My family always crashing out

[coolguyjames]

My mom my sister and my grandma crash out the most. They always scream dude. And always because of school. Grades this grades that. Yeah I promised to myself I will study this year way more but dude they're so annoying. I stressed so much in my entire life and I was dumb. Yes I had many bad experiences in school with girls and people in general but damn bro stress makes you age faster. That's why I don't want to stress anymore about anything and change to fucking diet and stop procrastinating. But I am my biggest opponent too. God made it so hard for me. Now that I fixed my looks it's way easier irl fr, not enough but enough to fit in and get glances from girls. But damn bro I can't believe I can't just have one peaceful day. Don't remember the last time I had a total peaceful day. I mean I tell to myself domt stress it's nothing but it's like I feel my body stressing in general and that's bad. For example someone is threatening me or just saying something rude or screaming at me and outside I don't show anything and I always don't take them serious but inside I feel something. I feel stress obviously but in my mind I don't and that's why I hate stress. And obviously thing that makes me stressed the most is just remembering in what world we live and that were cooked pretty much since the 1945.

 

[E moment]

Ok eat better food

 

[coolguyjames]

My mom my sister and my grandma crash out the most. They always scream dude. And always because of school. Grades this grades that. Yeah I promised to myself I will study this year way more but dude they're so annoying. I stressed so much in my entire life and I was dumb. Yes I had many bad experiences in school with girls and people in general but damn bro stress makes you age faster. That's why I don't want to stress anymore about anything and change to fucking diet and stop procrastinating. But I am my biggest opponent too. God made it so hard for me. Now that I fixed my looks it's way easier irl fr, not enough but enough to fit in and get glances from girls. But damn bro I can't believe I can't just have one peaceful day. Don't remember the last time I had a total peaceful day. I mean I tell to myself domt stress it's nothing but it's like I feel my body stressing in general and that's bad. For example someone is threatening me or just saying something rude or screaming at me and outside I don't show anything and I always don't take them serious but inside I feel something. I feel stress obviously but in my mind I don't and that's why I hate stress. And obviously thing that makes me stressed the most is just remembering in what world we live and that were cooked pretty much since the 1945.

What I meant by saying "we're cooked since 45" is that since 1945 we have stuff that are called food like takis doritos and other stuff w red 40 substances and many drama series and reality shows that increase stress too. You know why is it like that and no I'm not saying a nz, racist something like that but it's the truth.

 

[Sceptical]

how old are you bud

 

[coolguyjames]

Ok eat better food

Right

 

[coolguyjames]

how old are you bud

16yo

 

[Sceptical]

16yo

i remember vaguely you rambling about how you become blackpilled last year but i always thought you were some 14yr old kid who would sooner or later move on from this forum

 

[coolguyjames]

i remember vaguely you rambling about how you become blackpilled last year but i always thought you were some 14yr old kid who would sooner or later move on from this forum

I joined this org when I was 14, in September 2024. At first I was asking basic questions about bp and I was introduced to the blackpill as well and I was asking how do I change my looks and then I started sharing my experience with that like bonesmashing and stuff like that. Then I was jestering around for no reason and rage baiting while I was grey in late 2024 and early 2025 and then in 2025 when I was 15 I was usually talking about my experiences with girls in school, getting ignored by the same girls who showed interest in me and who touched me and stuff like that, but then I started talking only about my personal experiences and things that were happening to me In middle-late 2025 basically the late grey phase and now that I'm a blue. Now in 2026 I promised to myself I would change and just barely I did. But I'm still fighting procrastination.

 

[smarto]

Go out with your friends, indulge in new or existing hobbies, just keep your mind occupied. Since it's family, you can't really do much about it. If you have nothing to do you'll focus on what you're feeling and your uneasiness will become a heavy burden really fast.