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So in high school this was junior year, I was a semi-popular prettyboy, but never got any pussy because I was the loser of my friend group I was in and even though the girls in the clique thought I was attractive they would never touch me.
One day we were at a football game together and one my female friends noticed me staring at this beautiful red headed freshman girl a few rows behind us (I’ll call her Ginny cause she looked like Ginny from Harry Potter) my friend said “yeah I play volleyball with her she’s really pretty isn’t she” and I was like “yeah she’s so beautiful”. So I went and looked her up on Facebook and developed a huge crush.
Fast forward a few weeks and I’m at a school dance, the same female friend introduces us and pushes Ginny and I together, she is in makeup and beautiful dress and I feel like I’m in love, we awkwardly slow dance and talk a little, and she starts grinding on me which freaks me out cause I was still a virgin (had my first kiss at 14 though
) so I after like a minute I just walk away and that was the end.
A few days later standing in hallways between classes w my crew, my female friend says “hey I could tell Ginny really liked you, what do you think” and I was like “umm, I guess” and changed the subject. But turns out she wanted to give me her Snapchat
.
I still was crushing on her still but too beta to do anything, fast forward to next semester I am in an art class with Ginny, she legit comes up and fucking approaches me during first day of class and tries to flirt but I legit just look down and stare at my phone and she just makes a weird face leaves, that was it, after that I never had another chance with her. I think I realize I’ve never been the same since then and after that is when I noticed I started to get depressed for real and started drinking a ton and skipping classes because I felt so weak and pathetic and beta.
Actually I have an even far more brutal story senior year after that, that finally broke me, but I’ve never even told anyone because it’s so embarrassing and brutal I would probably have to legit rope afterward.
Maybe I was so scared because my first two girlfriends I ever had in 7th grade and 9th grade were legit both stolen by my bully, in 7th grade is was so brutal I had to switch school and it happened FUCKING AGAIN JFL.
Now I actually ended up slaying insanely hard from ages 21-23 but I’m still a fucked up loser neet, if only things had gone just a little different in my life I could have ascended and become a normie. Or maybe I am just so autistic it was all doomed from the start.
Anyways thanks for reading my blog, I am trying to get over all my repressed memories and deal w trauma so I can become more normie and NT, hope people on here can understand
One day we were at a football game together and one my female friends noticed me staring at this beautiful red headed freshman girl a few rows behind us (I’ll call her Ginny cause she looked like Ginny from Harry Potter) my friend said “yeah I play volleyball with her she’s really pretty isn’t she” and I was like “yeah she’s so beautiful”. So I went and looked her up on Facebook and developed a huge crush.
Fast forward a few weeks and I’m at a school dance, the same female friend introduces us and pushes Ginny and I together, she is in makeup and beautiful dress and I feel like I’m in love, we awkwardly slow dance and talk a little, and she starts grinding on me which freaks me out cause I was still a virgin (had my first kiss at 14 though
) so I after like a minute I just walk away and that was the end.A few days later standing in hallways between classes w my crew, my female friend says “hey I could tell Ginny really liked you, what do you think” and I was like “umm, I guess” and changed the subject. But turns out she wanted to give me her Snapchat
.I still was crushing on her still but too beta to do anything, fast forward to next semester I am in an art class with Ginny, she legit comes up and fucking approaches me during first day of class and tries to flirt but I legit just look down and stare at my phone and she just makes a weird face leaves, that was it, after that I never had another chance with her. I think I realize I’ve never been the same since then and after that is when I noticed I started to get depressed for real and started drinking a ton and skipping classes because I felt so weak and pathetic and beta.
Actually I have an even far more brutal story senior year after that, that finally broke me, but I’ve never even told anyone because it’s so embarrassing and brutal I would probably have to legit rope afterward.
Maybe I was so scared because my first two girlfriends I ever had in 7th grade and 9th grade were legit both stolen by my bully, in 7th grade is was so brutal I had to switch school and it happened FUCKING AGAIN JFL.
Now I actually ended up slaying insanely hard from ages 21-23 but I’m still a fucked up loser neet, if only things had gone just a little different in my life I could have ascended and become a normie. Or maybe I am just so autistic it was all doomed from the start.
Anyways thanks for reading my blog, I am trying to get over all my repressed memories and deal w trauma so I can become more normie and NT, hope people on here can understand
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