NSFW I am feeling suicidal over something I did a week ago (Everyone who have read my recent posts GTFIH)

[Deleted member 26197]

Last week I tried to jerk off once using only my imagination, therefore I looked at a picture of a girl from instagram and then I went to the bathroom and tried to stroke my dick to the thought of it.


But while I was doing it I was extremely afraid of remembering of a picture of my mom in the middle of the act


I was afraid of it because I've read fucked up comments about incest in reddit


Therefore I stopped stroking my dick, and switched to the thought to girls from my school


TLDR: I tried to jerk off to the thought of a picture of ashkaashh, but I was extremely afraid of remembering about my mom in the middle of the act, should I kill myself?

 

[GabachoCopium]

Why you jerking to your imagination nigga

 

[Deleted member 26197]

Why you jerking to your imagination nigga

Because I couldn't bring my phone to the bathroom

 

[Deleted member 40986]

Dont jerk off problem solved

 

[GabachoCopium]

Because I couldn't bring my phone to the bathroom

Fucking hell

 

[Deleted member 26197]

Bump

Is this a legitmate situation where you should feel fear of life or death?

 

[Deleted member 26197]

Is it normal to be afraid of death in this situation? Yesterday I spent the whole day thinking about killing myself.

 

[HarrierDuBois]

Intrusive thoughts generally pop up for a second or two then disappear.

 

[slayerToBe]

What? Wank in front of your mom, its your canon event bro, we all know what will happen after...

 

[BloodClot]

You have OCD

 

[Deleted member 24770]

Last week I tried to jerk off once using only my imagination, therefore I looked at a picture of a girl from instagram and then I went to the bathroom and tried to stroke my dick to the thought of it.


But while I was doing it I was extremely afraid of remembering of a picture of my mom in the middle of the act


I was afraid of it because I've read fucked up comments about incest in reddit


Therefore I stopped stroking my dick, and switched to the thought to girls from my school


TLDR: I tried to jerk off to the thought of a picture of ashkaashh, but I was extremely afraid of remembering about my mom in the middle of the act, should I kill myself?

Dude it happens to me too I fucking hate my intrusive thoughts, somehow the weirdest things pop out in my head while im fapping. Honestly this is probably a sign from God I need to stop this terrible habit tbh

 

[Deleted member 24770]

You have OCD

Probably that or adhd, i have heavy adhd diagnosed when i was 4 yrs old but take no medicines for it

 

[Deleted member 30679]

When you don't want to think about something you will think about it

 

[Deleted member 24770]

Is it normal to be afraid of death in this situation? Yesterday I spent the whole day thinking about killing myself.

No brother, it literally happens all the time. It’s frustrating but not something that embarassing that u want to kys, its just the way ur brain was wired.

 

[Deleted member 24770]

When you don't want to think about something you will think about it

Great point, do u know any way to reset my mind to not do this jfl

 

[SubSigma]

Bro just have the picture in front of you on your phone. You probably have ocd and intrusive thoughts. I have a Slavic ginger stacey as my wallpaper, so I will never forget what I am jacking off to.

 

[Deleted member 26197]

Intrusive thoughts generally pop up for a second or two then disappear.

Dude it happens to me too I fucking hate my intrusive thoughts, somehow the weirdest things pop out in my head while im fapping. Honestly this is probably a sign from God I need to stop this terrible habit tbh

No brother, it literally happens all the time. It’s frustrating but not something that embarassing that u want to kys, its just the way ur brain was wired.

I didn't have an intrusive thought, I was scared of having an intrusive thought



That happened once in my whole life, I am 17 now, I think that I'll hide this memory for the next years of my whole life.

 

[Deleted member 30679]

Great point, do u know any way to reset my mind to not do this jfl

Don't think about it and forget about it
Your probably overthinking
Most of this shit is just from anxiety tbh if u think about some fucked up shit just don't be hard on yourself for it and just move on

 

[Deleted member 26197]

What? Wank in front of your mom, its your canon event bro, we all know what will happen after...

Nigga, I don't feel attraction towards my mom, that is fucking disgusting

 

[BloodClot]

I didn't have an intrusive thought, I was scared of having an intrusive thought



That happened once in my whole life, I am 17 now, I think that I'll hide this memory for the next years of my whole life.

Being scared of having an intrusive thought is an intrusive thought lol

 

[7zyzz7]

you should definitely kill yourself as soon as possible

 

[Deleted member 24770]

Don't think about it and forget about it
Your probably overthinking
Most of this shit is just from anxiety tbh if u think about some fucked up shit just don't be hard on yourself for it and just move on

Thanks brother thats what i try to do, appreciate it a lot

 

[Deleted member 24770]

I didn't have an intrusive thought, I was scared of having an intrusive thought



That happened once in my whole life, I am 17 now, I think that I'll hide this memory for the next years of my whole life.

Lol chill out then tbh its happened to me an embarassing number of times before my mind is fucked, but it doesn’t define me as a person. Cant let events define u as a person tbh

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

you should definitely kill yourself as soon as possible

Bgm-pilled

 

[HarrierDuBois]

I didn't have an intrusive thought, I was scared of having an intrusive thought



That happened once in my whole life, I am 17 now, I think that I'll hide this memory for the next years of my whole life.

You're aware intrusive thoughts are just the devil right?

 

[OGJBSLAYER]

Jfl at you, l mastubate to incest porn, BDSM, gay porn etc

When I'm horny, I don't care anymore. I'm like a dog that's ready to fuck any hole

 

[Napoleon1800]

Just try to block it out. We've all had moments of where we have sexualised family members and parents. Oedipus complex, that's what it is.