Self hatred.

[Bizygomatic]

I hate myself. So much so I hate looking at the mirror. I hate going out in the sun because it makes my acne red scars look worse. I avoid brightly lit rooms too because of this. I hate people getting close to my face even when they want to show affection (mother) because it makes my skin flaws more. I have a 6'5 bestfriend, we both were around the same position at 13. now, at 16 (abt to turn 17) he's mogs me to oblivion. he's way more developed. Why not me? Why not me? Why not me? I don't hate him, he's still my bro. But still, why didn't i develop the same way. i hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I am miserable. I don't want to go out anywhere to show my face. I hate myself. I don't even want to go to birthday parties of my relatives just because of how much I fucking hate myself because of my fucking skin. I fucking ruined everything and It's all my fucking fault. I'm literally fucking tearing up writing this. There is so much self hatred in my heart. So much guilt and regrets that eat me up everyday. They consume me. Everyday. Every living moment. I fucking hate it all. I didn't celebrate new years, halloween, thanksgiving or christmas with anyone. All I did was rot at my room. I fucking hate myself. My parents know Im a fucking loser with no friends because I've never even held a birthday party (im 16) nor do I go anywhere. They even asked me, "Why don't you have friends, you should go out more". They are a lovely pair. I don't blame them. I blame myself. It's all my fucking fault. I fucked everything up. I am literally tearing up man. I can't take it anymore......... I'm sorry for venting so much and being a pain here too.

 

[BR32]

Take some shrooms

 

[Framemaxxx]

dnr sucks to be u

 

[Bizygomatic]

dnr sucks to be u

Be grateful

 

[Bizygomatic]

Take some shrooms

I made a post asking about them like 12 hours ago, nobody replied or answered anything.

 

[BR32]

I made a post asking about them like 12 hours ago, nobody replied or answered anything.

Ask away

I've taken many psychedelics

also read my thread https://looksmax.org/threads/psyche...ksmaxxing-applications-high-iq-gtfih.1782679/

 

[Bizygomatic]

I'm all alone, with noone to talk to, I play games, watch youtube, watch anime and web series all day. I also exercise at my home (I have a treadmill and a weight rack with a bench)

 

[Bizygomatic]

Thank you I will read your post

Ask away

I've taken many psychedelics

also read my thread https://looksmax.org/threads/psyche...ksmaxxing-applications-high-iq-gtfih.1782679/

 

[BR32]

Thank you I will read your post

For sure bro,

LMK if you have any specific questions

 

[Bizygomatic]

Yes I will pm you

For sure bro,

LMK if you have any specific questions

 

[Bizygomatic]

Thanks again

For sure bro,

LMK if you have any specific questions

 

[Sub5kang]

I hate myself. So much so I hate looking at the mirror. I hate going out in the sun because it makes my acne red scars look worse. I avoid brightly lit rooms too because of this. I hate people getting close to my face even when they want to show affection (mother) because it makes my skin flaws more. I have a 6'5 bestfriend, we both were around the same position at 13. now, at 16 (abt to turn 17) he's mogs me to oblivion. he's way more developed. Why not me? Why not me? Why not me? I don't hate him, he's still my bro. But still, why didn't i develop the same way. i hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I am miserable. I don't want to go out anywhere to show my face. I hate myself. I don't even want to go to birthday parties of my relatives just because of how much I fucking hate myself because of my fucking skin. I fucking ruined everything and It's all my fucking fault. I'm literally fucking tearing up writing this. There is so much self hatred in my heart. So much guilt and regrets that eat me up everyday. They consume me. Everyday. Every living moment. I fucking hate it all. I didn't celebrate new years, halloween, thanksgiving or christmas with anyone. All I did was rot at my room. I fucking hate myself. My parents know Im a fucking loser with no friends because I've never even held a birthday party (im 16) nor do I go anywhere. They even asked me, "Why don't you have friends, you should go out more". They are a lovely pair. I don't blame them. I blame myself. It's all my fucking fault. I fucked everything up. I am literally tearing up man. I can't take it anymore......... I'm sorry for venting so much and being a pain here too.

Im 18 same story minus the acne, it doesn't get better. Never had a bday party or a gf, khhv and holed up in my room

 

[Bizygomatic]

Im 18 same story minus the acne, it doesn't get better. Never had a bday party or a gf, khhv and holed up in my room
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I'm going to turn 17 on march 7th. I have nobody to celebrate my birthday with. Another reminder for my parents how lonely and miserable I am. They literally fucking feel bad for me. i hate it. I am living life using clonazepam right now. It's the only thing that I know of that helps me take off the edge a bit and i pair it with baclofen

 

[Sub5kang]

I'm going to turn 17 on march 7th. I have nobody to celebrate my birthday with. Another reminder for my parents how lonely and miserable I am. They literally fucking feel bad for me. i hate it. I am living life using clonazepam right now. It's the only thing that I know of that helps me take off the edge a bit and i pair it with baclofen

I rawdog life tbh I've never taken stims I just dive into slop and shows

 

[Bizygomatic]

