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So in high school this was junior year, I was a semi-popular prettyboy, but never got any pussy because I was the loser of my friend group I was in and even though the girls in the clique thought I was attractive they would never touch me.
One day we were at a football game together and one my female friends noticed me staring at this beautiful red headed freshman girl a few rows behind us (I’ll call her Ginny cause she looked like Ginny from Harry Potter) my friend said “yeah I play volleyball with her she’s really pretty isn’t she” and I was like “yeah she’s so beautiful”. So I went and looked her up on Facebook and developed a huge crush.
Fast forward a few weeks and I’m at a school dance, the same female friend introduces us and pushes Ginny and I together, she is in makeup and beautiful dress and I feel like I’m in love, we awkwardly slow dance and talk a little, and she starts grinding on me which freaks me out cause I was still a virgin (had my first kiss at 14 though
) so I after like a minute I just walk away and that was the end.
A few days later standing in hallways between classes w my crew, my female friend says “hey I could tell Ginny really liked you, what do you think” and I was like “umm, I guess” and changed the subject. But turns out she wanted to give me her Snapchat
.
I still was crushing on her still but too beta to do anything, fast forward to next semester I am in an art class with Ginny, she legit comes up and fucking approaches me during first day of class and tries to flirt but I legit just look down and stare at my phone and she just makes a weird face leaves, that was it, after that I never had another chance with her. I think I realize I’ve never been the same since then and after that is when I noticed I started to get depressed for real and started drinking a ton and skipping classes because I felt so weak and pathetic and beta.
Actually I have an even far more brutal story senior year after that, that finally broke me, but I’ve never even told anyone because it’s so embarrassing and brutal I would probably have to legit rope afterward.
Maybe I was so scared because my first two girlfriends I ever had in 7th grade and 9th grade were legit both stolen by my bully, in 7th grade is was so brutal I had to switch school and it happened FUCKING AGAIN JFL.
Now I actually ended up slaying insanely hard from ages 21-23 but I’m still a fucked up loser neet, if only things had gone just a little different in my life I could have ascended and become a normie. Or maybe I am just so autistic it was all doomed from the start.
Anyways thanks for reading my blog, I am trying to get over all my repressed memories and deal w trauma so I can become more normie and NT, hope people on here can understand
One day we were at a football game together and one my female friends noticed me staring at this beautiful red headed freshman girl a few rows behind us (I’ll call her Ginny cause she looked like Ginny from Harry Potter) my friend said “yeah I play volleyball with her she’s really pretty isn’t she” and I was like “yeah she’s so beautiful”. So I went and looked her up on Facebook and developed a huge crush.
Fast forward a few weeks and I’m at a school dance, the same female friend introduces us and pushes Ginny and I together, she is in makeup and beautiful dress and I feel like I’m in love, we awkwardly slow dance and talk a little, and she starts grinding on me which freaks me out cause I was still a virgin (had my first kiss at 14 though

A few days later standing in hallways between classes w my crew, my female friend says “hey I could tell Ginny really liked you, what do you think” and I was like “umm, I guess” and changed the subject. But turns out she wanted to give me her Snapchat

I still was crushing on her still but too beta to do anything, fast forward to next semester I am in an art class with Ginny, she legit comes up and fucking approaches me during first day of class and tries to flirt but I legit just look down and stare at my phone and she just makes a weird face leaves, that was it, after that I never had another chance with her. I think I realize I’ve never been the same since then and after that is when I noticed I started to get depressed for real and started drinking a ton and skipping classes because I felt so weak and pathetic and beta.
Actually I have an even far more brutal story senior year after that, that finally broke me, but I’ve never even told anyone because it’s so embarrassing and brutal I would probably have to legit rope afterward.
Maybe I was so scared because my first two girlfriends I ever had in 7th grade and 9th grade were legit both stolen by my bully, in 7th grade is was so brutal I had to switch school and it happened FUCKING AGAIN JFL.
Now I actually ended up slaying insanely hard from ages 21-23 but I’m still a fucked up loser neet, if only things had gone just a little different in my life I could have ascended and become a normie. Or maybe I am just so autistic it was all doomed from the start.
Anyways thanks for reading my blog, I am trying to get over all my repressed memories and deal w trauma so I can become more normie and NT, hope people on here can understand
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