should I cut ties and die alone?

[bratex2213]

so here it is my best friend in school sent me a real yesterday that says me listening to my friend talk about his problems when it was all avoidable etc. I know he is joking but I had enough , the guy is in the rotation with the girl I like everyone likes him, he has a girlfriend and im alone became autistic rotting alone, sad all the time from the morning to night all I think about is ending my life, and this guy just has everything right my team hates me and I feel alone, I know it sucks but im so spiteful and low key jealous I like the guy and want the best for him but I get so bothered he is tall blonde and im ur average terrorist brown short, no girl wants me all the girl are nice to him nd he doesn't understand how privileged he is yesterday I was literally in terars why he is the one that gets to sit with the girl I like all day and I have to rot here I know if I was I n her team nothing would happen but just seeing her makes me happy at the beginning when we learned about the teams he made fun of me as a joke how he was gonna bang her and this I know he was joking since he loves his girl whatever but it just sucks I started becoming spiteful and jealous and I secluded myself from the entire world im like a schizophrenic I dont know honestly it bothers me how he has everything on easy mode everyone likes him and no one does for me how I have to try so hard yet he thinks its all my fault how he doesn't realise he is privileged I never said he isn't a good guy I would not be friend with him otherwise but yes he fails to realise how I dont go the quarter of what he has and he sits and lies to me saying im good looking and its all in my head all this bulshit for ur info I was rated hmtn and since im short and my frame is ridicule since I was not gymming after surgery I am a toy to woman no one notices me and this motherfucker act like I got a chance with any girl I would have killed and cut up my right testicle to be with the girl I like but instead I rot here and study all day with tears on my face my only mistake was being born brown and short.

 

[nwed]

so here it is my best friend in school sent me a real yesterday that says me listening to my friend talk about his problems when it was all avoidable etc. I know he is joking but I had enough , the guy is in the rotation with the girl I like everyone likes him, he has a girlfriend and im alone became autistic rotting alone, sad all the time from the morning to night all I think about is ending my life, and this guy just has everything right my team hates me and I feel alone, I know it sucks but im so spiteful and low key jealous I like the guy and want the best for him but I get so bothered he is tall blonde and im ur average terrorist brown short, no girl wants me all the girl are nice to him nd he doesn't understand how privileged he is yesterday I was literally in terars why he is the one that gets to sit with the girl I like all day and I have to rot here I know if I was I n her team nothing would happen but just seeing her makes me happy at the beginning when we learned about the teams he made fun of me as a joke how he was gonna bang her and this I know he was joking since he loves his girl whatever but it just sucks I started becoming spiteful and jealous and I secluded myself from the entire world im like a schizophrenic I dont know honestly it bothers me how he has everything on easy mode everyone likes him and no one does for me how I have to try so hard yet he thinks its all my fault how he doesn't realise he is privileged I never said he isn't a good guy I would not be friend with him otherwise but yes he fails to realise how I dont go the quarter of what he has and he sits and lies to me saying im good looking and its all in my head all this bulshit for ur info I was rated hmtn and since im short and my frame is ridicule since I was not gymming after surgery I am a toy to woman no one notices me and this motherfucker act like I got a chance with any girl I would have killed and cut up my right testicle to be with the girl I like but instead I rot here and study all day with tears on my face my only mistake was being born brown and short.

 

[bratex2213]

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I hope u go through the same shit as me u piece of shit faggot

 

[voks]

If he knows that u like girl ur talking about then yeah u should cut ties with him

 

[Endocrinology]

so here it is my best friend in school sent me a real yesterday that says me listening to my friend talk about his problems when it was all avoidable etc. I know he is joking but I had enough , the guy is in the rotation with the girl I like everyone likes him, he has a girlfriend and im alone became autistic rotting alone, sad all the time from the morning to night all I think about is ending my life, and this guy just has everything right my team hates me and I feel alone, I know it sucks but im so spiteful and low key jealous I like the guy and want the best for him but I get so bothered he is tall blonde and im ur average terrorist brown short, no girl wants me all the girl are nice to him nd he doesn't understand how privileged he is yesterday I was literally in terars why he is the one that gets to sit with the girl I like all day and I have to rot here I know if I was I n her team nothing would happen but just seeing her makes me happy at the beginning when we learned about the teams he made fun of me as a joke how he was gonna bang her and this I know he was joking since he loves his girl whatever but it just sucks I started becoming spiteful and jealous and I secluded myself from the entire world im like a schizophrenic I dont know honestly it bothers me how he has everything on easy mode everyone likes him and no one does for me how I have to try so hard yet he thinks its all my fault how he doesn't realise he is privileged I never said he isn't a good guy I would not be friend with him otherwise but yes he fails to realise how I dont go the quarter of what he has and he sits and lies to me saying im good looking and its all in my head all this bulshit for ur info I was rated hmtn and since im short and my frame is ridicule since I was not gymming after surgery I am a toy to woman no one notices me and this motherfucker act like I got a chance with any girl I would have killed and cut up my right testicle to be with the girl I like but instead I rot here and study all day with tears on my face my only mistake was being born brown and short.

