Nothing matters except pleasure

[disillusioned]

I used to cope with this BS meme about 'higher purpose' and how I was somehow above Chad for at least having high-IQ hobbies, including writing, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized how pathetic this really was. Who fucking cares? There's a ton of losers who are talented at something who are still utterly miserable subhumans just the same. Ok, so you made this video game or you wrote this book or whatever, but those things don't make you happy by themselves. Those things are more like a side dish that's supposed to be paired with the main meal. You're not supposed to have only French fries for dinner.

The realization became even more brutal once I realized how much I miss drinking. I can't do it anymore because my body got physically addicted (I was an alcoholic), so I had to stop, but I'm extremely nostalgic for all the years I spent drinking. Going to bars, having weird but fun chats with other random drunks while downing gallons of beer, even just getting shitfaced in front of the TV watching some funny shit. Literally the happiest moments of my life were obtained doing this shit, even though it was 'meaningless' and 'shallow' according to conventional wisdom.

And now? I can't do it anymore. Even though I objectively have more 'meaningful' interests now (I now have thousands of followers for my fiction writing, which I did not have in the past, plus I'm deep into game dev), I still feel much less happy now that I can't go on wild drinking binges anymore doing fun shit. Life simply lacks color now. And my libido, naturally, is much worse because I'm in my mid-30s now.

Fuck this shit. I feel like I've already lived my life and that there's not much reason to go on, even though I'm only halfway through. All this BS about 'meaning' is so much cope. All that matters is raw pleasure, and it doesn't matter how it happens.

 

[brotato78]

i mean i guess but putting off pleasure to build something for your future self is valuable even if u dont do it all the time

 

[jaaba]

The vast majority of the best pleasures require some hardship and levels of pain to acquire and maintain. This is very common knowledge for anyone above the age of 7.

 

[disillusioned]

i mean i guess but putting off pleasure to build something for your future self is valuable even if u dont do it all the time

Who fucking cares about your 'future self'? Your future self is a depressed middle aged loser who can't do the fun things he used to. Life quality tanks past 30 and it only gets worse.

 

[jaaba]

i mean i guess but putting off pleasure to build something for your future self is valuable even if u dont do it all the time

Indeed, I imagine fucking loads of body halo Becky’s feels very good, having a secure marriage that you have ruined before it began will feel a lot better.

 

[brotato78]

Who fucking cares about your 'future self'? Your future self is a depressed middle aged loser who can't do the fun things he used to. Life quality tanks past 30 and it only gets worse.

i see my future self as someone who preserved himself enough to still do the things he enjoys, its not like once ur old all the things u enjoy just arent possible to do, if anything theyre more aquirable if u have money since theres escorts and geomaxing

 

[disillusioned]

its not like once ur old all the things u enjoy just arent possible to do

Said somebody who isn't old yet

Trust me, aging will absolutely fuck you. I will admit that not being able to drink alcohol anymore is partially my own fault by getting addicted, but even if I hadn't done this, binge drinking (which is what actually makes drinking fun) is simply a no no once you're 35+ years old. Besides hangovers becoming worse and longer-lasting, your body just stops tolerating it in general. When I stopped drinking, I had like 140+ blood pressure. The last time it was measured, it was like 124. This was after like 2-3 years sober. Lifelong binge drinking just means you die from a heart attack or stroke in your 50s or 60s. Or liver failure. Sure, 'moderation' is possible but that shit is just fucking boring and unsatisfying.

But it's not just booze. I can't really tolerate fast food anymore. I ate a KFC meal for lunch today and I felt like utter shit for hours afterward. This did not happen when I was younger. I imagine it will only get worse in the future. I also have sleep apnea, feel less energetic in general, slower metabolism, more prone to injury, etc.

And sex? Even if I wasn't incel, you can't really go around hitting on hot girls as a middle aged man. Even meeting women in the same age range is much harder. Oh, and your erections will be dogshit compared to before.

Sorry, but the brutal reality is that life WILL get much less fun as you age

 

[mulattocel]

Felt this in my soul

Idk how to cope anymore with my libido in a downtrend while also being a hedonistic sex addict in my early 30s

 

[Truebloatcel]

I used to cope with this BS meme about 'higher purpose' and how I was somehow above Chad for at least having high-IQ hobbies, including writing, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized how pathetic this really was. Who fucking cares? There's a ton of losers who are talented at something who are still utterly miserable subhumans just the same. Ok, so you made this video game or you wrote this book or whatever, but those things don't make you happy by themselves. Those things are more like a side dish that's supposed to be paired with the main meal. You're not supposed to have only French fries for dinner.

