My life is seriously fucked up

[Prøphet]

The last time Ive talked to someone my age or made a friend was like 4 years ago

From 14-18 I lived in a permanent silence and isolation that seriously fucked me up I think, I think I gave myself brain damage during some critical developmental window, just spending all my time coping in total isolation and parental neglect. Even using the internet is still my escapism to this day. All I do is run from my problems.

Im too autistic and weird because of how isolated I grew up, only child with lots of health problems I went through, lots of mental problems and of course the obvious one: being extremely ugly. I developed a fear of people that just compounded itself and exponentially got worse and worse. I allowed it to get so bad I can’t even talk on the phone with people because I’m insecure about my voice and what I say in dialogue.

I can’t have a conversation without things to make me low inhib.

My life fell off a fucking cliff at about 10 years old, and Ive been in free fall for almost a decade now. I don’t know where I’ll land.

I feel like I’m going fucking insane just because of how I have no one in real life to talk to and no real way to meet people now that I’m out of high school. I literally live my life vicariously through the internet and daydreaming with my imagination about the life I want. But it’s like on an innate level I don’t know how to try. Maybe it’s been beaten out of me.

 

[Prøphet]

I hate blaming my shortcomings on others because it doesn’t solve anything, but I genuinely despise the way I was taught my whole life to accept everything or suffer. I just see everything as overly fatalistic and unchangeable. If something goes wrong I’ll just cry to myself and let it happen without doing anything to fix it. Maybe it’s just my nature. Maybe it’s from extremely low self confidence, whatever that word means.

 

[Grainsludgelover]

I think I gave myself brain damage during some critical developmental window

wdym

 

[Prøphet]

wdym

I was so ugly, socially anxious from bad experiences, and neurodivergent in my teen years that everyone around me ignored me and I made absolutely zero new friends or connections. And I reciprocated by trying to avoid people at all costs.

Now it’s like the idea of going up to someone and starting a conversation is completely alien, when such a thing might’ve been easier to learn when my brain was in a more neuroplastic and developing state.

 

[Grainsludgelover]

I was so ugly, socially anxious from bad experiences, and neurodivergent in my teen years that everyone around me ignored me and I made absolutely zero new friends or connections. And I reciprocated by trying to avoid people at all costs.

Now it’s like the idea of going up to someone and starting a conversation is completely alien, when such a thing might’ve been easier when my brain was in a more neuroplastic and developing state.

my only idea is find a very ugly woman and start a family in some quiet place (i know it would be hard as fuck for you). never forget to care about your children development tho.

 

[Prøphet]

my only idea is find a very ugly woman and start a family in some quiet place (i know it would be hard as fuck for you). never forget to care about your children development tho.

Even an ugly foid wouldn’t want me

I don’t want to reproduce anyway, why would I sentence my children to this torment of my subhuman genetics, that would be cruel

 

[milkshake_addict]

Even an ugly foid wouldn’t want me

I don’t want to reproduce anyway, why would I sentence my children to this torment of my subhuman genetics, that would be cruel

cmon be selfish

 

[Prøphet]

cmon be selfish

I am being selfish, Idk if I could live with myself If I had a son and he looked like me or had the same health conditions

 

[Grainsludgelover]

Even an ugly foid wouldn’t want me

I don’t want to reproduce anyway, why would I sentence my children to this torment of my subhuman genetics, that would be cruel

Creating a family is the biggest happiness you can achieve in this reality, never fall for the jewish anti natalist propaganda. It can truly fix your life and you could forget about all that shit. Just as I said remember to properly take care of your children development so they can have better life.

