Nervous laugh/smile to feel confortable

[Nation]

I remember when I was in school I had nervous smile/laugh, tense facial muscle and it was like I couldn't control it.
When people interacted with me I felt like I had to do some public speaking and I was really bad with quick replies.
I literally didn't know how to small talk and I end up saying weird replies. I thought people were looking at me like I was an animal, just to make me saying something stupid and laugh.
When people asked me something my mind was going blank and I was anxious of my reply since I had nothing to say because of isolation.
I was scared of make people look at me as a loner since I live in a small city.

Also sometimes when I was talking to people I had tears on my eyes and get emotional.
Biggest problem was the lack of interactions amd friends, also I was always staring the floor.

 

[SexuallyAbusive]

inject t

 

[Deleted member 15484]

I remember when I was in school I had nervous smile/laugh, tense facial muscle and it was like I couldn't control it.
When people interacted with me I felt like I had to do some public speaking and I was really bad with quick replies.
I literally didn't know how to small talk and I end up saying weird replies. I thought people were looking at me like I was an animal, just to make me saying something stupid and laugh.
When people asked me something my mind was going blank and I was anxious of my reply since I had nothing to say because of isolation.
I was scared of make people look at me as a loner since I live in a small city.

Also sometimes when I was talking to people I had tears on my eyes and get emotional.
Biggest problem was the lack of interactions amd friends, also I was always staring the floor.

high inhib cel

 

[coolguy1]

drugs

 

[Deleted member 4444]

confortable @OldVirgin

 

[ChristianChad]

Also sometimes when I was talking to people I had tears on my eyes and get emotional.

Mannn this happens to me sometimes. I fixed my sleep and diet after a heavy depressive episode and it went away mostly

 

[RftH]

NT or death 2021

 

[Nation]

Mannn this happens to me sometimes. I fixed my sleep and diet after a heavy depressive episode and it went away mostly

How do you explain that?

 

[ChristianChad]

How do you explain that?

Really not sure
To me it felt like physical and mental weakness, like I was afraid of people, especially masculine people

 

[Nation]

Really not sure
To me it felt like physical and mental weakness, like I was afraid of people, especially masculine people

Yes, me too.
Same, but i dont know for sure if it was just pure betaness