My Second Year At A Large State School: Some Takeaways

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Well I said I was done posting threads, and I am. But here we go again.

I posted a thread about a year ago reflecting on my first year, so why not post a second one? It seemed to help me learn the first time.

In the blink of an eye, I'm halfway to graduating from a well-known state school, majoring in Computer Science, Data Science, and Economics. Needless to say, I'm a bit nerdy and autistic. But that doesn't stop me from trying to be neurotypical.

Things I learned this year:

1) Looks ARE confidence.
"Thanks captain obvious, we all knew that." I knew it too, but only FACTUALLY. As in, I knew it as a piece of information. This year I EXPERIENCED IT. Those are two completely different things. I can't even count the number of times I was approached by men and women complimenting me on my appearance. If I had to guess, it was over 100. From "you look sick dude" to "hey, you're the big guy at the gym" (men), and "you're cute," "you're the hot guy in (redacted--fraternity name) (women)."
Those comments actually bugged me a bit, because they reinforced the harsh truths I learned from the blackpill. Looks really are king for female attention and male respect. You simply cannot live a fulfilling life without them, in my opinion. My confidence is finally REAL confidence, and not self-talk confidence. And there is an astounding difference between the two.

2) Looks do not lead to career success.
They do help with networking though, which can sometimes lead to it. Hard work and genetic intelligence matter the most. You may be limited genetically to some degree, but most people are capable of good career success if they work hard.

3) Networking is SUPER important.
Knowing people who do all types of work is so important. If I didn't network the way I have been the past two years, my GPA would not be 3.7 and I wouldn't nearly have as many opportunities as I do now. Talking to people and working on basic social skills to facilitate interesting conversations is critical to success.

4) The world is really damn unfair.
It just is. Some people are born with genetic privileges and others with genetic burdens. And so, I made it my mission to help others whenever presented the opportunity. Little acts of kindness and compassion go much farther than you might think.

5) Men and women just cannot be friends.
Sex will always loom over the mind of both people, in some way or another.

6) Close male friendships bring more happiness than female attention and validation.
I have a few close buddies in CS, and we struggle through the hard classes together. The bond we have is super close and I wouldn't know what to do without them. I get far more fulfillment hanging out with them than being around/having sex with women.

7) Number 6 is the case for me because love is not real.
Human love is a neurochemical response in the brain and is not real. It is only a feeling. I know some of you will think this is controversial and may disagree, but this is what I believe based on scientific literature and my experiences. I believe the only real love is God/the creator's love. All other love (animal, human, etc) is simply evolution's way of incentivizing safety and reproduction.

And finally, the most important thing:

8) Until you love yourself and others, you will never have a happy life.
(Yes I know this contradicts number 7, but I am implicitly suggesting the definition of self-love is different than the feeling of love).
I didn't realize how much I hated myself until these last few months. I REALLY fucking hate myself. I constantly shit-talk myself for any little perceived flaw. This is a mindset that will ALWAYS lead to failure. Learn how to talk constructively to yourself and others. And it must be genuine love.

I'm looking at you God, please let me grow to six feet tall.

That is all.
 
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Well I said I was done posting threads, and I am. But here we go again.

I posted a thread about a year ago reflecting on my first year, so why not post a second one? It seemed to help me learn the first time.

In the blink of an eye, I'm halfway to graduating from a well-known state school, majoring in Computer Science, Data Science, and Economics. Needless to say, I'm a bit nerdy and autistic. But that doesn't stop me from trying to be neurotypical.

Things I learned this year:

1) Looks ARE confidence.
"Thanks captain obvious, we all knew that." I knew it too, but only FACTUALLY. As in, I knew it as a piece of information. This year I EXPERIENCED IT. Those are two completely different things. I can't even count the number of times I was approached by men and women complimenting me on my appearance. If I had to guess, it was over 100. From "you look sick dude" to "hey, you're the big guy at the gym" (men), and "you're cute," "you're the hot guy in (redacted--fraternity name) (women)."
Those comments actually bugged me a bit, because they reinforced the harsh truths I learned from the blackpill. Looks really are king for female attention and male respect. You simply cannot live a fulfilling life without them, in my opinion. My confidence is finally REAL confidence, and not self-talk confidence. And there is an astounding difference between the two.

