bereber01
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FIRST OF ALL, THIS IS A SERIOUS POST TO ME, ONLY SUBSTANTIVE AND LENGTHY COMMENTS ACCEPTED
hi to all, im 14(14 and half ),in this year im entering high school, ltn, 185cm, 115 iq(the thing is i got 118-123 iq at all CORE sections excluding working memory where i got 100)
i am always worried that i am living my only life wrong. i only analyse and analyse the things that i shouldnt have to analyse.
ts gonna be a long ass post but my thoughts are all about a couple of topics:
1.should i search for a girl at my age? should I refuse even if i like girl and she likes me?
2.should I go on living my carefree childhood, playing videogames and riding bikes with my friends or should i get serious about studies, sports, and similar activities?
3.what should i even do and think about in my alone,free time?
4.if there is opportunity to socialmaxx,should i accept it, but i will enter a company full of boring nts ,that smoke,drink and dont care about their future?
5.how can i improve my 11 yo brother, that is nothing like me in his age?
now i begin explain for every topic separately
1.should i search for a girl at my age? should I refuse even if i like girl and she likes me?
an idea that i will care for some girl and give her compliments just sounds corny to me. i still see myself a 10 yo kidd, but my thoughts and ideas are nothing more than dreams of the future and a desire to grow up. 3/7 of my classmates alr have a gf, including my 2 "friends". i had 2 girls through last year that is would almost certainly have agreed if i'll make a suggestion, they r kind,cute both like lmtbs. but i was scared and thinked nothing but excuses. some girl who will graduate this year was already invited me to dance w her on graduation, i dont think it was joke. in context, it sounded quite serious. but i behave with her as a fucking autist. i still think that i will dance w her cuz she doesnt really have more choices. and it's all crazy to me cuz i consider myself as something lil above ugliness, but im tall yeah.
im interesting about that topic cause on social media i seen some guys crying about missed teenage love, and i dont want to be the same.
2.should I go on living my carefree childhood, playing videogames and riding bikes with my friends or should i get serious about studies, sports, and similar activities?
before i said that my thoughts are only about future and its certainly true. i almost dont care for present time if honestly. tbh i have a dream to study in uni abroad, maybe in france or china if i had to choose. obviously for this i need to study A LOT. i almost dont play videogames and riding bikes rn for some reason, when i do this activities my brain just float away to my dreams, which i do nothing to achieve. in my freetime i scroll fucking tiktok and dreaming, nothing else. i have like 1 real friend, that i am sure about 100%. the rest about i changing my opinion every single day.
3.what should i even do and think about in my alone,free time?
when my brain is empty, i dont scroll tiktok, i dont listen to music, i just sit there and be like wth am i doing right now. i analyse every thought of a day like its homework for literature.i think about finding a good hobbie to make my brain stfu
one of my another dreams is to become succesful interesting designer like yohji yamamoto or maison margiela. i heard that to become 1% in the world in whatever thing, you should achieve 10000 hours of practice. maybe i buy sewing machine and start learning how to stitch. or maybe i buy a violin or synthesiser and learn to play on them.
4.if there is opportunity to socialmaxx,should i accept it, but i will enter a company full of boring nts ,that smoke,drink and dont care about their future?
one of my "friends" ,who before that year was just as hopeless a social phobe as me, rn enter that company. and now he live that teen life that shown in the movies, with friends, adventures and girlfriend. i think that if i will try i can do the same.
5.how can i improve my 11 yo brother, that is nothing like me in his age?
he is short for his age, he got bad grades at school when i at his years was only a student, his maxilla and chin is extremely recessed and he eats almost nothing, that gets in the way of his development. i see in him that little wish to change which i suffer every single day. and he doing nothing for it also. i dont want him to became the same guy as me, but i wish only goods for this litlle mf
hi to all, im 14(14 and half ),in this year im entering high school, ltn, 185cm, 115 iq(the thing is i got 118-123 iq at all CORE sections excluding working memory where i got 100)
i am always worried that i am living my only life wrong. i only analyse and analyse the things that i shouldnt have to analyse.
ts gonna be a long ass post but my thoughts are all about a couple of topics:
1.should i search for a girl at my age? should I refuse even if i like girl and she likes me?
2.should I go on living my carefree childhood, playing videogames and riding bikes with my friends or should i get serious about studies, sports, and similar activities?
3.what should i even do and think about in my alone,free time?
4.if there is opportunity to socialmaxx,should i accept it, but i will enter a company full of boring nts ,that smoke,drink and dont care about their future?
5.how can i improve my 11 yo brother, that is nothing like me in his age?
now i begin explain for every topic separately
1.should i search for a girl at my age? should I refuse even if i like girl and she likes me?
an idea that i will care for some girl and give her compliments just sounds corny to me. i still see myself a 10 yo kidd, but my thoughts and ideas are nothing more than dreams of the future and a desire to grow up. 3/7 of my classmates alr have a gf, including my 2 "friends". i had 2 girls through last year that is would almost certainly have agreed if i'll make a suggestion, they r kind,cute both like lmtbs. but i was scared and thinked nothing but excuses. some girl who will graduate this year was already invited me to dance w her on graduation, i dont think it was joke. in context, it sounded quite serious. but i behave with her as a fucking autist. i still think that i will dance w her cuz she doesnt really have more choices. and it's all crazy to me cuz i consider myself as something lil above ugliness, but im tall yeah.
im interesting about that topic cause on social media i seen some guys crying about missed teenage love, and i dont want to be the same.
2.should I go on living my carefree childhood, playing videogames and riding bikes with my friends or should i get serious about studies, sports, and similar activities?
before i said that my thoughts are only about future and its certainly true. i almost dont care for present time if honestly. tbh i have a dream to study in uni abroad, maybe in france or china if i had to choose. obviously for this i need to study A LOT. i almost dont play videogames and riding bikes rn for some reason, when i do this activities my brain just float away to my dreams, which i do nothing to achieve. in my freetime i scroll fucking tiktok and dreaming, nothing else. i have like 1 real friend, that i am sure about 100%. the rest about i changing my opinion every single day.
3.what should i even do and think about in my alone,free time?
when my brain is empty, i dont scroll tiktok, i dont listen to music, i just sit there and be like wth am i doing right now. i analyse every thought of a day like its homework for literature.i think about finding a good hobbie to make my brain stfu
one of my another dreams is to become succesful interesting designer like yohji yamamoto or maison margiela. i heard that to become 1% in the world in whatever thing, you should achieve 10000 hours of practice. maybe i buy sewing machine and start learning how to stitch. or maybe i buy a violin or synthesiser and learn to play on them.
4.if there is opportunity to socialmaxx,should i accept it, but i will enter a company full of boring nts ,that smoke,drink and dont care about their future?
one of my "friends" ,who before that year was just as hopeless a social phobe as me, rn enter that company. and now he live that teen life that shown in the movies, with friends, adventures and girlfriend. i think that if i will try i can do the same.
5.how can i improve my 11 yo brother, that is nothing like me in his age?
he is short for his age, he got bad grades at school when i at his years was only a student, his maxilla and chin is extremely recessed and he eats almost nothing, that gets in the way of his development. i see in him that little wish to change which i suffer every single day. and he doing nothing for it also. i dont want him to became the same guy as me, but i wish only goods for this litlle mf
