Tylermax
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So I went yesterday to her she welcomed me with a see through dress. I'm not gonna get into much detail what we've done I only wanna say to @Gonthar she made me complete a bdsm test.
All in all she told me directly she only wants me because I'm good looking and we doing great sex. She invited me again this Friday and told me she wants me to blindfold her, tie her up and spank her or whatever.
Why am I feeling weird about this? Now I'm sitting at home thinking that normally a guy would like that. I've been in blackpill/redpill for years and always "wanted" this type of free relationship but now that I'm kinda "having" it I feel weird and not excited at all. Perhaps unconsciously in the back of my head I'm thinking "why doesn't she want something more romantic?" "Am I not good enough?"
Honestly I'm not looking for something serious either, I don't want attachment but at the same time she has mentioned me she had two serious relationships before (I'm talking about the girl I mentioned in my previous thread who has 8 body count and is bisexual and has had sex with a transexual etc) and I saw myself being mildly curious about why she chose these guys for relationship and had feelings for them but only sees me as someone who just wanna fuck her. I asked her indirectly what made her wanna get into relationship with the previous guy without trying to show I'm curious about it. She told me," the conversations we had" , "his sweet gestures towards me" etc. Also at some points she calls me "himbo" which is the male version of a bimbo. Should I feel disrespected about this? I actually find myself quite intelligent but it feels like she is too surface level. Perhaps this is the epitome of a hoe phase for her (breaking up after a one and a half year relationship and just wanna have fun) which is good but at the same time I despise it?
But I'm being honest, I don't know how to feel about all this weird shit.
All in all she told me directly she only wants me because I'm good looking and we doing great sex. She invited me again this Friday and told me she wants me to blindfold her, tie her up and spank her or whatever.
Why am I feeling weird about this? Now I'm sitting at home thinking that normally a guy would like that. I've been in blackpill/redpill for years and always "wanted" this type of free relationship but now that I'm kinda "having" it I feel weird and not excited at all. Perhaps unconsciously in the back of my head I'm thinking "why doesn't she want something more romantic?" "Am I not good enough?"
Honestly I'm not looking for something serious either, I don't want attachment but at the same time she has mentioned me she had two serious relationships before (I'm talking about the girl I mentioned in my previous thread who has 8 body count and is bisexual and has had sex with a transexual etc) and I saw myself being mildly curious about why she chose these guys for relationship and had feelings for them but only sees me as someone who just wanna fuck her. I asked her indirectly what made her wanna get into relationship with the previous guy without trying to show I'm curious about it. She told me," the conversations we had" , "his sweet gestures towards me" etc. Also at some points she calls me "himbo" which is the male version of a bimbo. Should I feel disrespected about this? I actually find myself quite intelligent but it feels like she is too surface level. Perhaps this is the epitome of a hoe phase for her (breaking up after a one and a half year relationship and just wanna have fun) which is good but at the same time I despise it?
But I'm being honest, I don't know how to feel about all this weird shit.