[No Larp ] Does anyone ends up feeling overwhelmed everytime you want to get productive ?

[Deleted member 3771]

I'm just curious if anyone feel this way . Since young ( around 8 years old ) , I have always convinced everyone on earth has thought of suicide at one or more points in their life but they just somehow find their ways to cope with living. When I went to college , I would ask start conversation with classmate who looks tired with ' Why do you want to die ? ' and I thought it is funny ( I still think it is today ), but 10/10 times they will end up being very uncomfortable and avoid me in the future.

Call me an retard but only recently I found that a lot of people , man and woman has lived their life without every thinking of death . At one point of life , I have determined for me there is no reason for me to live on if it was not for my family , I don't want them to be sad because of my suicide . Since I have decided to live , I think I have the responsible to live a NT life and be a high functioning member of society . I used to do pretty well in my study but a series of unfortunate event lead me to where I'm today ( childhood bullying , isolation , getting used by female )

Believe me when I say I have tried everything I can , exercise daily , go to gym , fasting , no-fap , regular sleep ,self improvement books. I really can't feel dopamine response doing what a healthy human will find fun , travelling , talking to people .

Every single time I planned to study or do anything productive , I can't help but my tiny brain keep questioning what is the point , whatever you do will not get you any where, and when I studied my ass off , I'm still going to be at the bottom of my class. I have to find new coping mechanism for me to keep doing what I do , and 9/10 of the times I'm shit at it.

Inb4 I got spammed self-pity or loser . Yes , I'm a loser but I never pity myself.

 

[Deleted member 10524]

Lol this place is a mental asylum fr

 

[Deleted member 3771]

Lol this place is a mental asylum fr

You are right , Idk where else I can write this

 

[Deleted member 12669]

I'm just curious if anyone feel this way . Since young ( around 8 years old ) , I have always convinced everyone on earth has thought of suicide at one or more points in their life but they just somehow find their ways to cope with living. When I went to college , I would ask start conversation with classmate who looks tired with ' Why do you want to die ? ' and I thought it is funny ( I still think it is today ), but 10/10 times they will end up being very uncomfortable and avoid me in the future.

Call me an retard but only recently I found that a lot of people , man and woman has lived their life without every thinking of death . At one point of life , I have determined for me there is no reason for me to live on if it was not for my family , I don't want them to be sad because of my suicide . Since I have decided to live , I think I have the responsible to live a NT life and be a high functioning member of society . I used to do pretty well in my study but a series of unfortunate event lead me to where I'm today ( childhood bullying , isolation , getting used by female )

Believe me when I say I have tried everything I can , exercise daily , go to gym , fasting , no-fap , regular sleep ,self improvement books. I really can't feel dopamine response doing what a healthy human will find fun , travelling , talking to people .

Every single time I planned to study or do anything productive , I can't help but my tiny brain keep questioning what is the point , whatever you do will not get you any where, and when I studied my ass off , I'm still going to be at the bottom of my class. I have to find new coping mechanism for me to keep doing what I do , and 9/10 of the times I'm shit at it.

Inb4 I got spammed self-pity or loser . Yes , I'm a loser but I never pity myself.

Yeah same ngl

 

[Lihito]

I'm just curious if anyone feel this way . Since young ( around 8 years old ) , I have always convinced everyone on earth has thought of suicide at one or more points in their life but they just somehow find their ways to cope with living. When I went to college , I would ask start conversation with classmate who looks tired with ' Why do you want to die ? ' and I thought it is funny ( I still think it is today ), but 10/10 times they will end up being very uncomfortable and avoid me in the future.

Call me an retard but only recently I found that a lot of people , man and woman has lived their life without every thinking of death . At one point of life , I have determined for me there is no reason for me to live on if it was not for my family , I don't want them to be sad because of my suicide . Since I have decided to live , I think I have the responsible to live a NT life and be a high functioning member of society . I used to do pretty well in my study but a series of unfortunate event lead me to where I'm today ( childhood bullying , isolation , getting used by female )

Believe me when I say I have tried everything I can , exercise daily , go to gym , fasting , no-fap , regular sleep ,self improvement books. I really can't feel dopamine response doing what a healthy human will find fun , travelling , talking to people .

Every single time I planned to study or do anything productive , I can't help but my tiny brain keep questioning what is the point , whatever you do will not get you any where, and when I studied my ass off , I'm still going to be at the bottom of my class. I have to find new coping mechanism for me to keep doing what I do , and 9/10 of the times I'm shit at it.

Inb4 I got spammed self-pity or loser . Yes , I'm a loser but I never pity myself.

A lot of teens Have this problem on this forum. Cant really give you and advice but im in a similar shit trying to improve because i fear hunger

 

[Deleted member 3771]

A lot of teens Have this problem on this forum. Cant really give you and advice but im in a similar shit trying to improve because i fear hunger

You don't sound like a teen, how old are you?

 

[Lihito]

You don't sound like a teen, how old are you?

18

 

[Chadimir_Slootin']

Perhaps you have no goals that are personally meaningful to you and you're just trying to fill soyciety's role of a "high functioning member" etc. Take some time to think about what you really want out of life for yourself.

 

[Jew_Supremacist]

I'm just curious if anyone feel this way . Since young ( around 8 years old ) , I have always convinced everyone on earth has thought of suicide at one or more points in their life but they just somehow find their ways to cope with living. When I went to college , I would ask start conversation with classmate who looks tired with ' Why do you want to die ? ' and I thought it is funny ( I still think it is today ), but 10/10 times they will end up being very uncomfortable and avoid me in the future.

Call me an retard but only recently I found that a lot of people , man and woman has lived their life without every thinking of death . At one point of life , I have determined for me there is no reason for me to live on if it was not for my family , I don't want them to be sad because of my suicide . Since I have decided to live , I think I have the responsible to live a NT life and be a high functioning member of society . I used to do pretty well in my study but a series of unfortunate event lead me to where I'm today ( childhood bullying , isolation , getting used by female )

Believe me when I say I have tried everything I can , exercise daily , go to gym , fasting , no-fap , regular sleep ,self improvement books. I really can't feel dopamine response doing what a healthy human will find fun , travelling , talking to people .

Every single time I planned to study or do anything productive , I can't help but my tiny brain keep questioning what is the point , whatever you do will not get you any where, and when I studied my ass off , I'm still going to be at the bottom of my class. I have to find new coping mechanism for me to keep doing what I do , and 9/10 of the times I'm shit at it.

Inb4 I got spammed self-pity or loser . Yes , I'm a loser but I never pity myself.

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