arthurfish
what kind of life is that? not to be loved?
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Everything I do seems to push people away, be it from being overly attached or not enough. Every single person who has ever told me that they wouldn't leave my side has indeed left. I don't think I've had anyone like me -- romantically or platonically -- for more than a year. How I act, what I say, how I come across just seems to be completely repulsive to almost everyone I've interacted with for long enough. I ruined something potentially really good 8 months ago and I'm afraid I'll never have something similar ever again. I think I lost the one person who could tolerate me all because I was a turboautist sperg who couldn't maintain a normal functioning relationship. The worst part is that I bring this upon myself and I can't seem to find a way to stop. I don't know how to be like everyone else and it has never seemed more over
