Seeking help to become normal, and good looking

[rope16sub5warrior]

Hello, I am new to the forum, but not the term and world, I come here because i need help to ascend, I have always been looked down on by others because of my looks. I always knew I wasn't great looking, but I am starting to notice people treat me differently because of that, i am often bullied, mocked, isolated, and have developed a depressed lonely life, i am also neurodivergent, and others can't understand me and wont agree with me. I do not have confidence, or anything like that, I simply hate myself and feel the need to often punish myself. I am a good kid, I have a good soul and a good heart, but it seems it isnt enough, I see myself as an abomination and lab experiment, i always wanted that romantic love, and a woman's love and touch, please anyone who can help my situation leave a comment idk, I am 15y/o, 176 cm tall, from the Balkans, slim build, 56kg.