problem

I can’t stop thinking about just how sad my life is and internalizing judgment

I judge myself more cruelly than anyone else ever did

And it’s a self fulfilling prophecy because after being so negative to myself of course I fail and then I feel even worse

I’m so hateful toward myself that I feel pain in my heart when I do something corny or “wrong” in front of others

Because it disgusts me

Because that’s how everyone else made me feel all those times as a kid

Maybe if I didn’t grow up the way I did I could be a man instead of a pussy, I would be grinning and bearing, getting shit done, actually trying. But I don’t. I just rot in my room. Because it’s easier to say it’s over and feel the dead tranquility of acceptance, than to make an effort.

 

[Notcel]

Just grow

 

[Deleted member 80642]

Haven’t heard the word bitchmade in a while tbh. I remember people used to call each other than on Rainbow 6.

Anyways just take it easy OP, talking negatively of yourself is never good. You’re chilling