M
moltisantichincel
Iron
- Joined
- Jul 2, 2025
- Posts
- 54
- Reputation
- 44
I’m 20 I’m 6’4 and I’m ltn I got 60k and getting access to mill at 26. And will spend that 60k on surgery but I have to be put on a fucking waiting list and wait two years. You might tell me that I got it pretty good on paper which is true, but man I just fucking hate my self I hate modern life, in fact I hate everybody and everything. I even hate nature, I walk outside and I’m disgusted. In terms of societal “success” I’m basically a bum, I don’t try in school or nothing, and I don’t want to do anything. I dont have a purpose or nothing. I hate to be a bitch and whine about trauma but my childhood was pretty shit, my dad who I inherited the mill from was basically a bigger even tho he was white left me when I was a kid and then died. My mom was lowkey abusive and my brother would bully me and is the reason why I hate myself, my step dad was a drunk nigger. Now I’m in the process of getting surgery and I need to have pull 6 teeth my wisdom teeth and second molars because of my syndrome tier mandible, if really isn’t that bad and won’t descend me especially if I get trimax and implants, and it’s also a molar so it won’t sink my face like premolarextractioncels. But because I’m getting my teeth pulled I got a prescription for some perc 30s or smthn and I was thinking if I should Kms with them, because overall life is shit and I’m lowkey ashamed of living and ashamed of myself and u find everything disgusting, and I don’t have any meaning. Even tho I’m rated as ltn I spit on my face in the mirror because my jaws are underdeveloped and I have flaws like everyone else In terms of positives I’m pretty smart in terms of like art and shit but I don’t want to apply it to academics so in the moment it’s more of a curse that I just stress about, but at the same time I’m lowkey a retard for even thinking of killing myself so idek . The reason why I’m asking you for a logical unbiased answer is because I’m a little autistic, I’m not actually but I took shrooms a while back and it fucked my head a little. But what do yall think, I’m tripping atm off of lsd so eat my shit with a grain of salt
Last edited: