My temporary method

[sørenyuko]

After i turn 18 and move out in about 8 months, im gonna be placed into a new environment, they dont know my social history so they're just gonna see me as a neutral thing to interact with

And as im a 6'0" hmtn i shouldn't be facing any immediate looks based discrimination that would filter me out before i start

I also have no social anxiety or high inhib so i should appear as a blank slate waiting to be nudged like i envisioned

so if i just act as if im not starved for a little while and get the positive feedback to be able to continue being genuinely pleasant
i think it could work and get me through this phase

 

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[Tayvion Cole]

6'0" hmtn

Tales

 

[sørenyuko]

Tales

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i get it, it sounds like a basement dweller's larp fantasy, but here's the thing, my isolation isn't looks based, its geographical, i live 30km away from the nearest city and even that is a tiny town of 6000 people, even if i put myself out there it would either be

A: if i go outside and look at my immediate surroundings only: only forests and grainfields in sight

B: if i take the only bus at 7am that comes from the city to where im from (and i'd still have to walk 4km to the bus stop) i'd only have retirees at the bowling alley to look at and i'd have to be back my 2pm as the last bus takes off then, on weekends there is no public transport at all, on weekdays i have to be at school at 7-14, its completely impossible for me to get that friction i'd need before i move out.

im eager to see the effects when i finally get on the playing field with my desirability