ifyouwannabemylover
Chasing Vanity
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There's probably nothing better at waking you up to the reality of how much looks matter than going from being a handsome kid to developing a couple of failos that completely drag you down during puberty. I'm in the process of fixing them and I should be done next year at the latest, but the damage is done and it will never completely go away.
Once you're in that hole of being a loner, it's hard to get out. I've pretty much put everything on hold until I'm done fixing my appearance and I'm not quite sure how things will go when I'm done. It's been my main motivation to keep going for the last two years. There were a couple of other things dragging me down into this mess, like my completely messed up family and upbringing. But the change in looks that occured at a certain age probably amplified everything x20. It feels weird to type it out like this because it's so ridiculous. But it is what it is. And it's absolutely mind-boggling.
I've literally been sitting here for 45 minutes just coming up with these words, because words can barely explain how silly all of this is.
Once you're in that hole of being a loner, it's hard to get out. I've pretty much put everything on hold until I'm done fixing my appearance and I'm not quite sure how things will go when I'm done. It's been my main motivation to keep going for the last two years. There were a couple of other things dragging me down into this mess, like my completely messed up family and upbringing. But the change in looks that occured at a certain age probably amplified everything x20. It feels weird to type it out like this because it's so ridiculous. But it is what it is. And it's absolutely mind-boggling.
I've literally been sitting here for 45 minutes just coming up with these words, because words can barely explain how silly all of this is.
