foidslayerx
5'9 Truecel
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- Aug 13, 2026
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16 5'9 ltn i think it's over. I have no will to live anymore. The only thing that's stopping me from roping is my family and my only friend that I talk to. Everyday i hope something is going to be better but nothing changes. I've been bullied when I was younger for my height and weight. Got beat up by 3 bigger guys just for standing up for myself. I'm waking up everyday just to look in the mirror and see my ugly face. I'm really ashamed of my looks, i never go out, i'm distancing myself from my friends and family. I can't even gather the courage to go say hi to my parents. Getting MARPE soon but that wont change much. I can't even go outside to buy weed to feel better or anything in that case. My only friend that I have thinks i'm schizophrenic but I can't get diagnosed because I won't go out of my room. I have insomnia, can't stop thinking about how shit my life is. My parents are suspecting something is wrong but I can't come out with that to them, I don't want them to feel bad about anything and they would get me therapy that I can't go to because of my looks. I'm addicted to porn and it makes me feel even worse. I try to get off of it every once in a while but I just can't. Every time I talk about my feelings to my friend I feel like I'm doing this for attention but I'm not. School is starting in a few days but I just can't take it anymore. I'm tired of being tired all the time. I have no idea if i even wrote this correctly because I am sleep deprived - haven't slept in like 40 hours. Should i rope?