2) Looks do not lead to career success.
They do help with networking though, which can sometimes lead to it. Hard work and genetic intelligence matter the most. You may be limited genetically to some degree, but most people are capable of good career success if they work hard.

3) Networking is SUPER important.
Knowing people who do all types of work is so important. If I didn't network the way I have been the past two years, my GPA would not be 3.7 and I wouldn't nearly have as many opportunities as I do now. Talking to people and working on basic social skills to facilitate interesting conversations is critical to success.

4) The world is really damn unfair.
It just is. Some people are born with genetic privileges and others with genetic burdens. And so, I made it my mission to help others whenever presented the opportunity. Little acts of kindness and compassion go much farther than you might think.

5) Men and women just cannot be friends.
Sex will always loom over the mind of both people, in some way or another.

6) Close male friendships bring more happiness than female attention and validation.
I have a few close buddies in CS, and we struggle through the hard classes together. The bond we have is super close and I wouldn't know what to do without them. I get far more fulfillment hanging out with them than being around/having sex with women.

7) Number 6 is the case for me because love is not real.
Human love is a neurochemical response in the brain and is not real. It is only a feeling. I know some of you will think this is controversial and may disagree, but this is what I believe based on scientific literature and my experiences. I believe the only real love is God/the creator's love. All other love (animal, human, etc) is simply evolution's way of incentivizing safety and reproduction.

And finally, the most important thing:

8) Until you love yourself and others, you will never have a happy life.
(Yes I know this contradicts number 7, but I am implicitly suggesting the definition of self-love is different than the feeling of love).
I didn't realize how much I hated myself until these last few months. I REALLY fucking hate myself. I constantly shit-talk myself for any little perceived flaw. This is a mindset that will ALWAYS lead to failure. Learn how to talk constructively to yourself and others. And it must be genuine love.

I'm looking at you God, please let me grow to six feet tall.

That is all.
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number 3 made my life lifefuel for all of first semester
 
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Well I said I was done posting threads, and I am. But here we go again.

I posted a thread about a year ago reflecting on my first year, so why not post a second one? It seemed to help me learn the first time.

In the blink of an eye, I'm halfway to graduating from a well-known state school, majoring in Computer Science, Data Science, and Economics. Needless to say, I'm a bit nerdy and autistic. But that doesn't stop me from trying to be neurotypical.

Things I learned this year:

1) Looks ARE confidence.
"Thanks captain obvious, we all knew that." I knew it too, but only FACTUALLY. As in, I knew it as a piece of information. This year I EXPERIENCED IT. Those are two completely different things. I can't even count the number of times I was approached by men and women complimenting me on my appearance. If I had to guess, it was over 100. From "you look sick dude" to "hey, you're the big guy at the gym" (men), and "you're cute," "you're the hot guy in (redacted--fraternity name) (women)."
Those comments actually bugged me a bit, because they reinforced the harsh truths I learned from the blackpill. Looks really are king for female attention and male respect. You simply cannot live a fulfilling life without them, in my opinion. My confidence is finally REAL confidence, and not self-talk confidence. And there is an astounding difference between the two.

2) Looks do not lead to career success.
They do help with networking though, which can sometimes lead to it. Hard work and genetic intelligence matter the most. You may be limited genetically to some degree, but most people are capable of good career success if they work hard.

3) Networking is SUPER important.
Knowing people who do all types of work is so important. If I didn't network the way I have been the past two years, my GPA would not be 3.7 and I wouldn't nearly have as many opportunities as I do now. Talking to people and working on basic social skills to facilitate interesting conversations is critical to success.

4) The world is really damn unfair.
It just is. Some people are born with genetic privileges and others with genetic burdens. And so, I made it my mission to help others whenever presented the opportunity. Little acts of kindness and compassion go much farther than you might think.

5) Men and women just cannot be friends.
Sex will always loom over the mind of both people, in some way or another.

6) Close male friendships bring more happiness than female attention and validation.
I have a few close buddies in CS, and we struggle through the hard classes together. The bond we have is super close and I wouldn't know what to do without them. I get far more fulfillment hanging out with them than being around/having sex with women.

