My father never hit me but he broke everything else (no recovery arc)

[Bitterschön]

he did not beat me
he just talked in a voice that made my soul leave my body
every word like a crowbar to my confidence
he knew exactly which wires to cut

you think you are smart
you are nothing without me
why are you like this
i memorized that tone before i learned how to write my name

he never raised his hand
just his volume
just his expectations
just his disappointment
and it carved me open anyway

some dads teach you how to ride a bike
mine taught me how to flinch before speaking
how to rehearse every sentence twice
how to scan a room like a hostage in a foreign land

he did not see me
only the version of me he hated
the one he created
and blamed me for becoming

now i cannot take a compliment
cannot make a mistake without shaking
cannot feel proud without hearing his voice saying
you think that was good
wait till life really hits you

people say just heal
bro i lived in a war zone with no visible scars
how do you stitch something that was never allowed to bleed

conclusion
i was not raised
i was tolerated
and now love feels like trespassing

 

[Bitterschön]

any1 can relate?

 

[Bitterschön]

any1 can relate?

@PeakIncels @PsychoH @MoggerGaston @tuberculosisinmybal @Sub5 & Celibate any of u?

 

[Jelexy]

 

[Hernan]

@PeakIncels @PsychoH @MoggerGaston @tuberculosisinmybal @Sub5 & Celibate any of u?

Sub5UglyMan said:
Kids and dogs are not safe from white women

 

[Bitterschön]

Sub5UglyMan said:
Kids and dogs are not safe from white women

I caged so hard when I read it first time

 

[Hernan]

he did not beat me
he just talked in a voice that made my soul leave my body
every word like a crowbar to my confidence
he knew exactly which wires to cut

you think you are smart
you are nothing without me
why are you like this
i memorized that tone before i learned how to write my name

he never raised his hand
just his volume
just his expectations
just his disappointment
and it carved me open anyway

some dads teach you how to ride a bike
mine taught me how to flinch before speaking
how to rehearse every sentence twice
how to scan a room like a hostage in a foreign land

he did not see me
only the version of me he hated
the one he created
and blamed me for becoming

now i cannot take a compliment
cannot make a mistake without shaking
cannot feel proud without hearing his voice saying
you think that was good
wait till life really hits you

people say just heal
bro i lived in a war zone with no visible scars
how do you stitch something that was never allowed to bleed

conclusion
i was not raised
i was tolerated
and now love feels like trespassing

i feel you gang.

 

[Hernan]

I caged so hard when I read it first time

same rn, finally servers work again.

 

[PeakIncels]

@PeakIncels @PsychoH @MoggerGaston @tuberculosisinmybal @Sub5 & Celibate any of u?

I haven't had a full Convo with my father for years xdxd, i keep avoiding him because we'll just argue otherwise, but yes, i agree

 

[PeakIncels]

@PeakIncels @PsychoH @MoggerGaston @tuberculosisinmybal @Sub5 & Celibate any of u?

sorry, I meant I relate yea

 

[fr0st]

I haven't had a full Convo with my father for years xdxd, i keep avoiding him because we'll just argue otherwise, but yes, i agree

you should really talk with your dad man trust me

 

[PeakIncels]

you should really talk with your dad man trust me

I don't have to speak to an alcoholic no thanks

 

[Bitterschön]

I don't have to speak to an alcoholic no thanks

Sad to hear. Idk why they make childs and stay chain smokers and alcoholics or junkies

 

[Sub5 & Celibate]

@PeakIncels @PsychoH @MoggerGaston @tuberculosisinmybal @Sub5 & Celibate any of u?

my mom does this

 

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he did not beat me
he just talked in a voice that made my soul leave my body
every word like a crowbar to my confidence
he knew exactly which wires to cut

you think you are smart
you are nothing without me
why are you like this
i memorized that tone before i learned how to write my name

he never raised his hand
just his volume
just his expectations
just his disappointment
and it carved me open anyway

some dads teach you how to ride a bike
mine taught me how to flinch before speaking
how to rehearse every sentence twice
how to scan a room like a hostage in a foreign land

he did not see me
only the version of me he hated
the one he created
and blamed me for becoming

now i cannot take a compliment
cannot make a mistake without shaking
cannot feel proud without hearing his voice saying
you think that was good
wait till life really hits you

people say just heal
bro i lived in a war zone with no visible scars
how do you stitch something that was never allowed to bleed

conclusion
i was not raised
i was tolerated
and now love feels like trespassing

Is this a poem?

 

[Bitterschön]

Is this a poem?

schizo ramblings

 

[kana]

he did not beat me
he just talked in a voice that made my soul leave my body
every word like a crowbar to my confidence
he knew exactly which wires to cut

you think you are smart
you are nothing without me
why are you like this
i memorized that tone before i learned how to write my name

he never raised his hand
just his volume
just his expectations
just his disappointment
and it carved me open anyway

some dads teach you how to ride a bike
mine taught me how to flinch before speaking
how to rehearse every sentence twice
how to scan a room like a hostage in a foreign land

he did not see me
only the version of me he hated
the one he created
and blamed me for becoming

now i cannot take a compliment
cannot make a mistake without shaking
cannot feel proud without hearing his voice saying
you think that was good
wait till life really hits you

people say just heal
bro i lived in a war zone with no visible scars
how do you stitch something that was never allowed to bleed

conclusion
i was not raised
i was tolerated
and now love feels like trespassing

puss ass nigga get over it my parents where abusive and i got falsely accused of rape, MOVE ON and take charge of your own life, i just bought my OWN car and i am paying for my OWN botox for bruxism this week, out here writing poems like a little faggot