descension
2026 i'm coming
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If you never experienced acne don't expect to understand me, it isn't possible for you.
You can't imagine the hate you feel for your skin, knowing it's entirely genetic and you can't fucking do anything about it without raping your whole body (basically accutane).
There wasn't a moment in 2024 where I wasn't subconsciously worrying about my skin, no time when I could enjoy the current moment.
I even gone on a trip to Spain alone that my parents earned the money for with hard work, for me to feel good and explore the world, but I wasn't enjoying it I was 24/7 stressing about my skin. It fucking hurts burns and it's itchy all the fucking time I can not continue to live like this. I feel like a total wreck, betraying my parents and wasting their money on a trip I didn't enjoy.
I have now shit grades, no friends, no social life, no will to live no nothing. I was I was low inhib enough to kms but I'm a high inhib cuck.
I'm not even ugly probably between mtn and htn otherwise but it hurts more this way, experiencing first hand the difference in treatment from other people.
I don't know how much more can I take, larping about being sick and putting on my hood all the time, with all the mirrors taped up and avoiding my reflection from my black phonescreen, all this shit is like a succubus sucking all my energy and willpower away.
If God exists why would he do this to people? Giving people pain that no other can understand? My parents say it's nothing and to stop being superfixated on it. They're right, I'm just pumping my cortisol levels in the sky.
What did against anybody to deserve this??
You can't imagine the hate you feel for your skin, knowing it's entirely genetic and you can't fucking do anything about it without raping your whole body (basically accutane).
There wasn't a moment in 2024 where I wasn't subconsciously worrying about my skin, no time when I could enjoy the current moment.
I even gone on a trip to Spain alone that my parents earned the money for with hard work, for me to feel good and explore the world, but I wasn't enjoying it I was 24/7 stressing about my skin. It fucking hurts burns and it's itchy all the fucking time I can not continue to live like this. I feel like a total wreck, betraying my parents and wasting their money on a trip I didn't enjoy.
I have now shit grades, no friends, no social life, no will to live no nothing. I was I was low inhib enough to kms but I'm a high inhib cuck.
I'm not even ugly probably between mtn and htn otherwise but it hurts more this way, experiencing first hand the difference in treatment from other people.
I don't know how much more can I take, larping about being sick and putting on my hood all the time, with all the mirrors taped up and avoiding my reflection from my black phonescreen, all this shit is like a succubus sucking all my energy and willpower away.
If God exists why would he do this to people? Giving people pain that no other can understand? My parents say it's nothing and to stop being superfixated on it. They're right, I'm just pumping my cortisol levels in the sky.
What did against anybody to deserve this??