nobody likes me....

[_MVP_]

Im 36M from Germany. I had depression all my life, but what most pain caused me by far is the loneliness of not having somebody to talk every day and trust... I have always been alone and rejected... Nobody ever wants or accepts me...

im weak and i need affection...

Its so painful. I have tried so much, i talked with so many women... And Im an introvert, I dont even like talking to people... But I tried...

all i ever wanted was just to have somebody to share the every day, the monotone life, to talk every day, to trust and cuddle... but it seems that im asking too much...

they always reject me because of the same reasons... im too needy, too much... im also boring, i dont like to go out, i dont have interests, im very insecure... im weak... its always the same... nobody wants me...
meanwhile many guys who are literal trash, wife beaters, heavy drug addicts... i dont want to use stronger terms, but literally anything you can imagine... all those guys are always wanted by someone... but not me... im worse than them... im unwanted trash...

I just cannot deal with this pain. Its so painful. Its pain, its more pain, its always pain. Its always emptiness, its always loneliness, its always more pain and more pain, and more pain.

There is nothing else but pain and more pain and rejection and more pain.

i cant live like this... its just pain every day... its just pain and pain and pain...

nobody wants me...