self-hatred pill is brutal

[iblamegenetics_0]

after 9th grade everything went downhill for me, and now at 19 i hate my fucking self more than anything in this cruel universe, i cannot bring myself to love and cherish my own pathetic existence, i lack self-esteem and ever since i discovered the blackpill it completely crushed the way i perceive this world entierly and totally fucked up my social skills even more, this is my first year in college and it's my lowest so far, i have made no friends, my rommate is an egoistical piece of shit that i do not talk to that often, ive never had female presence in my life, i have almost no one to chat with or talk to neither online or irl, i sit alone all the time observing my peers enjoying their youth while i rot all the time in my house living in total solitude trying to distract myself via media consumption and playing video games, people my age are going out experiencing life while im at home analyzing my face and body from every angle trying to figure out what's wrong with me, that's enough for my first post, i'll share more next time if you guys even give a fuck, idk maybe renting out on the internet in a community that may get me and know what i mean could ease this agony a bit, im still on my ascension journey im doing whatever i can to reach higher ranks on the looks scale, i suspect that by 2028 i'll probably be htn+, maybe then i'll get to experience life to the fullest but im not very optimistic about it, because no matter how hard i try this feeling of deep hatred towards myself never seems to vanish or ease a bit, actually it's growing even more along with the emptiness inside of me, if you reached the end of this post i want you to know that i really appreciate it and wish you the best, don't forget to drop a piece of advice down there or any cope that could help me or share your story with, once again thanks and see ya <33

 

[lueymogs]

Unless your hardmaxxing your not gonna ascend your growth plates are far closed

 

[iblamegenetics_0]

Unless your hardmaxxing your not gonna ascend your growth plates are far closed

im 5ft11 and can fraud to 6ft with shoes, height was never the problem for me and face is law anyways, and im objectively above average (i have almond shaped eyes, minimal UEE, positive CT, ideal ipd, decent jawline, decent zygomatic area, a very good browridge, straight ideal nose, decent lips, ideal PTCR and decent bonemass, overall) i think with gymmaxxing, leaning to 10% bf and peptides along with other softmaxxes i can reach htn+ but im planning on hardmaxxing in the future even if im satisfied with the results

 

[lueymogs]

maybe post your face

 

[isis_Bleach]

im 5ft11

 

[griffithmaxer]

after 9th grade everything went downhill for me, and now at 19 i hate my fucking self more than anything in this cruel universe, i cannot bring myself to love and cherish my own pathetic existence, i lack self-esteem and ever since i discovered the blackpill it completely crushed the way i perceive this world entierly and totally fucked up my social skills even more, this is my first year in college and it's my lowest so far, i have made no friends, my rommate is an egoistical piece of shit that i do not talk to that often, ive never had female presence in my life, i have almost no one to chat with or talk to neither online or irl, i sit alone all the time observing my peers enjoying their youth while i rot all the time in my house living in total solitude trying to distract myself via media consumption and playing video games, people my age are going out experiencing life while im at home analyzing my face and body from every angle trying to figure out what's wrong with me, that's enough for my first post, i'll share more next time if you guys even give a fuck, idk maybe renting out on the internet in a community that may get me and know what i mean could ease this agony a bit, im still on my ascension journey im doing whatever i can to reach higher ranks on the looks scale, i suspect that by 2028 i'll probably be htn+, maybe then i'll get to experience life to the fullest but im not very optimistic about it, because no matter how hard i try this feeling of deep hatred towards myself never seems to vanish or ease a bit, actually it's growing even more along with the emptiness inside of me, if you reached the end of this post i want you to know that i really appreciate it and wish you the best, don't forget to drop a piece of advice down there or any cope that could help me or share your story with, once again thanks and see ya <33

I’m kind of in a similar situation. I have to wait until I reach a certain age (I’m 16) and I have to save a certain amount of money before that time before I have to pay taxes and bills and all this other bullshit but I just feel stuck when it comes to looksmaxxing because I have to save for implants/bimax and braces but when you keep on waiting that gives a lot of time for self doubt, I’ve been coping with gym and combat sports to ease the self hatred and distract myself, u sound like a future me but I hope life gets better for you bhai

 

[iblamegenetics_0]

brutal ik considering today's standars but like i said FACE IS LAW

 

[iblamegenetics_0]

maybe post your face

im not comfortable with sharing my face currently like i stated i really do lack confidence for that but i'll do it when im ready and comfortable enough on here at one point

 

[iblamegenetics_0]

I’m kind of in a similar situation. I have to wait until I reach a certain age (I’m 16) and I have to save a certain amount of money before that time before I have to pay taxes and bills and all this other bullshit but I just feel stuck when it comes to looksmaxxing because I have to save for implants/bimax and braces but when you keep on waiting that gives a lot of time for self doubt, I’ve been coping with gym and combat sports to ease the self hatred and distract myself, u sound like a future me but I hope life gets better for you bhai

appreciate it bhai, you better get those braces first as soon as you can i got them at 17 and they did wonders for me can't wait to see what hardmaxxing can do when i get the money nedeed, just keep in mind that it doesn't get any better for the most part while you're grinding it doesn't take a toll on you if it happens, wish the best tho, and like the wise kratos once said "keep your expectations low and you'll never be disappointed"

 

[ewri]

after 9th grade everything went downhill for me,

What happened in 9th grade? if you dont mind me asking

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

Just leanmaxx bro

 

[grbbsc]

After thoroughly reading your paragraph, I (as a genius, with far more intelligence than any of you subhumans will ever hope to achieve) have come to the conclusion that you're a Mentalcel. From your self description (which is likely inflated), you do not seem to be at the threshold where physical appearance should pose much of a problem to your social life. I suggest doing your research on how to become less of a mentalcel

 

[iblamegenetics_0]

What happened in 9th grade? if you dont mind me asking

started questioning why am i never taken serious, why there's no female presence in my life and why is my life this misreable, a certain interaction ruined myself image at 16 i'll share it in an idividual post and in my early 17 i discovered bp and connected the dots and yeah that's it

 

[iblamegenetics_0]

After thoroughly reading your paragraph, I (as a genius, with far more intelligence than any of you subhumans will ever hope to achieve) have come to the conclusion that you're a Mentalcel. From your self description (which is likely inflated), you do not seem to be at the threshold where physical appearance should pose much of a problem to your social life. I suggest doing your research on how to become less of a mentalcel

for the most of my life i was an unattractive fat fuck which completely forged the way i am now even tho im not like that anymore, if i was genetically blessed i wouldn't be this pathetic thus im not a mentalcel