my life is shit

[dogeater420]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

 

[59H390]

 

[User28823]

so what r u gonna do about it

 

[59H390]

so what r u gonna do about it

 

[dogeater420]

bumo

 

[wall]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

how are you writing this with a flip phone

 

[dogeater420]

how are you writing this with a flip phone

im on my school laptop right now for some reason it isnt blocked by the firewall but if i get caught i am super fucked

 

[TACOCEL_]

Ur dad talking to you like that is fucked up up. No1 deserves to go through that.The fact you’re still pushing through it says a lot about you, even if you don’t see it.

And about the addiction, the friend group stuff, feeling left out all the time ur js stuck around people and situations that drain you. That would get to anyone.Healing can be hard and take long but you will eventually heal. It will get better.

You are a human and worth of love.

 

[Gren]

 

[foidhawker]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

jerking off is meta. u should embrace it

 

[Whiteboard7]

Ur dad talking to you like that is fucked up up. No1 deserves to go through that.The fact you’re still pushing through it says a lot about you, even if you don’t see it.

And about the addiction, the friend group stuff, feeling left out all the time ur js stuck around people and situations that drain you. That would get to anyone.Healing can be hard and take long but you will eventually heal. It will get better.

You are a human and worth of love.

Based

 

[negativ_canthalshit]

im on my school laptop right now for some reason it isnt blocked by the firewall but if i get caught i am super fucked

So real

 

[Mandibular0]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

i did not read it but i probabyl know how you feel

 

[Road2CL]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

Lots of people struggle with that addiction but its never worth taking ur life over man. Cut off your friends for the most part and just put your time into something you're interested in whether thats a sport and going D1 in it or a business or modeling or something and then just work towards that and your life will improve

 

[dogeater420]

Lots of people struggle with that addiction but its never worth taking ur life over man. Cut off your friends for the most part and just put your time into something you're interested in whether thats a sport and going D1 in it or a business or modeling or something and then just work towards that and your life will improve

ive thought about cutting off my friends but then i wouldnt have any and i would be even more sad and then i wouldnt be able to make any new friends cuz everyone else at school thinks im weird also i am focusing on football so i am doing that in my free time and doing wrestling cuz its wrestling season

 

[dogedogedoge]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

Relatable, ill tell you from experience that fresh start did nothing though

 

[Suimaxxer]

Imma tell u the same thing im telling to every high schooler whos going thru that shit, because i also went thru it so i know how it feels: just wait until u graduate high school and then try to get into uni or college or whatever. After u do that, leave EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE from ur old life behind, just forget ur past couple years even existed and start a new life there. If ur antisocial, just pretend like ur social, fake it till u make it method. Its not like anyones gonna know ur antisocial in a brand new environment, so might as well make everyone fall for it, until ur actually the most social kid in there

 

[Road2CL]

ive thought about cutting off my friends but then i wouldnt have any and i would be even more sad and then i wouldnt be able to make any new friends cuz everyone else at school thinks im weird also i am focusing on football so i am doing that in my free time and doing wrestling cuz its wrestling season

Yessir man I wrestle too… you don’t need to cut your friends off I guess but you don’t need to be the same as them

 

[ascensionisgold]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

Hope it all gets better for you bro

 

[trxyzyx]

. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked

dont kys

 

[Mo3452]

give your life to Christ

 

[ImaASCENDsoon]

this might be long and sorry for no formatting im just pouring out my thoughts

i have a porn addiction that started when i was in fucking third grade and i havent gone more than two weeks in over 6 years without beating it. my parents dont trust me at all because i used to do stupid ass shit on discord in middle school and got caught watching porn so i have a flip phone. I have never had a girlfriend, i have never had sex, never even fucking touched a girl bro. my dad has undiagnosed hypomania where he looks for shit to be mad at and makes my whole family miserable for the next two weeks and he just has all day to find shit to get mad at cuz hes "retired" like a week ago he found a single fucking dirty dish in my room and he texted me this 20 minute voice message saying shit like you fucking slob, youre fucking disgusting, i never should have fucking had you you worthless shit fuck you life would be so much easier without you in it etc. he knows this is bad and around others he acts like some fucking saint so my friends say shit like 'your dads so cool' so i jst have to grit my teeth. i tried commiting suicide twice once in 6th grade and once a few months ago but i chickened out. i feel like i have friends but theure so fucking annoying and the only kid thats toleable just follows around this nonchalant asian hockey prospect friend in our group as well as with this bitch ass htn who i have to stop mydelf from beating the shit out of every tome i see him. my other friends are sped as shit and even they dont like me. they spend all lunch either playing clash or messing with this sped kid who plays games on his school computer in the bathroom. i dont want to hang out with the sped friends but i also dont want to be with those fucking fans who follow around the hockey kid. i also have some friends i know from football but im not great friends with them and if i tried sitting with them at lunch they might think thats kinda weird and i invite them to play fortnite or sum and they hop on but then like the next day i see all of them in a party on roblox or sum in a party and they didnt fucking invite me or anything it makes me so feel so fucking left out and sad ion even know why. i never get invited to hang out only for like in a big group like for a bday or something. i feel so alone i have nobody and the only thing that makes me happy is playing football but i cant for another 9 months and that is my one escape. my reputation at school is fucked cause of some shit i did in middle school and its unfixxable even tho i ascended from ltn to high appeal hmtn it barely changes shit i just want to move to arizona and get a fresh start at a new school with a new life and new people and new friends man thats all i want.
thank you if you read all of that

Damn bro i rlly don’t know how ur gonna escape this. Maby get a job and buy a real phone and then make money online and invest into things to improve mood and focus and lock in on school. Gonna be hard but thats all u can rlly do. Wishing the best for u

 

[dogeater420]

Damn bro i rlly don’t know how ur gonna escape this. Maby get a job and buy a real phone and then make money online and invest into things to improve mood and focus and lock in on school. Gonna be hard but thats all u can rlly do. Wishing the best for u

broke my flip phone and got a old samsung from my dad but still dont have social media. gonna start working construction next year for one of my football coaches to save up and get some experience under my belt cause im gonna go into the trades. my social skills have gotten a bit better and im making a few more friends. the holidays are rough and im feeling real lonely but im moving in the right direction. merry christmas

 

[ImaASCENDsoon]

broke my flip phone and got a old samsung from my dad but still dont have social media. gonna start working construction next year for one of my football coaches to save up and get some experience under my belt cause im gonna go into the trades. my social skills have gotten a bit better and im making a few more friends. the holidays are rough and im feeling real lonely but im moving in the right direction. merry christmas

hell yea. Merry Christmas to you too although its late