Mirin

I rawdog life tbh I've never taken stims I just dive into slop and shows

 

[Framemaxxx]

hmmm just finished reading everything. sounds like me with the no friends and parents except im 6'1

 

[Bizygomatic]

hmmm just finished reading everything. sounds like me with the friends except im 6'1

I'm 6'1 too, 186cms

 

[Framemaxxx]

I'm 6'1 too, 186cms

and you still complaining i love my lonely life. its awesome not talking to anyone you can do whatever you want

 

[Bizygomatic]

and you still complaining i love my lonely life. its awesome not talking to anyone you can do whatever you want

So what? My best friend is 6'5. We've always competed over everything. 6'1 isn't even that tall where I live, It's just above average

 

[Bizygomatic]

and you still complaining i love my lonely life. its awesome not talking to anyone you can do whatever you want

It's my fucking face ridden with fucking pigments and slight scars that wont fucking go away even after laser treatments. I hate my fucking face. I hate my fucking self. Living at home and celebrating festivals with no one while you watch everyone doing it is not fun. I envy you if you're able to have fun in a life like this. I really fucking envy you. I feel like a disgrace.

 

[Bizygomatic]

Im 18 same story minus the acne, it doesn't get better. Never had a bday party or a gf, khhv and holed up in my room
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We're similar. I've even ran out of stuff to watch. Have something nice to watch? I mostly just watch yt and anime. I am down to watch moves and shows

 

[trueteentriad]

self hatred is the root of succes, be insatiable and you will get where you want to be

 

[loseratgenes]

I hate myself. So much so I hate looking at the mirror. I hate going out in the sun because it makes my acne red scars look worse. I avoid brightly lit rooms too because of this. I hate people getting close to my face even when they want to show affection (mother) because it makes my skin flaws more. I have a 6'5 bestfriend, we both were around the same position at 13. now, at 16 (abt to turn 17) he's mogs me to oblivion. he's way more developed. Why not me? Why not me? Why not me? I don't hate him, he's still my bro. But still, why didn't i develop the same way. i hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I am miserable. I don't want to go out anywhere to show my face. I hate myself. I don't even want to go to birthday parties of my relatives just because of how much I fucking hate myself because of my fucking skin. I fucking ruined everything and It's all my fucking fault. I'm literally fucking tearing up writing this. There is so much self hatred in my heart. So much guilt and regrets that eat me up everyday. They consume me. Everyday. Every living moment. I fucking hate it all. I didn't celebrate new years, halloween, thanksgiving or christmas with anyone. All I did was rot at my room. I fucking hate myself. My parents know Im a fucking loser with no friends because I've never even held a birthday party (im 16) nor do I go anywhere. They even asked me, "Why don't you have friends, you should go out more". They are a lovely pair. I don't blame them. I blame myself. It's all my fucking fault. I fucked everything up. I am literally tearing up man. I can't take it anymore......... I'm sorry for venting so much and being a pain here too.

how tall are you

 

[Bizygomatic]

self hatred is the root of succes, be insatiable and you will get where you want to be

I've eaten nothing since fucking 86 hours and its the self hatred that drives me. I fucking also walked 40 kms at 15 incline. But its too much, I can't live. It bothers me everyday. I can't stop thinkiing about all this

 

[Bizygomatic]

how tall are you

186cms

 

[loseratgenes]

186cms

be grateful nigga

 

[Sub5kang]

We're similar. I've even ran out of stuff to watch. Have something nice to watch? I mostly just watch yt and anime. I am down to watch moves and shows

I'm rewatching the vampire diaries and smallvill rn, I've watched basically every good anime there is though my top 5 is prolly JoJo's aot code geass fmab and hxh/steinsgate

 

[Bizygomatic]

be grateful nigga

yes, it's a thing im grateful for, but it doesnt fucking matter because I dont even go outside or interact with anyone.. I wish I was taller tho

 

[Bizygomatic]

I'm researching the vampire diaries and smallvill rn, I've watched basically every good anime there is though my top 5 is prolly JoJo's aot code geass fmab and hxh/steinsgate

yeah I've been hearing about smallvill a lot espec the edits

 

[Sub5kang]

yeah I've been hearing about smallvill a lot espec the edits

Plot is mid but it's an alright show

 

[Bizygomatic]

@Sub5kang @trueteentriad @BR32 The only friend I had (the 6'5 bsf i talked about in my post) just fought with me (on text) and we might not speak to each other ever again. I'm gonna be 17 and have no one no connection in my life. It's so sad i'm actually laughing

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[trueteentriad]

@Sub5kang @trueteentriad @BR32 The only friend I had (the 6'5 bsf i talked about in my post) just fought with me (on text) and we might not speak to each other ever again. I'm gonna be 17 and have no one no connection in my life. It's so sad i'm actually laughing

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ngga if u never talk to each other after one fight (OVER TEXT) he was never your friend to begin with

 

