BlueScree
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When I was a little kid, just in elementary school, i had some "friends" who would treat me terribly and practically ruined my life. They showed me nsfw things at the age of 7, and they used that as blackmail because i didn't want people to find out that i did those bad things. it ended up with me being very sad and maybe depressed from around 3-5th grade. during this timeframe of elementary school i was bullied and teased only slightly. I had a few crushes in elementary school just for them to reject me and say "eeeewww". I was pretty much the gay best friend for all of the girls.
Moving on to middle school, during my 6th grade year we had to go online because of covid which destroyed my social skills, at home i could act however i wanted without being judged, and seeing as 6th grade is the time where you learn social skills i was done. Starting 7th grade, I was ugly and short and had the frame of a bird. I was 5'3" ish, and i was probably lltn-mltn for that age bracket. In my pe class, there was this girl i had liked. She was cute and she was very kind to me, and seeing as i had no social skills (especially with girls) i thought that she liked me, because she would act flirty with me. One day she invited me to hangout after school, and i remember how happy i was. There was a lot of buildup in our relationship, we were friends for like 2 months and then one day i finally had the courage to tell her how i felt. She responded happily and told me the same thing and she gave me her number. I texted her and she didn't respond, so i asked her in school what happened and then her friend came up to us and said that she was practically just playing around with me for fun, and that it was a fake number. That left me devastated and i felt so unworthy, and guess what made me feel somewhat wanted even if it was fake? her. I kept being friends with her and practically being obsessed for a while because of how messed up thay made me feel. Some more shitty stuff happens with this but it's not as relevant
Next, a few months later me and my friends are hanging out at lunch as we always do. They get up for a second to go "grab soemtbing" and i didnt really pay attention to it and i just went on my phone while they did whatever. Next second, i feel a loud thunk on my head. I look and theres a rock. and standing behind me is the 3 of them all laughing at me like if i was fucking amusement. Next thing i hear dripping on my jacket and im bleeding from my head. I go to the nurse and one of my friends comes with me, he feels slightly guilty and explains what happened. next day, i get called to the principal. i explain what happen and then go home. That day, i texted in some class group chat thay i was really mad and that i was gonna fight the other kid (glad i didn't, i would've gotten whooped) and then i get called in the next day again. this time im somehow im trouble and the people who practically assaulted me get off free. im in the principals office for literally 5 hours. I go to class and all of the students, the teacher, and even kids when i was walking down the hall look at me or stare at me i mean. Like i walk into class and the room goes silent, teacher stops teaching typa thing. Long story short, i had to move districts because i was being alienated. I had other cases of physical and verbal bullying at that school which i physically cant remember but i know it happened.
New district time period is 7th-8th grade
im getting tired of writing so long story short i keep getting bullied up until 8th grade where i hit my first growth spurt (5'6") and i start looking better (MLTN-HLTN) and all of a sudden the popular kids like me and i have friends who aren't jerks (still friends to this day (11th grade))
9th grade i have some messed up stuff in my head and everything feels terrible so i fall into addiction and it lasts until 10th grade where i start being even sadder and i realize that everything sucks and it's all because of how ugly i was and how unsociable i was as a small child. I start looksmaxxing and i quit my addiction because i started to value my looks over anything.
Now i am doing a lot better but still feel terrible and I know it's because of my childhood that was bad because of my looks
i can finally pull but never keep girls i think it's just cuz i'm still really unsociable, being bullied until ur 13ish really does something to ur brain i guess
other stuff happened and disorders that i won't say here because i dont wanna share it, but yea this is the story of my life so far
Moving on to middle school, during my 6th grade year we had to go online because of covid which destroyed my social skills, at home i could act however i wanted without being judged, and seeing as 6th grade is the time where you learn social skills i was done. Starting 7th grade, I was ugly and short and had the frame of a bird. I was 5'3" ish, and i was probably lltn-mltn for that age bracket. In my pe class, there was this girl i had liked. She was cute and she was very kind to me, and seeing as i had no social skills (especially with girls) i thought that she liked me, because she would act flirty with me. One day she invited me to hangout after school, and i remember how happy i was. There was a lot of buildup in our relationship, we were friends for like 2 months and then one day i finally had the courage to tell her how i felt. She responded happily and told me the same thing and she gave me her number. I texted her and she didn't respond, so i asked her in school what happened and then her friend came up to us and said that she was practically just playing around with me for fun, and that it was a fake number. That left me devastated and i felt so unworthy, and guess what made me feel somewhat wanted even if it was fake? her. I kept being friends with her and practically being obsessed for a while because of how messed up thay made me feel. Some more shitty stuff happens with this but it's not as relevant
Next, a few months later me and my friends are hanging out at lunch as we always do. They get up for a second to go "grab soemtbing" and i didnt really pay attention to it and i just went on my phone while they did whatever. Next second, i feel a loud thunk on my head. I look and theres a rock. and standing behind me is the 3 of them all laughing at me like if i was fucking amusement. Next thing i hear dripping on my jacket and im bleeding from my head. I go to the nurse and one of my friends comes with me, he feels slightly guilty and explains what happened. next day, i get called to the principal. i explain what happen and then go home. That day, i texted in some class group chat thay i was really mad and that i was gonna fight the other kid (glad i didn't, i would've gotten whooped) and then i get called in the next day again. this time im somehow im trouble and the people who practically assaulted me get off free. im in the principals office for literally 5 hours. I go to class and all of the students, the teacher, and even kids when i was walking down the hall look at me or stare at me i mean. Like i walk into class and the room goes silent, teacher stops teaching typa thing. Long story short, i had to move districts because i was being alienated. I had other cases of physical and verbal bullying at that school which i physically cant remember but i know it happened.
New district time period is 7th-8th grade
im getting tired of writing so long story short i keep getting bullied up until 8th grade where i hit my first growth spurt (5'6") and i start looking better (MLTN-HLTN) and all of a sudden the popular kids like me and i have friends who aren't jerks (still friends to this day (11th grade))
9th grade i have some messed up stuff in my head and everything feels terrible so i fall into addiction and it lasts until 10th grade where i start being even sadder and i realize that everything sucks and it's all because of how ugly i was and how unsociable i was as a small child. I start looksmaxxing and i quit my addiction because i started to value my looks over anything.
Now i am doing a lot better but still feel terrible and I know it's because of my childhood that was bad because of my looks
i can finally pull but never keep girls i think it's just cuz i'm still really unsociable, being bullied until ur 13ish really does something to ur brain i guess
other stuff happened and disorders that i won't say here because i dont wanna share it, but yea this is the story of my life so far
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