Story with my first girlfriend (2014-16), quite depressing.

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- she had blue eyes and brown hair, she was just one year younger than me, she was a bit taller than me (which i liked), and she was always assertive and well-manered.





She moved to my village in 2012, actually one street near mine, then she started to greet the kids around so i meet her that way, i was going in 3rd grade when she moved to live here, so at first, we were just playing around like the other kids, i liked her actually, and i would always invite her over whenever i got the time, i would attach myself to her whenever i have the opportunity.

But in 3-4th grade nothing happened with her, we didn't clicked. In 5th grade though, she started to show interest in me, i need to tell you that she looked pretty good in my eyes and i worshipped her without she knowing it, so we were playing at some park, and when other kids started to go home, it's only me and her that got alone, and we started to listen to music and sing it haha, that's how she got more comfortable with me, when we were going home after one hour of being alone, i grabbed her around the waist, like when you hold a woman. And she was like "woaah chinzie stop", and she enjoyed it, from her facial impression it looked like she was smilling. Then we sat on some bench that was around, and she sat on my knees, and we were talking about some school stuff i recal, we continued to talk when she suddenly like holded the back of my head, and hugged me, head to shoulders

her other hand was on my lower back, because upper back is part of the bench. So i started to kiss her neck, and grab her ass, that's how we started kissing in the mouth and neck, this has happened in 5th grade summer (2014), and i haven't felt as much like petrified because i used to
spank her ass earlier, in 4th grade i started to show that i like her and she knew it, she just didn't showed that she likes me back so i didn't knew. And when we finished kissing (we just kissed on the cheeks), we went home by holding our hands together, and because it was night, all stores were closed, i wanted to buy her a chocolate, so i bought her a big chocolate tomorrow (i was turbo bluepilled), and that's how our relationship begun. We also played games together (she is just
one year younger than me), and she listened to everything i said, we was a pretty good couple

it brings me the tears when i think about it. We played sims together and she created a family with me and her, she hasn't showed me any significant like lust, but she liked me and you can see it, she was the best girl i have meet in my life, it brings me tears everytime i think about what i have done. The reason why we splitted up is becasue i was suspicious of her that she cheated on me with some other faggot from school, and out of rush of anger i destroyed her gate, and her dad banned her from seeing with me ever again. She was a little mad at me but i could see that she still liked me, i was turbo bluepiled at the time, (the end was in january 2016), and if i did not broke her gate and cursed at her, maybe i will still be in relationship with her.. it's honestly sad man, i started crying again, she was my oneitis also, becasue she is the first girl that i secretly worshipped, and had an intimate relationship with her. Yes it was just a kiss, but she was fucking 10 years olf, and i was just 11 (In 2014). Even the 1000 amnesia slays couldn't replace the pure love and memories of the childhood, because she was genuinely loving me unconditionally, and we both were careless, naive and happy at the time. I would crave this feeling of just kissing the girl in the bed.

I remember being locked in her room, eating cookies together while it's snowing, then watching some television and playing sims together, thinking about our family and stuff while we were hugged in a blanket together. The entire day could pass away, and we could have a sleepover sometimes. I still remember how we both loved this song, and called it "our song":


Now this was a 6 years ago almost. I had so many nostalgic strikes in which i would cry, but oh well, i was just a kid then i guess, and i still cannot get over this feeling. 😔


@BalkanPig @realklay11 @Chad1212 @Acnno @john2 @pizza @xefo @larsanova69 @moonblunt @Marsiere214 sorry if i missed anyone, those have been the people that i've been messaging with, in the last 2 days
 
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This is even deeper than teen love

teen love is mostly just lust

But this is a big childhood memory, this is affection for somebody. A true genuine love.

I laugh at people like @JM10 and @TraumatisedOgre but deep down i'm mentally weak exactly like them, this will follow me for life.
 
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I feel u...
 
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Fuck bro i almost let a tear since it reminds me of my previous oneitis..I had same experience,btw i already told you i think,but i used to love one girl and we would spend days together,we were talking usually alone in the parks,laughing,listening to music ,watching moviest etc...The moment i told how much i love her,she rejected me...I wasn't feeling well and i asked her why do i get rejected all the time and she told me that i am ugly....I went to closest bridge and was about to jump,all the people there were just standing which gave me more pressure..I just went home in disgust and shame,no words can describe my sadness that day..:feelswah:
 
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Damn you were having a gf at 11 back in 2014 while the most exhilarating thing for me back then was playing with my Lego sets.

I kinda regret not experiencing that tbh, it must have been a nice innocent type of love, now at this age I feel like it is too late since every decent looking girl has had multiple partners and I feel like I am just getting a used car with many miles on it every time I ask out an attractive girl
 
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Damn, that's really sad. I can't believe you still hold feelings for her after 6 years. I was in 1 relationship for 6 months and I couldn't care less if she died in ditch.
 
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I remember being locked in her room, eating cookies together while it's snowing, then watching some television and playing sims together, thinking about our family and stuff while we were hugged in a blanket together. The entire day could pass away, and we could have a sleepover sometimes. I still remember how we both loved this song, and called it "our song":
fuark bro this sounds so good, at least you had this experience
 
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