The realization became even more brutal once I realized how much I miss drinking. I can't do it anymore because my body got physically addicted (I was an alcoholic), so I had to stop, but I'm extremely nostalgic for all the years I spent drinking. Going to bars, having weird but fun chats with other random drunks while downing gallons of beer, even just getting shitfaced in front of the TV watching some funny shit. Literally the happiest moments of my life were obtained doing this shit, even though it was 'meaningless' and 'shallow' according to conventional wisdom.

And now? I can't do it anymore. Even though I objectively have more 'meaningful' interests now (I now have thousands of followers for my fiction writing, which I did not have in the past, plus I'm deep into game dev), I still feel much less happy now that I can't go on wild drinking binges anymore doing fun shit. Life simply lacks color now. And my libido, naturally, is much worse because I'm in my mid-30s now.

Fuck this shit. I feel like I've already lived my life and that there's not much reason to go on, even though I'm only halfway through. All this BS about 'meaning' is so much cope. All that matters is raw pleasure, and it doesn't matter how it happens.

There’s no better pleasure than pride and self respect after achieving something that you wanted

 

[Irrelevance]

I used to cope with this BS meme about 'higher purpose' and how I was somehow above Chad for at least having high-IQ hobbies, including writing, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized how pathetic this really was. Who fucking cares? There's a ton of losers who are talented at something who are still utterly miserable subhumans just the same. Ok, so you made this video game or you wrote this book or whatever, but those things don't make you happy by themselves. Those things are more like a side dish that's supposed to be paired with the main meal. You're not supposed to have only French fries for dinner.

The realization became even more brutal once I realized how much I miss drinking. I can't do it anymore because my body got physically addicted (I was an alcoholic), so I had to stop, but I'm extremely nostalgic for all the years I spent drinking. Going to bars, having weird but fun chats with other random drunks while downing gallons of beer, even just getting shitfaced in front of the TV watching some funny shit. Literally the happiest moments of my life were obtained doing this shit, even though it was 'meaningless' and 'shallow' according to conventional wisdom.

And now? I can't do it anymore. Even though I objectively have more 'meaningful' interests now (I now have thousands of followers for my fiction writing, which I did not have in the past, plus I'm deep into game dev), I still feel much less happy now that I can't go on wild drinking binges anymore doing fun shit. Life simply lacks color now. And my libido, naturally, is much worse because I'm in my mid-30s now.

Fuck this shit. I feel like I've already lived my life and that there's not much reason to go on, even though I'm only halfway through. All this BS about 'meaning' is so much cope. All that matters is raw pleasure, and it doesn't matter how it happens.

Realizing that the most pleasure you'll ever feel comes from drugs is brutal

 

[polio]

I'm as old as you, and life has its pleasures.

Sexually yeah, I became an old man with very weak erections not gonna lie.

But I have some real pleasures: food, competitive video games, it's very important for me, gives me a lot of good things in my life

I think you are just depressed, life doesn't end at 35

for me it's the sexual part that makes me sad about aging, but there are other things to look forward as a mid 30s guy

 

[pfl]

keep projecting old fart

 

[disillusioned]

The vast majority of the best pleasures require some hardship and levels of pain to acquire and maintain.

"Muh hard work "

How happy are third-world sweatshop workers who work 12 hours a day six days a week in exchange for peanuts? Hard work is by far the single biggest bluepiller meme of all time. I'm literally on disability welfare and I still have 1000x the disposable money most turdworlders have while doing almost nothing. Even despite my otherwise shitty situation I still lifemog most of them brutally just by the virtue of existing as a white person living in a first world country with strong social services.

Sorry, but nothing matters except the things you cannot really change.

 

[au rêve]

"Muh hard work "

How happy are third-world sweatshop workers who work 12 hours a day six days a week in exchange for peanuts? Hard work is by far the single biggest bluepiller meme of all time. I'm literally on disability welfare and I still have 1000x the disposable money most turdworlders have while doing almost nothing. Even despite my otherwise shitty situation I still lifemog most of them brutally just by the virtue of existing as a white person living in a first world country with strong social services.

Sorry, but nothing matters except the things you cannot really change.

why are you comparing with sweatshop workers lol compare yourself with wealthy people in the first world

 

[disillusioned]

Realizing that the most pleasure you'll ever feel comes from drugs is brutal

There is a reason people get addicted to that shit. And alcohol is 100% a drug btw, regardless of what the copers say. The altered state of mind, the feelings of invisibility, the strong euphoria... it's like you've entered a completely different dimension where none of the normal rules apply. You literally experience reality differently. Nothing, NOTHING you do sober will ever compare to this ever.

I miss it so fucking much