stop complaining brownclown

 

[Endocrinology]

If he knows that u like girl ur talking about then yeah u should cut ties with him

what? that's his bitch

 

[bratex2213]

If he knows that u like girl ur talking about then yeah u should cut ties with him

he didn't do anything with her he just friends in the same team but im juste envious he lucky enough to be with her and all and im a sad fuck.

 

[bratex2213]

what? that's his bitch

fuck u I hope u die of aids

 

[DarkGreyshades69]

Nah bro

 

[voks]

he didn't do anything with her he just friends in the same team but im juste envious he lucky enough to be with her and all and im a sad fuck.

Who cares about some foid tho bro

 

[bratex2213]

yes I dont care im going to cut ties with him and die alone il regret it but maybe me it will help me kill myself . fuck all u niggers shitting on me and fuck this guy that acts like he my friend motherfucker

 

[uglyretardednigga]

not a single molecule

 

[ProjectWeaponX]

 

[bratex2213]

Who cares about some foid tho bro

I do im a pussy and I like her so much and I hate that I get 0 hoes and this nigga sits here and be like like brooo its ur fault bro I swear ur handsome when im only some short mtn

 

[Endocrinology]

fuck u I hope u die of aids

you being jealous isn't his problem, maybe just stop being a shitskin?

 

[teenagelovestory]

so here it is my best friend in school sent me a real yesterday that says me listening to my friend talk about his problems when it was all avoidable etc. I know he is joking but I had enough , the guy is in the rotation with the girl I like everyone likes him, he has a girlfriend and im alone became autistic rotting alone, sad all the time from the morning to night all I think about is ending my life, and this guy just has everything right my team hates me and I feel alone, I know it sucks but im so spiteful and low key jealous I like the guy and want the best for him but I get so bothered he is tall blonde and im ur average terrorist brown short, no girl wants me all the girl are nice to him nd he doesn't understand how privileged he is yesterday I was literally in terars why he is the one that gets to sit with the girl I like all day and I have to rot here I know if I was I n her team nothing would happen but just seeing her makes me happy at the beginning when we learned about the teams he made fun of me as a joke how he was gonna bang her and this I know he was joking since he loves his girl whatever but it just sucks I started becoming spiteful and jealous and I secluded myself from the entire world im like a schizophrenic I dont know honestly it bothers me how he has everything on easy mode everyone likes him and no one does for me how I have to try so hard yet he thinks its all my fault how he doesn't realise he is privileged I never said he isn't a good guy I would not be friend with him otherwise but yes he fails to realise how I dont go the quarter of what he has and he sits and lies to me saying im good looking and its all in my head all this bulshit for ur info I was rated hmtn and since im short and my frame is ridicule since I was not gymming after surgery I am a toy to woman no one notices me and this motherfucker act like I got a chance with any girl I would have killed and cut up my right testicle to be with the girl I like but instead I rot here and study all day with tears on my face my only mistake was being born brown and short.

what can we do man, I feel you but what can we do? its okay bro you got yourself get shredded ldar and play games, set yourself goals and get wealthy.


I love you brah

 

[bratex2213]

you being jealous isn't his problem, maybe just stop being a shitskin?

yes It is his presence bothers me him aging like its all in my head when I know deep down he knows why im single and miserable and he is not bro has the same life as me sits in a fuvking basement snd study yet everyone likes him and girls want him thats the difference but this hypocritical fuck act likes its my fault and sends me shit reals like2 that that he calls a joke fuck him

 

[bratex2213]

what can we do man, I feel you but what can we do? its okay bro you got yourself get shredded ldar and play games, set yourself goals and get wealthy.


I love you brah

I use to gym so hard got shredded got tats everything nothing replace the void of loneliness and getting a girl u want + seeing someone infront of u that u are so close to have all he ever wants is true rope fuel every single dy I have to see this I have to see him with the girl I like in the hospital where she jokes with him but instead I got this ugly bald nigger on my team that hates me and these 2 bad bitches that hate me because they are boogie as fuck I want to fucking end it I dont deserve all this my true mistake is being brown.

