astatin
Luminary
- Joined
- Dec 10, 2025
- Posts
- 5,120
- Reputation
- 11,674
POV:
u finally meet the girl who loves u for who u really are. not the version of you that acts confident outside and dying in the inside. tired eyes, overthinking mind, shaking hands and all.
ur laying beside her at 2am while the world outside is silent. her fingers trace slow circles on ur chest while ur head rests against her shoulder. for once ur not trying to be funny. not trying to impress anyone. not trying to hide the exhaustion that’s been eating u alive for years.
everything feels quiet
she asks softly what’s wrong, and at first u say nothing out of habit. because that’s just who you are, that's what u always say. nobody ever really wanted the real answer before.
but this time something breaks.
ur voice starts shaking. ur chest tightens. tears u promised urself would never come start falling before u can stop them. u tell her everything. the nights u stared at the ceiling wondering why u were never enough. the way u slowly stopped texting people first because nobody noticed when u disappeared anyway. the birthdays that felt empty. the friendships that faded. the feeling of being surrounded by people and still feeling completely alone.
u tell her about the nights u sat on the bathroom floor at night trying to vomit every last bit of food. about how exhausting it is pretending to be okay all the time. how every compliment feels fake. how every i care about u sounds temporary.
u admit that deep down, u stopped believing anyone could actually love u once they saw the real version of u.
she listens to every word.
she doesn’t interrupt. doesn’t judge. doesn’t look uncomfortable. she just pulls u closer like she’s scared the world hurt u too much already. she wipes ur tears with her sleeve and kisses ur forehead softly while whispering that ur not difficult to love. that ur not broken. that u deserved kindness long before u met her.
and hearing those words hurts more than anything.
because nobody ever said them before.
u start crying harder. years of pain pouring out all at once. all the loneliness u buried so deep finally finding a way to escape. ur hands shake while u hold onto her hoodie like if u let go she’ll disappear too.
she tells u she’s not leaving.
she tells u she sees every scar u hide behind
ur smile.
she tells u she’d stay through every ugly part of ur mind.
and for the first time in years… u believe someone.
u fall asleep in her arms feeling human again. feeling wanted. feeling like maybe life won’t always hurt this much.
And then u wake up.
phone drier than a desert
no warmth beside u. no sleepy voice telling u good morning. no fingers tangled with urs. just silence so loud it makes ur chest ache.
u stare at the ceiling trying to hold onto the dream before it fades, but reality settles in slowly like a knife pressing deeper and deeper into ur heart.
It was all fake
She wasn't there for you
nobody ever was.
u check ur phone anyway even though u already know. no missed calls. no messages asking if ur okay. no i miss u. just the same empty screen that’s greeted u every morning for years.
for the rest of the day u carry the dream around like a ghost. little things remind u of her. songs sound sadder. couples on the street make ur stomach hurt. u keep imagining what her laugh sounded like even though u never actually heard it.
that night u lay in bed hoping maybe if u fall asleep fast enough you’ll find her again.
but dreams simply don’t work like that.
so instead u stare into the dark until sunrise, feeling emptier than before, because now u know exactly what ur missing.
that was the first and the last time you will ever feel it.
u finally meet the girl who loves u for who u really are. not the version of you that acts confident outside and dying in the inside. tired eyes, overthinking mind, shaking hands and all.
ur laying beside her at 2am while the world outside is silent. her fingers trace slow circles on ur chest while ur head rests against her shoulder. for once ur not trying to be funny. not trying to impress anyone. not trying to hide the exhaustion that’s been eating u alive for years.
everything feels quiet
she asks softly what’s wrong, and at first u say nothing out of habit. because that’s just who you are, that's what u always say. nobody ever really wanted the real answer before.
but this time something breaks.
ur voice starts shaking. ur chest tightens. tears u promised urself would never come start falling before u can stop them. u tell her everything. the nights u stared at the ceiling wondering why u were never enough. the way u slowly stopped texting people first because nobody noticed when u disappeared anyway. the birthdays that felt empty. the friendships that faded. the feeling of being surrounded by people and still feeling completely alone.
u tell her about the nights u sat on the bathroom floor at night trying to vomit every last bit of food. about how exhausting it is pretending to be okay all the time. how every compliment feels fake. how every i care about u sounds temporary.
u admit that deep down, u stopped believing anyone could actually love u once they saw the real version of u.
she listens to every word.
she doesn’t interrupt. doesn’t judge. doesn’t look uncomfortable. she just pulls u closer like she’s scared the world hurt u too much already. she wipes ur tears with her sleeve and kisses ur forehead softly while whispering that ur not difficult to love. that ur not broken. that u deserved kindness long before u met her.
and hearing those words hurts more than anything.
because nobody ever said them before.
u start crying harder. years of pain pouring out all at once. all the loneliness u buried so deep finally finding a way to escape. ur hands shake while u hold onto her hoodie like if u let go she’ll disappear too.
she tells u she’s not leaving.
she tells u she sees every scar u hide behind
ur smile.
she tells u she’d stay through every ugly part of ur mind.
and for the first time in years… u believe someone.
u fall asleep in her arms feeling human again. feeling wanted. feeling like maybe life won’t always hurt this much.
And then u wake up.
phone drier than a desert
no warmth beside u. no sleepy voice telling u good morning. no fingers tangled with urs. just silence so loud it makes ur chest ache.
u stare at the ceiling trying to hold onto the dream before it fades, but reality settles in slowly like a knife pressing deeper and deeper into ur heart.
It was all fake
She wasn't there for you
nobody ever was.
u check ur phone anyway even though u already know. no missed calls. no messages asking if ur okay. no i miss u. just the same empty screen that’s greeted u every morning for years.
for the rest of the day u carry the dream around like a ghost. little things remind u of her. songs sound sadder. couples on the street make ur stomach hurt. u keep imagining what her laugh sounded like even though u never actually heard it.
that night u lay in bed hoping maybe if u fall asleep fast enough you’ll find her again.
but dreams simply don’t work like that.
so instead u stare into the dark until sunrise, feeling emptier than before, because now u know exactly what ur missing.
that was the first and the last time you will ever feel it.