7) Number 6 is the case for me because love is not real.
Human love is a neurochemical response in the brain and is not real. It is only a feeling. I know some of you will think this is controversial and may disagree, but this is what I believe based on scientific literature and my experiences. I believe the only real love is God/the creator's love. All other love (animal, human, etc) is simply evolution's way of incentivizing safety and reproduction.

And finally, the most important thing:

8) Until you love yourself and others, you will never have a happy life.
(Yes I know this contradicts number 7, but I am implicitly suggesting the definition of self-love is different than the feeling of love).
I didn't realize how much I hated myself until these last few months. I REALLY fucking hate myself. I constantly shit-talk myself for any little perceived flaw. This is a mindset that will ALWAYS lead to failure. Learn how to talk constructively to yourself and others. And it must be genuine love.

I'm looking at you God, please let me grow to six feet tall.

That is all.
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5) Men and women just cannot be friends.
LOL tell that to women who don't seem to find 80%+ of men sexually attractive. And before you say "but most men end up in relationships!", LTRs for women were never centered around sexuality. Women simply don't look at them as these super sexually intimate, lustful pursuits. The exception is a relationship with a young woman as a good looking male (who can get short term sex anyway). MOST marriages are sexless if you want to consider them sexually intimate.


One party WILL have sexual thoughts harbored at the back of their minds and it's MEN because men would stick their dicks in an ant colony.
 
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LOL tell that to women who don't seem to find 80%+ of men sexually attractive. And before you say "but most men end up in relationships!", LTRs for women were never centered around sexuality. Women simply don't look at them as these super sexually intimate, lustful pursuits. The exception is a relationship with a young woman as a good looking male (who can get short term sex anyway). MOST marriages are sexless if you want to consider them sexually intimate.


One party WILL have sexual thoughts harbored at the back of their minds and it's MEN because men would stick their dicks in an ant colony.
I agree. Although sometimes if its Chad, women can be “friends” with a man, but are actually wanting to hook up with him. Both genders do it, but yes-men much more frequently
 
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I find this world to be really sad the less you do things and think of it. While, focusing your brain on productive helps you cooe
yep I agree. Whenever im doing something, i feel good. When I sit in solitude i often delve deep into thought and subsequently get serious depressive episodes
 
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It's good to see threads here talking about their actual real life experiences. Unfortunately I didn't have any good experiences at school. Didn't have any friends, no girls, confidence slowly got worse year by year, no memories, no happy moments.
 
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i would argue that if looks do not guarantee career success they can serve useful in landing a common job, such as steward or receptionist or even a more simpler cashier, but in high class shops or hotels, which usually pay better AND in the eyes of foids is still seen as status
 
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i would argue that if looks do not guarantee career success they can serve useful in landing a common job, such as steward or receptionist or even a more simpler cashier, but in high class shops or hotels, which usually pay better AND in the eyes of foids is still seen as status
Maybe, but they pay next to nothing compared to top finance and tech jobs.
 
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I notice a trend that alot of users who ascended have a period of extreme bitterness at the world, thoughts?
 
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I notice a trend that alot of users who ascended have a period of extreme bitterness at the world, thoughts?
For me, yes. I am a person who is good at dealing with uncomfortable truths, and so I discovered the blackpill and mined its information. But it wasn't until I lived the difference with looks privilege that I became angry at God. Why are some people born to live a life devoid of compassion, while others are born naturally good-looking and are pampered their entire life? This thought has really bothered me for some time now, and continues too. I believe I have found an reason as to why this is the case (philosophically), but I am still questioning.

I think I have just finished my bitterness phase. It lasted about 6 months. Now, I am just numb.
 
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Superb thread, coming from a guy who just graduated high school. I’m going to definitely bookmark this shit

One question: what are some examples of networking helping you achieve higher grades?
 
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Superb thread, coming from a guy who just graduated high school. I’m going to definitely bookmark this shit

One question: what are some examples of networking helping you achieve higher grades?
Making friends with people and helping them whenever presented the opportunity. Joining a fraternity. Joining clubs. I’ve meet guys in class, at the gym, at restaurants, you name it. You’ll find people that have taken classes you still have to take with the materials/homeworks for them and they took it, so they know how to succeed. Also networking has helped me with internships and jobs, I was mentored by upperclassmen on how to efficiently find them and have referrals from some older guys.
 