 

[KKMS]

stop complaining brownclown

0 empathy retard

 

[teenagelovestory]

I use to gym so hard got shredded got tats everything nothing replace the void of loneliness and getting a girl u want + seeing someone infront of u that u are so close to have all he ever wants is true rope fuel every single dy I have to see this I have to see him with the girl I like in the hospital where she jokes with him but instead I got this ugly bald nigger on my team that hates me and these 2 bad bitches that hate me because they are boogie as fuck I want to fucking end it I dont deserve all this my true mistake is being brown.

I see, must be draining to train hard but still not even being able to be friends with her..

I would ngl suggest you to move on bro thats the only option besides ascension, sad but the brutal truth.

Imo you should cut ties with this lame ass nigga bro, im curious tho do you got a pic of this guy? and maybe a pic of you if youre comfortable with it

Be on your own bro you dont need them youve been alone your whole life its okay, you deserve better genuiely find yourself a ltb who will care about you and love you if you dont wanna be alone

 

[bratex2213]

I see, must be draining to train hard but still not even being able to be friends with her..

I would ngl suggest you to move on bro thats the only option besides ascension, sad but the brutal truth.

Imo you should cut ties with this lame ass nigga bro, im curious tho do you got a pic of this guy? and maybe a pic of you if youre comfortable with it

Be on your own bro you dont need them youve been alone your whole life its okay, you deserve better genuiely find yourself a ltb who will care about you and love you if you dont wanna be alone

I can’t send a pic of him but the thing is him being blond and tall and mtn to maybe lhtn is enough since im in a Arabic sandnigger country sluts here all want a white man and this fuck tells me bro being blonde is ugly I wish I had brown hair look technically he did not do anything wrong to me besides this meme he calls a joke cuz she is in his team in the hospital and he’s being friendly but I just get jealous of how close they are how friendly he is with her and other people how everyone lies him last time he showed me he did a insta group with her and another girl in his group I was so enraged he presented twice with her and another girl I’m just so jealous and started being spiteful to the guy why can he be with he from morning to night in the hospital rounding but I have to be with this team I hate why does god hats me so much to give me this shit schedule and shit team it is is what is I should stop caring of her she wouldn’t care if I didn’t wake up and he is lowly the only person still nice to me but it’s hard to stay nice to him when I’m so jealous spiteful and hate my life and I like the guy and don’t want him to be hurt or anything but yes

 

[bratex2213]

+ medical school is so draining I found all day in the hospital with people I hate no girl that ever tells me I love u I come back from the hospital to a dark basement t and a laptop to study cuz otherwise I will get bad grades and ruin my future I can’t focus when I’m this sad I’m on antidepresssant it’s not helping enough and seeing him and his perfect life and everyone around me happy when I’m so autistic with braces breaks my heart I just want to exist he never even gummed look amazed or anything all my life I do that ascended hard but still invisible I’m doomed

 

[KKMS]

I used to think like this as well, this girl is not your whole life, you will meet countless more. another thing is that most of your misery comes from your mindset, I cant explain how, but people can feel it, it leaks off of your presence, when you learn to stop hating yourself, and projecting that self hatred onto everyone else, you will stop perceiving so many interactions as negative or like they are personal attacks.

I dont know about cutting off this friend, but you should expand your social life, make more friends with different interests and backgrounds, the biggest thing is you need to start unlearning your self hatred, like I said, people can literally sense it through subtle ques in your body language and speech, and on top of that it makes you miserable all the time, improve what you can control in terms of looks, that will definitely help, but at the risk of sounding like a typical motivational speaker retard, you will genuinely not be happy until you change your mindset, I am speaking from experience. I hope that some of this will pierce through your current mindset. your life will drastically change many times as you go through it, positively and negatively, but the way you think and perceive yourself and your circumstances will ultimately decide how happy you are, and effect it externally as well as for your inner world.

 

[bratex2213]

I used to think like this as well, this girl is not your whole life, you will meet countless more. another thing is that most of your misery comes from your mindset, I cant explain how, but people can feel it, it leaks off of your presence, when you learn to stop hating yourself, and projecting that self hatred onto everyone else, you will stop perceiving so many interactions as negative or like they are personal attacks.

