my self perception is so warped

[jc0]

I'm in this endless cycle of waking up, thinking i look okay enough, then thinking i look bad, then researching about jaw surgery, then thinking it looks oakay enough, then bad again, then doing it all over again. i barely go out so i cant tell my looks from others reaction to me. i notice the more i stay inside doom scrolling the worse my self perception is. the little public signals i do have are so mixed and on opposite ends idk wahts even going on mayne.