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Making friends with people and helping them whenever presented the opportunity. Joining a fraternity. Joining clubs. I’ve meet guys in class, at the gym, at restaurants, you name it. You’ll find people that have taken classes you still have to take with the materials/homeworks for them and they took it, so they know how to succeed. Also networking has helped me with internships and jobs, I was mentored by upperclassmen on how to efficiently find them and have referrals from some older guys.
What's your thoughts on starting college late. Let's say your peers whom you graduated with start at 18, or almost 19. Would joining at 21/22 be any difference in the eyes of normies?
 
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when you max your looks/status. it only gets worse, you start to see people as lazy and all girls just look ugly based on lack of self-control (and being used)

blackpilled male friends is truly the only cope left in life
 
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What's your thoughts on starting college late. Let's say your peers whom you graduated with start at 18, or almost 19. Would joining at 21/22 be any difference in the eyes of normies?
It would definitely be different, yeah. But honestly I have two ex-military friends in my year for CS and I didn’t even know they were both 25. You can do it, but the social dymanics might be a bit awkward as you’re around immature 18 year olds.
 
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Nice to hear from you bro

I have Pm'd you an update lemme know what you think!
Well I said I was done posting threads, and I am. But here we go again.

I posted a thread about a year ago reflecting on my first year, so why not post a second one? It seemed to help me learn the first time.

In the blink of an eye, I'm halfway to graduating from a well-known state school, majoring in Computer Science, Data Science, and Economics. Needless to say, I'm a bit nerdy and autistic. But that doesn't stop me from trying to be neurotypical.

Things I learned this year:

1) Looks ARE confidence.
"Thanks captain obvious, we all knew that." I knew it too, but only FACTUALLY. As in, I knew it as a piece of information. This year I EXPERIENCED IT. Those are two completely different things. I can't even count the number of times I was approached by men and women complimenting me on my appearance. If I had to guess, it was over 100. From "you look sick dude" to "hey, you're the big guy at the gym" (men), and "you're cute," "you're the hot guy in (redacted--fraternity name) (women)."
Those comments actually bugged me a bit, because they reinforced the harsh truths I learned from the blackpill. Looks really are king for female attention and male respect. You simply cannot live a fulfilling life without them, in my opinion. My confidence is finally REAL confidence, and not self-talk confidence. And there is an astounding difference between the two.

2) Looks do not lead to career success.
They do help with networking though, which can sometimes lead to it. Hard work and genetic intelligence matter the most. You may be limited genetically to some degree, but most people are capable of good career success if they work hard.

3) Networking is SUPER important.
Knowing people who do all types of work is so important. If I didn't network the way I have been the past two years, my GPA would not be 3.7 and I wouldn't nearly have as many opportunities as I do now. Talking to people and working on basic social skills to facilitate interesting conversations is critical to success.

4) The world is really damn unfair.
It just is. Some people are born with genetic privileges and others with genetic burdens. And so, I made it my mission to help others whenever presented the opportunity. Little acts of kindness and compassion go much farther than you might think.

5) Men and women just cannot be friends.
Sex will always loom over the mind of both people, in some way or another.

6) Close male friendships bring more happiness than female attention and validation.
I have a few close buddies in CS, and we struggle through the hard classes together. The bond we have is super close and I wouldn't know what to do without them. I get far more fulfillment hanging out with them than being around/having sex with women.

7) Number 6 is the case for me because love is not real.
Human love is a neurochemical response in the brain and is not real. It is only a feeling. I know some of you will think this is controversial and may disagree, but this is what I believe based on scientific literature and my experiences. I believe the only real love is God/the creator's love. All other love (animal, human, etc) is simply evolution's way of incentivizing safety and reproduction.

And finally, the most important thing:

8) Until you love yourself and others, you will never have a happy life.
(Yes I know this contradicts number 7, but I am implicitly suggesting the definition of self-love is different than the feeling of love).
I didn't realize how much I hated myself until these last few months. I REALLY fucking hate myself. I constantly shit-talk myself for any little perceived flaw. This is a mindset that will ALWAYS lead to failure. Learn how to talk constructively to yourself and others. And it must be genuine love.

I'm looking at you God, please let me grow to six feet tall.

That is all.
 
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