[Bizygomatic]

ngga if u never talk to each other after one fight (OVER TEXT) he was never your friend to begin with

we've been best friends since 4 years. A thing happened last year and we didn't talk for 4 months. similar thing but of greater magnitude happened now so I don't know. (he considered me his best friend too btw) but idk. I'm so done with life now. obv Im not gonna kms or Ldar but man i'm just so done

 

[Sub5kang]

we've been best friends since 4 years. A thing happened last year and we didn't talk for 4 months. similar thing but of greater magnitude happened now so I don't know. (he considered me his best friend too btw) but idk. I'm so done with life now. obv Im not gonna kms or Ldar but man i'm just so done

What did you fight about

 

[Bizygomatic]

What did you fight about

Too long of a story bro, he basically doesn't give a fck about me at all ad only uses me to take advice for himself and then completely ghosts me after im done helping him even tho im in the worst possible situation right now. I helped him on a call with everything for 1 hour bro and after that I told him about my situatuations but he told me he was tired so he'll call me tomorrow. He didn't call me for 21 days, ignored all my text messages, asked for help in between, left after I helped him. and when I told him that its been 21 days since I asked for his advice he told me to suck his dick which pissed me off.

 

[Stevitus]

Ask away

I've taken many psychedelics

also read my thread https://looksmax.org/threads/psyche...ksmaxxing-applications-high-iq-gtfih.1782679/

I was ur 5000th rep

 

[GenZ]

It's chill bro, the way things are going I give society about 3 more years before it becomes acceptable to slaughter your fellow man

 

[BR32]

@Sub5kang @trueteentriad @BR32 The only friend I had (the 6'5 bsf i talked about in my post) just fought with me (on text) and we might not speak to each other ever again. I'm gonna be 17 and have no one no connection in my life. It's so sad i'm actually laughing

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thats terrible bro I'm sorry

 

[Bizygomatic]

thats terrible bro I'm sorry

It is terrible truly bad I am more lonely now but this is life

 

[Bizygomatic]

What did you fight about

Too long to explain brother maybe later sorryyyyyyyh

 

[idnap]

I'm all alone, with noone to talk to, I play games, watch youtube, watch anime and web series all day. I also exercise at my home (I have a treadmill and a weight rack with a bench)

I get it bro, I feel u.
Atp I would suggest you find a purpose and work towards fulfilling it in your life, don't limit yourself

 

[Outlander]

Brutal shit

 

[Bizygomatic]

Brutal shit

Almost same situaton, dealing it with by reflecting, exercising, learning about new things. I stopped talking with my only friend too lol. I am completely alone now. Skin has improved, getting laser again soon, probably going to be my last session.

 

[monecel]

I made a post asking about them like 12 hours ago, nobody replied or answered anything.

Get tor, read the darknet bible or whatever it's called and lock in

 

[javier-varela]

I hate myself. So much so I hate looking at the mirror. I hate going out in the sun because it makes my acne red scars look worse. I avoid brightly lit rooms too because of this. I hate people getting close to my face even when they want to show affection (mother) because it makes my skin flaws more. I have a 6'5 bestfriend, we both were around the same position at 13. now, at 16 (abt to turn 17) he's mogs me to oblivion. he's way more developed. Why not me? Why not me? Why not me? I don't hate him, he's still my bro. But still, why didn't i develop the same way. i hate myself. I fucking hate myself. I am miserable. I don't want to go out anywhere to show my face. I hate myself. I don't even want to go to birthday parties of my relatives just because of how much I fucking hate myself because of my fucking skin. I fucking ruined everything and It's all my fucking fault. I'm literally fucking tearing up writing this. There is so much self hatred in my heart. So much guilt and regrets that eat me up everyday. They consume me. Everyday. Every living moment. I fucking hate it all. I didn't celebrate new years, halloween, thanksgiving or christmas with anyone. All I did was rot at my room. I fucking hate myself. My parents know Im a fucking loser with no friends because I've never even held a birthday party (im 16) nor do I go anywhere. They even asked me, "Why don't you have friends, you should go out more". They are a lovely pair. I don't blame them. I blame myself. It's all my fucking fault. I fucked everything up. I am literally tearing up man. I can't take it anymore......... I'm sorry for venting so much and being a pain here too.

Relatable

 

[Luquier]

I'm going to turn 17 on march 7th. I have nobody to celebrate my birthday with. Another reminder for my parents how lonely and miserable I am. They literally fucking feel bad for me. i hate it. I am living life using clonazepam right now. It's the only thing that I know of that helps me take off the edge a bit and i pair it with baclofen

Keep taking drugs IMO

Fix your social life by any means necessary, even if you need to inject 100 mgs of niggeridol it’s worth it

Sobriety will ruin your life

 

[Luquier]

self hatred is the root of succes, be insatiable and you will get where you want to be

Self hatred works unless you’re ADHD

So OP, just self hatred maxx + drugs + hate normies

 

[Bizygomatic]

Self hatred works unless you’re ADHD

So OP, just self hatred maxx + drugs + hate normies

Thanks, already onto this

 

[shaneywaney69]

I hope you get better brother.

 

[Bizygomatic]

I hope you get better brother.

Yes brother. I will. Only a matter of time.