The Consequences Of The Larp

[dhusc]

you ever talk to someone just to realise you have absolutely nothing going on in ur life both past n present

I remember talking to girls and even guys and whenever the conversation shifted to me I’d larp about relationships, cheating etc. all with there own twist just to fit in, even when I talk about larping I larp about certain experiences to exaggerate it

I have had 0 relationships because I’m a high inhib, nd low dimo, short cutecel with a shitty ectomorph frame with barely anything going for him, I’m not intelligent, I’m not studious nor am I athletic, I haven’t done anything for myself nor have I had any real fun in my life

I stick with a few friends but other than I’m very lonely, it’s almost impossible for me to make friends on my own, I have no reason to larp but I still do as if it’s a habit

I fake my laughs, I fake my emotions, I couldn’t care less about the shit they talk about nor do I find it very funny, I feel like a fake individual who’s scared to improve, it’s like I missed a lane and I can’t go back, I wanna improve, I wanna excel but I’m held back by my own mind in everything, I’m limited by my own body and mind for something I didn’t have a choice in, every single negative seems to be directed towards me even if it is completely unrelated

 

[dhusc]

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[dhusc]

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[AUGUST.6foot6]

what do u want me to say gng in all honesty this just sounds sad not much we can do

 

[AUGUST.6foot6]

go to a lil baby concert or something improves life quality

 

[dhusc]

what do u want me to say gng in all honesty this just sounds sad not much we can do

rep my fucking post before you comment first

 

[dhusc]

go to a lil baby concert or something improves life quality

nigga are you tryna make me kill myself wtf

 

[literallytaxidriver]

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Larping and maladaptive day dreaming is very dangerous

It's a form of escapism. When you LARP as a chad or a morph of yourself, your brain releases dopamine. You get the reward of being a slayer, getting girls eyc without doing the hard work, being born genetic elite, taking the risk etc Your brain doesn't care if it's fake. It still releases...

looksmax.org

 

[dhusc]

@Jason Voorhees @Gengar’s Ghost

 

[Jgns]

how old are u

 

[dhusc]

Larping and maladaptive day dreaming is very dangerous

It's a form of escapism. When you LARP as a chad or a morph of yourself, your brain releases dopamine. You get the reward of being a slayer, getting girls eyc without doing the hard work, being born genetic elite, taking the risk etc Your brain doesn't care if it's fake. It still releases...

looksmax.org

genuinely perfect response to this post

literally fits with everything I feel about larping

the initial rush of dopamine is like genuine crack to me, but it all goes downhill the moment I realise the contrast between what I say and reality

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

@Jason Voorhees @Gengar’s Ghost

I can imagine there’s lots of people guilty of doing this.

 

[dhusc]

how old are u

19

 

[gopeurim]

brotal stuff nigga

 

[Sub->CL]

I can imagine there’s lots of people guilty of doing this.

caught me

 

[dhusc]

I can imagine there’s lots of people guilty of doing this.

I genuinely realise how cancerous this actually is

to forever chase that rush of dopamine for something that doesn’t exist

 

[dhusc]

@tgun564636 @im.dark.wrld

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

caught me

Sub->C(aught)L

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

I genuinely realise how cancerous this actually is

to forever chase that rush of dopamine for something that doesn’t exist

Many men, man.

 

[dhusc]

Many men, man.

me without my daily dose of copium

 

[Jgns]

19

nigga we're the same age basically its not over uve still got a decade atleast. Work hard this year just do whatever u can the hardest u can make enough money to get high enough roi surgeries then ascend in a year or two. Its simple to say but it truly takes dedication, though its not impossible, I started this year and made 80k+ for surgeries and this was with my mentally fucked up mind. YOU CAN DO IT BRO TRUST. The ability to change ur fate is completely in ur hands. Imagine the life after ascension, FUCKK I COULD CUUMM. Think about that and work bro.

 

[Navity]

I genuinely realise how cancerous this actually is

to forever chase that rush of dopamine for something that doesn’t exist

Has become like an addiction atp, even if I try to not do it --- I end up doing it

 

[dhusc]

Has become like an addiction atp, even if I try to not do it --- I end up doing it

bro I larped about little girls approaching me out for absolutely 0 fucking reason at all today

this was right after I told her about me larping about relationships too

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

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me without my daily dose of copium

Lol.

 

[Nathan Fielder]

go to a lil baby concert or something improves life quality

 

[dhusc]

Lol.

you know gengar you make me really hard

 

[Gengar’s Ghost]

bro I larped about little girls approaching me out for absolutely 0 fucking reason at all today

this was right after I told her about me larping about relationships too

you know gengar you make me really hard

20% for gayposting?

 

[KellSS]

 

[dhusc]

20% for gayposting?

I just wanted to be nice

and by little girls I mean 14-15 and how I rejected them because I’m a grown man

 

[dhusc]

I’ll pay any mod 415 shekels to ban this guy for life

 

[KellSS]

I’ll pay any mod 415 shekels to ban this guy for life

I will pay 500 rupies

 

[IBlameEveryoneElse]

Irl larpers male me wanna kms cause they male me feel like i misswd out even more fuck you i hope u suffer tbh

 

[ProBono]

incredibly relatable, sometimes I find myself just rigorously mapping out some plausible way to cover up my web of lies and it's led to me somewhat distancing myself from friends etc. I don't feel any guilt over lying, at least my conscious self doesn't whereas my subconscious will sometimes express this pent up regret in the form of dreams, and on some level I think I've accepted the utility of maintaining a fake persona but the line between my persona and the real me practically doesn't exist apart from as some aspect of my consciousness which is increasingly fading into memory.

I'm a deeply and often strongly cynical person but as my life goes on I've found it increasingly easier to lie and fake my own convictions, after all what I'm really invested in is how people perceive me and how I'll be able to cultivate an image of myself which, if not perfect, is at least entirely within my own control. If people believe in this ideal of me, then in my mind I've lived up to that ideal because the only true reality lies in the perceptions of others. It's the only reality which appeals to my base instincts to improve my social standing/lot in life and above all to not be seen for who I truly am, if I am anything at all.

Beneath the act and the compulsion to act, I think I'm ultimately just a completely confused and lost soul who's driven by his impulses, to gain pleasure in leisure yes but above all to avoid the pain of discovery, like an actor bombing on stage or something. I pride myself on my intelligence but I think another part of what's driven me to read so much on philosophy and psychology is the desire to understand how people work and think and by extension myself. In some ways this message is the most honest I could ever be, on a subconscious level I am still trying to make my thoughts known and presentable but I think this and some of my other rants on this site are cathartic in the sense that there are no stakes for me. I understand that even if people are reading these rants they'd have no impact on my "life" (really my comfort, and by extension my sense of security) and I take solace in imagining that they'd possibly relate to my alienation with society.

 

[Med Amine]

No one talk to me irl so i dont even get to larp