 

[MikeMew'sBitch]

Had a friend like that. He grew up ugly, isolated, was playing World of Warcraft all day and was virgin until 28 yo, zero human real life contact. One day, for some reason, he went to prison and spent a year there. When he came out he was completely changed. Low inhibition as fuck, zero anxiety and didnt give a shit about others opinions. He could walk outside naked and not break a sweat about people watching him. Turns out, while in prison, he was surrounded with low inhib dark triad niggers and was spending shitload of time with them. He also had to fight some niggers to survive and not get raped. Environment made him without inhibitions, crazy shit nigga. He told me prison made him unstoppable once he got out

 

[gskos]

The last time Ive talked to someone my age or made a friend was like 4 years ago

From 14-18 I lived in a permanent silence and isolation that seriously fucked me up I think, I think I gave myself brain damage during some critical developmental window, just spending all my time coping in total isolation and parental neglect. Even using the internet is still my escapism to this day. All I do is run from my problems.

Im too autistic and weird because of how isolated I grew up, only child with lots of health problems I went through, lots of mental problems and of course the obvious one: being extremely ugly. I developed a fear of people that just compounded itself and exponentially got worse and worse. I allowed it to get so bad I can’t even talk on the phone with people because I’m insecure about my voice and what I say in dialogue.

I can’t have a conversation without things to make me low inhib.

My life fell off a fucking cliff at about 10 years old, and Ive been in free fall for almost a decade now. I don’t know where I’ll land.

I feel like I’m going fucking insane just because of how I have no one in real life to talk to and no real way to meet people now that I’m out of high school. I literally live my life vicariously through the internet and daydreaming with my imagination about the life I want. But it’s like on an innate level I don’t know how to try. Maybe it’s been beaten out of me.

Even tho i had some friends that i could talk to, i was always overthinking what i said or what they think of me.

I was always dealing with self hatred and had trouble with making new friends so i might be going to cognitive-behavioral therapy bc it is honestly getting worser over time

I suggest you do that too

 

[milkshake_addict]

I am being selfish, Idk if I could live with myself If I had a son and he looked like me or had the same health conditions

then break the chain or atleast try too

 

[L(oser)ooksmaxxer]

Had a friend like that. He grew up ugly, isolated, was playing World of Warcraft all day and was virgin until 28 yo, zero human real life contact. One day, for some reason, he went to prison and spent a year there. When he came out he was completely changed. Low inhibition as fuck, zero anxiety and didnt give a shit about others opinions. He could walk outside naked and not break a sweat about people watching him. Turns out, while in prison, he was surrounded with low inhib dark triad niggers and was spending shitload of time with them. He also had to fight some niggers to survive and not get raped. Environment made him without inhibitions, crazy shit nigga. He told me prison made him unstoppable once he got out

Prison method

 

[Regular Doomer]

Bro you'll most likely die at 60... what you acumulate doesn't matter, you have enough time to have fun and enjoy life and strive towards what you think is lacking in your life

just spend money and live life

everything starts with one decision of hiting the gym and saying good morning to someone

 

[L(oser)ooksmaxxer]

I am being selfish, Idk if I could live with myself If I had a son and he looked like me or had the same health conditions

What health conditions do you have bro?

 

[milkshake_addict]

Had a friend like that. He grew up ugly, isolated, was playing World of Warcraft all day and was virgin until 28 yo, zero human real life contact. One day, for some reason, he went to prison and spent a year there. When he came out he was completely changed. Low inhibition as fuck, zero anxiety and didnt give a shit about others opinions. He could walk outside naked and not break a sweat about people watching him. Turns out, while in prison, he was surrounded with low inhib dark triad niggers and was spending shitload of time with them. He also had to fight some niggers to survive and not get raped. Environment made him without inhibitions, crazy shit nigga. He told me prison made him unstoppable once he got out

prison is not the way

 

[Regular Doomer]

I've gained new friends after 29... so I believe that everythign is possible

just start small

 

[7zyzz7]

ive been that way since 15 im 25 now. it never gets better. you have to release the negative emotions you feel by doing evil daily. like shoplifting or not returning your shopping cart. just tiny evil acts everyday. focus on EVIL and fucking people over while you self improve. and maybe one day you can make it or have the balls to ER.

 

[jozsef316@gmail]

same health conditions

WHAT HEALTH CONDITION