I dont know about cutting off this friend, but you should expand your social life, make more friends with different interests and backgrounds, the biggest thing is you need to start unlearning your self hatred, like I said, people can literally sense it through subtle ques in your body language and speech, and on top of that it makes you miserable all the time, improve what you can control in terms of looks, that will definitely help, but at the risk of sounding like a typical motivational speaker retard, you will genuinely not be happy until you change your mindset, I am speaking from experience. I hope that some of this will pierce through your current mindset. your life will drastically change many times as you go through it, positively and negatively, but the way you think and perceive yourself and your circumstances will ultimately decide how happy you are, and effect it externally as well as for your inner world.

Thank you for the nice words brother I agree with this part since I have been hating my life more these days I don’t even socialize anymore I use to I hide always I only complain to him so I understand why he would be mad at me but yes I’m just a ball of anger walking it sucks

 

[teenagelovestory]

I can’t send a pic of him but the thing is him being blond and tall and mtn to maybe lhtn is enough since im in a Arabic sandnigger country sluts here all want a white man and this fuck tells me bro being blonde is ugly I wish I had brown hair look technically he did not do anything wrong to me besides this meme he calls a joke cuz she is in his team in the hospital and he’s being friendly but I just get jealous of how close they are how friendly he is with her and other people how everyone lies him last time he showed me he did a insta group with her and another girl in his group I was so enraged he presented twice with her and another girl I’m just so jealous and started being spiteful to the guy why can he be with he from morning to night in the hospital rounding but I have to be with this team I hate why does god hats me so much to give me this shit schedule and shit team it is is what is I should stop caring of her she wouldn’t care if I didn’t wake up and he is lowly the only person still nice to me but it’s hard to stay nice to him when I’m so jealous spiteful and hate my life and I like the guy and don’t want him to be hurt or anything but yes

im bouta shed a tear boyo why are you so real
I genuiely feel exactly what you feel but not that worse holy that shit is brutal man id have 0 energy to do anything, yeah you should please stop caring about her bro dont even give a FUCK

also slowly cut ties with this nigga since it will just might get worse, I dont wanna say out what could happen and dont want to make you feel worse than you already do, dont give a fuck about anyone and care only about yourself focus on yourself bro

youll still might feel sad but thats okay bro thats life you know? dont break yourself over some fucking foid who wont even look in your direction

come on nigga do you really want a girl that befriends other guys just because theyre attractive? no, your future wife could NEVER bro, set your goals up and find yourself a girl youll admire, but also will admire you.

mark my words and make us proud brah

it will be your time to shine be patient

 

[bratex2213]

Thank you man ur words are nice I agree will do my best I hope it goes right

 

[teenagelovestory]

Thank you man ur words are nice I agree will do my best I hope it goes right

Wont let you down bro you got this

 

[KKMS]

Thank you for the nice words brother I agree with this part since I have been hating my life more these days I don’t even socialize anymore I use to I hide always I only complain to him so I understand why he would be mad at me but yes I’m just a ball of anger walking it sucks

Its not just nice words, it's true, my looks barely changed, and are still nothing amazing, but just not hating myself anymore, and gaining a little confidence through working out and taking care of myself changed my life, I literally spent about 8 years barely interacting with women in a romantic sense, and then I changed my mindset, felt confident, and it was like a flip switched, they can literally tell the difference between someone who thinks they have worth and someone who doesn't, most people can, it's subtle but its there. I dont want to come across like its so easy and to just think positively, it took me maybe half a year, and could take way longer depending on how bad your mental is, how effective you are at self reflection and changing your thought patterns, and how committed you are to actually changing. something ugly to confront, is that hating yourself and thinking you have no chance is lazy and easy, I didn't even realise it for so long, it's the equivalent of being fat and making excuses for why you cant work out or eat better, so you sit there getting fatter and digging yourself deeper into the hole, making the climb out even longer and harder, its much easier to stay in your ways, your brain is comfortable in the cycle of self hatred and self deprecation, on the other hand rearranging your thoughts more positively, analyzing these negative thoughts and perceptions actually takes time and effort, improving your mind is very similar to improving your body, it takes effort, dedication and a willingness to be outside of your comfort zone, don't be like a fat shit on the couch lounging in your misery, take control of your life and your mind brother, the reason I even care enough to tell you this is because the change for me was so liberating and had such a positive effect on my life, and because I remember feeling the way you feel. everyone has flaws, you will never be or look perfect, but you need to accept the flaws you cant change, and work on the ones you can instead of obsessing over them and hating yourself for them, I doubt some random on the internet would be able to push you to making this change, but on the chance it could even help you move in that direction I'm writing all of this. don't be lazy bro, take control of your life, own your shortcomings and your successes.

 

[nwed]

I hope u go through the same shit as me u piece of shit faggot

I go through worse but ok