NT maxxing as a ND

[Itsnotover77]

Since a couple of weeks, I have more friends.
We often go to the City.
Sometimes in to the club.

I was never a big fan of the club. The people, the drinking and not knowing, when to stop. That were all things I didn’t like.

Most of them don’t have even big ambitions.

While I was in school (7.-9.grade, 9. grade was my last year.) I didn’t had much friends, I would love the gym and saw results within months, because I bulked. I was never the guy, who smoked or drunk. I was not the popular guy.

Even in my apprenticeship I am not like the others.
I have deep interests like Chess, Education and improving my looks.

I am literally neurodivergent and have better grades than almost everyone in my jobschool. I am very liked by some teachers.
Maybe I should have gone to the gymnasium, if I wasn’t 14 and unknown of my potential.

The thing is, because I am a ND,

I analyse things more.
I have a strong vocabulary, I talk like a 50 year old man ( I often do it intentionally.)
I have deeper interests .
I strongly think about my diet.
I have strongly better grades than the majority in my class.

I just wanna be better. I care about being a better man, having a nice aesthetic jacked body.


I don’t know, if I should stay me or be a fake person?
Having smalltalks, which I do not care about.
Pretend to be a regular person, who likes partying.
Trying to reflect people.

What do y’all think?

 

[PSLbbc]

Since a couple of weeks, I have more friends.
We often go to the City.
Sometimes in to the club.

I was never a big fan of the club. The people, the drinking and not knowing, when to stop. That were all things I didn’t like.

Most of them don’t have even big ambitions.

While I was in school (7.-9.grade, 9. grade was my last year.) I didn’t had much friends, I would love the gym and saw results within months, because I bulked. I was never the guy, who smoked or drunk. I was not the popular guy.

Even in my apprenticeship I am not like the others.
I have deep interests like Chess, Education and improving my looks.

I am literally neurodivergent and have better grades than almost everyone in my jobschool. I am very liked by some teachers.
Maybe I should have gone to the gymnasium, if I wasn’t 14 and unknown of my potential.

The thing is, because I am a ND,

I analyse things more.
I have a strong vocabulary, I talk like a 50 year old man ( I often do it intentionally.)
I have deeper interests .
I strongly think about my diet.
I have strongly better grades than the majority in my class.

I just wanna be better. I care about being a better man, having a nice aesthetic jacked body.


I don’t know, if I should stay me or be a fake person?
Having smalltalks, which I do not care about.
Pretend to be a regular person, who likes partying.
Trying to reflect people.

What do y’all think?

I am nd too and good at nothing
But I do have deeper interests ig

 

[Elias144]

Be a fake person for a while and see if the life is satisfying for you or not. If it's not, just go back to being you. If you enjoy the "fake" life and keep it up long enough, it might become real eventually.

 

[WinterOvercast]

I'm ND too and I'll never be socially normal

 

[Itsnotover77]

Be a fake person for a while and see if the life is satisfying for you or not. If it's not, just go back to being you. If you enjoy the "fake" life and keep it up long enough, it might become real eventually.

Thanks, gonna try it.
It is an good advice.