
Bewusst
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I've reached a point in life where everything just fucking sucks. People, responsibilities, everything annoys the crap out of me and I'm unable to relax even for a moment. Nothing makes me happy, everything and everyone's just incredibly annoying and I wish I could just exist somewhere in peace and complete solitude, as far away from anyone as possible. No housemates, no neighbors, no involuntary interaction with anyone, just me, MY bed, MY space, MY home, MY time, MY fucking life. People are so fucking annoying, I'd drop a nuke on this planet if I could.
As I mentioned before, a few years ago, I used to drink daily, but in small quantities. Only around 2-4 beers per day on average, but it still helped me tremendously in terms of dealing with stress and everyday life. I actually had moments when I felt good and was able to relax, which is something I haven't been able to since kicking the habit of drinking daily.
My day started out annoying and I was drained and tired of everything and everyone, so much that I said fuck my responsibilities and principles, fuck every-fucking-one, and grabbed a few beers at the store and am now sitting in the park by the river and am actually able to relax and unwind after Idk how many months. I just don't care anymore. I broke my fasting window and Idk what I'm gonna do in the future, but subjectively speaking, I haven't felt this good - which isn't even all that "good", just more normal and less stressed out from everything, in a very long time. Kind of meditative and being in tune with my surroundings. I can finally filter out all the crap that's going on around me.
Why should I make my life more difficult than it already is?
(Please don't misinterpret my thread as encouragement to drink alcohol)
As I mentioned before, a few years ago, I used to drink daily, but in small quantities. Only around 2-4 beers per day on average, but it still helped me tremendously in terms of dealing with stress and everyday life. I actually had moments when I felt good and was able to relax, which is something I haven't been able to since kicking the habit of drinking daily.
My day started out annoying and I was drained and tired of everything and everyone, so much that I said fuck my responsibilities and principles, fuck every-fucking-one, and grabbed a few beers at the store and am now sitting in the park by the river and am actually able to relax and unwind after Idk how many months. I just don't care anymore. I broke my fasting window and Idk what I'm gonna do in the future, but subjectively speaking, I haven't felt this good - which isn't even all that "good", just more normal and less stressed out from everything, in a very long time. Kind of meditative and being in tune with my surroundings. I can finally filter out all the crap that's going on around me.
Why should I make my life more difficult than it already is?
(Please don't misinterpret my thread as encouragement to drink alcohol)