the "blackpill" almost killed me. Why couldn't it work, why am I the anomaly.

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First post on here wanted to share my story how I got to this point and how the "blackpill" almost killed me. It started about two years ago, this whole looksmaxxing thing, I started having really bad breakouts at the time and was growing more insecure by the months. I had alot of friends in school, but was still the butt of the joke in every scenario. My appearance made me less appealing to be around, hoodie up, messy hair, terrible acne, strange smile, crooked eyes. I started learning more about what I could do to change, to come off as more "normal" and appealing. It wasn't until around beginning of this year when I started really changing things, the regular stuff diet, sleep, lifestyle, "personality". And by late summer I was seeing huge life improvements, I was seriously happy. But it was shortlived, I knew it wasn't enough and while yes on the inside alot had changed and people definitely noticed it, but on the outside I still saw the same face which gave me great displeasure. A mix of radicalization and simply being surrounded by the looks/bp space led me even deeper and I began researching peptides around the same time summer ended. Everyday, in school, at home, at night, it was starting to consume me, the more I researched about peptides the more I fell into the bp hole. I had now ordered two 10mg vials of cjc + ipa. I knew that if I wasn't doing everything I possibly could to "ascend" there was no point. The fateful night of October 6th, the day that was 100mcg from killing me. That night was supposed to be the start of a new life, one where I was taller, more confident and no longer that same acne ridden insecure pleb. I decided on a 40mcg microdose to start with, as I'd eventually work my way up to 125mcg. Weeks of research, years of pain, this was it, initially I felt dizzy as many said I'd feel but it wasn't long before it all went black, I can't remember anything after the initial dizziness, and sooner than later I was abruptly woken from what felt like an extremly lucid dream by my mothers screams. Fully pale in the face my mom tells me I had a seizure. I simply couldn't fathom it, everyone I spoke to, everyone who gave me hope, all the research NOBODY mentioned seizures ever. it was all in vain. If I had taken more than 40mcg there was a large possibility it could have been much worse. This leads me to now, WHY COULDN'T IT WORK, WHY WAS I THE ONE THAT HAD TO SUFFER THE MOST SEVERE OF SIDE EFFECTS WHY IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. I wish I was pinning in my room right now. Why did it have to be me, the only person that this has ever happened to, I just don't fucking get it.

Maybe this is a bit sloppily written but for anyone who cared to read, I'd really like to understand how I was the only one this happened to. My life is a living example of falling to deep into the hole. FUCK.
 
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so basically you want to tell us you nearly died from 40mcg cjc no dac+ ipa:lul:
 
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First post on here wanted to share my story how I got to this point and how the "blackpill" almost killed me. It started about two years ago, this whole looksmaxxing thing, I started having really bad breakouts at the time and was growing more insecure by the months. I had alot of friends in school, but was still the butt of the joke in every scenario. My appearance made me less appealing to be around, hoodie up, messy hair, terrible acne, strange smile, crooked eyes. I started learning more about what I could do to change, to come off as more "normal" and appealing. It wasn't until around beginning of this year when I started really changing things, the regular stuff diet, sleep, lifestyle, "personality". And by late summer I was seeing huge life improvements, I was seriously happy. But it was shortlived, I knew it wasn't enough and while yes on the inside alot had changed and people definitely noticed it, but on the outside I still saw the same face which gave me great displeasure. A mix of radicalization and simply being surrounded by the looks/bp space led me even deeper and I began researching peptides around the same time summer ended. Everyday, in school, at home, at night, it was starting to consume me, the more I researched about peptides the more I fell into the bp hole. I had now ordered two 10mg vials of cjc + ipa. I knew that if I wasn't doing everything I possibly could to "ascend" there was no point. The fateful night of October 6th, the day that was 100mcg from killing me. That night was supposed to be the start of a new life, one where I was taller, more confident and no longer that same acne ridden insecure pleb. I decided on a 40mcg microdose to start with, as I'd eventually work my way up to 125mcg. Weeks of research, years of pain, this was it, initially I felt dizzy as many said I'd feel but it wasn't long before it all went black, I can't remember anything after the initial dizziness, and sooner than later I was abruptly woken from what felt like an extremly lucid dream by my mothers screams. Fully pale in the face my mom tells me I had a seizure. I simply couldn't fathom it, everyone I spoke to, everyone who gave me hope, all the research NOBODY mentioned seizures ever. it was all in vain. If I had taken more than 40mcg there was a large possibility it could have been much worse. This leads me to now, WHY COULDN'T IT WORK, WHY WAS I THE ONE THAT HAD TO SUFFER THE MOST SEVERE OF SIDE EFFECTS WHY IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. I wish I was pinning in my room right now. Why did it have to be me, the only person that this has ever happened to, I just don't fucking get it.

Maybe this is a bit sloppily written but for anyone who cared to read, I'd really like to understand how I was the only one this happened to. My life is a living example of falling to deep into the hole. FUCK.
U messed up the injection point thats the problem
 
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Thanks for the insight, I assumed it was something with the needle, could you elaborate more? I injected at a 45 degree angle into my right lower abdomen
 
Thanks for the insight, I assumed it was something with the needle, could you elaborate more? I injected at a 45 degree angle into my right lower abdomen
Try injecting in the upper side of the glute or the latissimus dorsi, u injected it into your circulatory system which u shouldnt have done, I would assume even if its not classical anabolics that it should be injected in the same way. I also assume that since its fairly common for unexperienced ppl to do the same and feint, its full of testimonies if u search up ppl tryna inject test or similar for the first time.
 
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Try injecting in the upper side of the glute or the latissimus dorsi, u injected it into your circulatory system which u shouldnt have done, I would assume even if its not classical anabolics that it should be injected in the same way. I also assume that since its fairly common for unexperienced ppl to do the same and feint, its full of testimonies if u search up ppl tryna inject test or similar for the first time.
Thanks, gonna try again in a couple weeks, came to a conclusion that I went through a convulsive syncope.
 
the fuck do you want from me, I almost did, THATS WHY IT'S WEIRD, NOBODY HAS EVER FELT ANYTHING FROM 40 FUCKING MCG
its a histamine reaction are u retarded just take antihistamines and it stops
most peoples first pin is like that
 

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