ranierean
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I don’t mean it in the typical normie way where you flippantly dismiss everything and act smug about it, but as a sort of a… post-hoc realization, it's almost like regret.
Like, yeah, I'm annoying. I'm genuinely ugly and too old to do anything about it, but the self-flagellation routine that I do is part of that, even when most of it comes from a valid place.
Sometimes... some people just come too subhuman to even complain about it in the manner that would tug at your heartstrings; it makes too much sense (if you could see my face you would get it).
It's all "bad" but I wasn't really "denied" anything.
There's no catharsis in my crying on incel forums because it doesn't change much: this website will die and my disjointed writing will go down with it–gross, fetishistic, subpar.
I thought about deleting my account many times but I never could go through with it because it just seems redundant, it won't undo the posts.
I try to take a few steps back to be a bit funny and lighthearted but the countless other users do it better…
There is no inherent tragedy to my boring life. I used to fear that nothing was going to change and nothing ever did. I really have nothing to say.
“Everything that you’ll ever do in your life is one big cope” theory?
Like, yeah, I'm annoying. I'm genuinely ugly and too old to do anything about it, but the self-flagellation routine that I do is part of that, even when most of it comes from a valid place.
Sometimes... some people just come too subhuman to even complain about it in the manner that would tug at your heartstrings; it makes too much sense (if you could see my face you would get it).
It's all "bad" but I wasn't really "denied" anything.
There's no catharsis in my crying on incel forums because it doesn't change much: this website will die and my disjointed writing will go down with it–gross, fetishistic, subpar.
I thought about deleting my account many times but I never could go through with it because it just seems redundant, it won't undo the posts.
I try to take a few steps back to be a bit funny and lighthearted but the countless other users do it better…
There is no inherent tragedy to my boring life. I used to fear that nothing was going to change and nothing ever did. I really have nothing to say.
“Everything that you’ll ever do in your life is one big cope” theory?
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