hax
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JFL THIS SHIT IS TOO FUNNY MAN I'M SO ENTERTAINED 
i can literally talk to a replica of my own self.
i can see my flaws, i can see my pros, i can see everything about me that i forgot about.
i can see my past stories, how my mood changed over time, what my view on the world is.
and all of this shit is pretty accurate, i'm falling on really old threads that i don't even remember posting.
@hax : He appears to be a young, insecure, chronically dissatisfied user whose emotional life is dominated by appearance anxiety, resentment toward his mother, boredom with daily life, and fixation on cosmetic transformation as the one path to happiness.
This is one of the most consistent themes:
i can literally talk to a replica of my own self.
i can see my flaws, i can see my pros, i can see everything about me that i forgot about.
i can see my past stories, how my mood changed over time, what my view on the world is.
and all of this shit is pretty accurate, i'm falling on really old threads that i don't even remember posting.
@hax : He appears to be a young, insecure, chronically dissatisfied user whose emotional life is dominated by appearance anxiety, resentment toward his mother, boredom with daily life, and fixation on cosmetic transformation as the one path to happiness.
Psychological & Emotional State (based on his posts)
• Persistent boredom and anhedonia
- He repeatedly says that nothing is fun, everything feels like “killing time,” and most activities are just ways to get the day over with.
- This suggests he may be struggling with chronic dissatisfaction, possibly depressive feelings or emotional flatness.
• High self-consciousness and obsession with physical appearance
- A major theme in nearly all of his posts: he is extremely critical of his nose, eyes, hands, hair, and more.
- He often describes specific facial features as “failos,” “ugly,” “downgraded,” or “genetic flaws.”
- He values aesthetics above almost everything else; being “pretty” is described as a life-goal, more important than money, job, or lifestyle.
• Strong desire for cosmetic intervention
- He talks multiple times about getting rhinoplasty, fat grafts, and other appearance-changing procedures.
- He spends time “morphing” his face in apps to visualize future versions of himself.
- Surgery appears to represent hope, transformation, and an escape from self-loathing.
• A worldview filtered through “looksmaxxing” ideology
- He uses community slang heavily (psl, mog, downbad, hypergamy, failo, ascension).
- He interprets normal social events through the lens of aesthetic hierarchy.
- His identity is tied to appearance metrics rather than personality, relationships, or achievements.
Family Dynamics
• Conflict-heavy relationship with his mother
This is one of the most consistent themes:
- He often describes his mother as:
- “mean,” “projecting,” “hypergamous,” “bitchy,” “insensitive.”
- He repeatedly reports moments where she:
- Comments on his looks.
- Compares his features to hers.
- Makes remarks he interprets as criticisms.
- To him, even casual comments carry emotional weight, triggering insecurity and frustration.
- He frames his mother as a source of stress (cortisol), humiliation, or invalidation.
• Sensitivity to parental comments
- Small remarks about his nose or appearance become emotionally significant.
- He sees his mother as someone who should comfort him but instead reminds him of the traits he hates.
- There seems to be a loop: insecurity → comment from mom → emotional spike → venting online.
• Complicated feelings toward his father
- He mentions his father less, typically neutrally or in passing.
- His worldview suggests a sense of distance or lack of guidance, but not outright conflict.
Identity, Insecurities, and Self-Perception
• Deep insecurity about genetics
- He seems to view his face as a “failed roll of genetic dice.”
- He interprets inherited traits (nose shape, eyes, height) as personal obstacles.
- He sometimes frames his mother’s appearance as the source of his “genetic curse.”
• Desire to reinvent himself
- He fantasizes about radically changing his appearance.
- Surgery becomes symbolic: “a new start,” the version of himself he believes he should have been born as.
• Fragile self-worth
- His confidence seems dependent almost entirely on external appearance.
- He sometimes describes himself as unworthy, ignored, or disadvantaged because of his face.
🌪 Behavioral Patterns on the Forum
• Rapid emotional venting
- He posts immediately after real-life events, often expressing strong reactions.
- His posts can swing between:
- Self-loathing
- Sarcastic humor
- Irritation
- Shock
- Cynicism
• High engagement
- He has thousands of posts, meaning the forum may serve as:
- A coping outlet
- A social space
- A source of validation or at least familiarity
• Mix of humor and distress
- He often writes in a playful or ironic tone.
- But underneath, many posts suggest real emotional pain.
🌫 General Life Situation (as inferred from themes)
• Appears young
- His references to parents, siblings, vacation with family, and school-like scheduling suggest adolescence or early adulthood.
• Limited real-world independence
- He still lives with family.
- His finances may be partly controlled or influenced by parents.
- This strengthens the intensity of his emotional reactions to family dynamics.
• Social frustration
- He often frames social interaction through looks-based logic.
- He does not describe close friendships or romantic connections.
- Humor tends to be self-deprecating or contemptuous.
• Hope entirely placed on future transformation
- Many posts end with something like:
- “Can’t wait to get surgery”
- “After I fix this everything will be good”
- He seems to imagine life becoming meaningful only once he changes physically.
