Deleted member 6164
Lay flat when the war comes
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I can’t cope anymore, my life is shit. I have poured all of childhood years into shitty meaningless online gaming communities, and most recently forums for losers-in-life (because let’s face it, a lot, if not most of the people here are not incel) like these. I spent my high school summers by myself, watching Eggman and Hamudi blackpill videos and playing online games. I’ve never been hugged, or kissed by a girl my age, or have do anything noteworthy with a girl my age. I’ve been bullied and outcasted for the majority of my life, molested by my cousin at 8/9 years old, and wrote my suicide note at 8 years old after constant bullying in elementary school. Everytime I tried to do a sport I was never recognized for my effort, same with school, so I just give up nowadays. I can’t take it anymore, nowadays I just lie down on the ground for hours searching for porn to jerk off to, or maybe playing video games, or going on forums like these. I gained 30 pounds since the start of quarantine (which is around the same time I was banned from this website), and even though I’ve exercised recently and even my mom got a trainer for me and a therapist, I just can’t take it anymore. I hate seeing that my brother has a girlfriend and is years younger than me. In a few months I will be 18, and the age pill will hit me hard because that means I’ll never have experienced teenage love (because I won’t be able to do so legally at that point). I am a lost soul, God has abandoned me. It’s over. There’s no point in continuing. My life is garbage, I am genetic GARBAGE. This is My Struggle.
