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Too much trauma and pain. Too far behind on my peers.
I noticed this especially with the 2 girls I dated and how perfect their childhoods and lives were untill they met me. It's uncompareable.
Comparing my life to that of the average dutch person is like comparing a peasant to a prince.
I don't see the point anymore of trying. I am too far gone.
Both of the girls I dated told me sex is something completely natural and normal to them. They don't even think a second of male companionship, intimacy, sex, dates, being hard to obtain. It's free, it's easy. They focus on 'more difficult' things in life.
Same with friendships and family. It is impossible to be a loner as a girl as everyone befriends girls. It's also impossible to be abused by your parents as a girl, because girls get extra empathy boost due to their gender.
Family/friends are impossible to get for me. Intimacy/Dates/Sex is impossible to get for me.
How the fuck am I supposed to ever be content with working on my carreer/status or get healthy relationships when my base is absolutely destroyed?
This is me:
Broken house, destroyed, foundation collapsing. Never give any love, care, taken care off.
This is the girls I am trying to date:
JFL honestly it's so fucking over. In every way shape and form.
I will never be considered succesfull, I will never be valued, I will never be wanted for friendship or romance. Nothing.
It's over.
I noticed this especially with the 2 girls I dated and how perfect their childhoods and lives were untill they met me. It's uncompareable.
Comparing my life to that of the average dutch person is like comparing a peasant to a prince.
I don't see the point anymore of trying. I am too far gone.
Both of the girls I dated told me sex is something completely natural and normal to them. They don't even think a second of male companionship, intimacy, sex, dates, being hard to obtain. It's free, it's easy. They focus on 'more difficult' things in life.
Same with friendships and family. It is impossible to be a loner as a girl as everyone befriends girls. It's also impossible to be abused by your parents as a girl, because girls get extra empathy boost due to their gender.
Family/friends are impossible to get for me. Intimacy/Dates/Sex is impossible to get for me.
How the fuck am I supposed to ever be content with working on my carreer/status or get healthy relationships when my base is absolutely destroyed?
This is me:
Broken house, destroyed, foundation collapsing. Never give any love, care, taken care off.
This is the girls I am trying to date:
JFL honestly it's so fucking over. In every way shape and form.
I will never be considered succesfull, I will never be valued, I will never be wanted for friendship or romance. Nothing.
It's over.





